I Finally Realized the Importance of Cultivating Solidly

(Minghui.org) Soon after I was born, my mother began to practice Falun Dafa. When she went to other practitioners’ homes to do the exercises I sat on the side and played. When I was in elementary school my mother asked me to do the exercises and study the Fa (teachings) with her. But unfortunately, as I grew older, I became lazy and drifted along with ordinary people’s society. I didn’t do the three things. Even though I knew in my heart that I should keep high moral standards and be a good person, I was no longer worthy of the title “Falun Dafa practitioner.”

But Master didn’t give up on me. When I was unemployed and stayed at home, I thought I might as well read Master’s new lectures. My thought was that since I couldn’t find a job, if I didn’t study the Fa at home, my parents would think I was idle. By reading the teachings, I returned to the path of cultivation and found what I’d been waiting for for thousands of years—to be a genuine practitioner.

One night I dreamed I was taking a test in a classroom. All my classmates handed in their exam papers, but the invigilator was waiting for me. After I finished my exam, I realized I hadn’t submitted my previous exam paper yet, but the invigilator submitted it for me. From this dream I understood that all these years, Master has been waiting for me to hand in my exam paper. The following are my cultivation experiences.

Looking Inward at Work

As I began to read Master’s lectures given in different cities, the more I read, the more I liked reading them. From satisfying my curiosity, I gradually realized the importance of cultivating myself and the responsibility that a practitioner shoulders.

I made up my mind to recite Zhuan Falun and I decided to memorize it word for word without making any mistakes. When I first started, I found it rather hard. Sometimes there were typos in a paragraph, or I would forget what I'd recited. I recited it on the subway during my commute to and from work. But because of the noisy environment, I had difficulty remembering.

Now, before I head out for work in the morning, I read Master’s lectures. With the Fa in my mind whenever I run into issues at work I’m able to look inward.

My boss often changed our work requirements, such as requiring 10 resources per day this week and 15 the next. This time, he added a lot of restrictions to the work itself, while demanding we meet certain quotas. He criticized my colleagues and me for failing to meet our goals. When I argued with him, he became aggressive. I suddenly remembered that I was a practitioner, and I needed to send the resources that I obtained to other practitioners for truth-clarification. I realized that perhaps Master felt that I found too few people with a predestined relationship, and he specifically looked for these people by adding these requirements. I immediately stopped arguing and I calmed down. It only dawned on me then that I had little forbearance and I easily argue with others.

Another major mistake occurred when I was covering for a colleague. Another colleague immediately spoke up for me, saying it wasn’t my responsibility. Then, many people said it wasn’t my fault.

However, on my way home, the more I thought about it, the more uneasy I felt. After telling my mother what happened, I found my attachments: I had a huge argumentative streak; I became complacent when others spoke in support of me; and I had a selfish desire to form cliques among my colleagues. It’s really bad! I should expose these attachments and eliminate all of them.

My Computer Helps Eliminate My Attachments

I wanted a device that allowed me to access the Internet at anytime, so I bought a small tablet computer. Besides having drawing software on it, it didn’t have any of the usual apps. It worked great at first and I could access the Internet and browse websites for hours. I also got to watch last year’s Shen Yun performance.

I gradually had trouble accessing the Internet. I was anxious, and had no choice but to use my mother’s device. One day I realized my attachments must be preventing the tablet from functioning properly. I discovered my attachment of wishing to read news on The Epoch Times website and watch the Shen Yun “Three Musketeers” videos. I claimed to be checking Minghui.org, but I didn’t spend much time on that. After I discovered this attachment, I quickly downloaded the app to break through the Internet blockade and I was able to surf the Internet freely again.

However, after a while, I couldn’t access the app. When I looked inward, I discovered that while I was playing a computer game with a friend my attachment of lust was overwhelming. My tablet was previously clean, but through playing computer games, I saved some related images. I gradually stopped playing, but the fact that I’d paid for the game and the need to connect with friends kept me glued to it. When I discovered thism I immediately deleted the game and the related apps from my phone, and my tablet started working! I then quickly deleted everything related to the game from the tablet.

During this time, my coworkers of the opposite sex began paying attention to me. Also, as I was getting older, my family and friends urged me to date and get married. These were also a testament to my lustful nature and made me determined to eliminate it.

Clarifying the Truth Is Not a “One-Time Task”

Through Fa-study, I gradually realized that I needed to do the three things practitioners should do. When I was in junior high school, I clarified the truth about the persecution to my classmates. Even though I didn’t put much effort into my studies during that time, I was always the top student in the grade.

I later realized that some of my classmates whom I'd talked to about Dafa, although they quit the Chinese Communist Party’s (CCP) youth organizations, had joined the Party itself when they went to university. So I began to clarify the truth to them again. They agreed with what I said and acknowledged that Dafa is good and the CCP’s persecution was wrong.

I felt that it went well, so I wrote to two friends, hoping I could help them quit the Party. This time, however, one friend refused to accept my offer, saying she’d make her own judgment. Another friend returned my gift and letter and stopped talking to me. I was deeply hurt and felt lost. I even thought of giving up because I felt I failed.

I read the Nine Commentaries on the Communist Party seriously, which broke through many of my Party culture notions. I also read experience sharing articles on Minghui. One practitioner clarified the truth to someone for seven years before the person finally agreed to quit the CCP. However, I always took truth-clarification as a “one-time task.” Before that, when I clarified the truth to my old classmates, it included the efforts that I made previously, as opposed to only one time.

When I looked within, I realized I was still afraid of inviting trouble. I had the attachment to doing things, and I was afraid of being misunderstood when I talked to people. I lacked righteous thoughts, and I was too anxious. Now, when I talk to people about Dafa, I gradually let go of these attachments. Sometimes when I couldn’t make myself understood, I wasn’t attached to the results. I spent more time studying the Fa so I could cultivate better. Then I looked for opportunities to try again.

Eliminating My Last Attachments

Master mentioned that practitioners came from three groups. I sometimes wondered which one I belonged to. I only recently resumed practicing, what if I’m not a Fa-rectification period practitioner? When I read what Master said about completing our cultivation, I’m sometimes happy. But sometimes I worry that I’ll end up staying in the human world when the Fa rectifies it. Even though I studied the Fa, I always harbored anxiety over my losses and gains. I was also very attached to time, afraid that I wouldn’t have time to talk to enough people about Dafa. I had all kinds of mentalities, which all came down to my attachments and selfishness.

My computer also acted up. It showed that I was connected, yet I couldn’t browse the Minghui website. I was baffled. Then, I suddenly realized that we’ve come to the final stage in our cultivation, so why was I still attached to when I’d complete cultivation and which group of practitioners I belonged to? I always reminded my mother not to worry. Wasn’t my attachment to time a big loophole? When I encountered problems, I seldom looked inward.

No matter what group of practitioners I belong to, I must follow Master, do the three things well, cultivate myself well every day, and walk on the path arranged by Master.

Many people no longer believe in God. They are under great pressure in life, and face unemployment but they don’t know that this is all caused by their karma. Young practitioners of my age, I hope we talk to more people about Dafa and return to our true homes together! I hope every practitioner cultivates with the same diligence and commitment as when we first began practicing