(Clearwisdom.net) In May 2008, I was arrested and tortured by the thugs from the Domestic Security Team. Later, under Master's protection, I successfully walked away from my imprisonment. I am hereby writing down the persecution that I suffered for one and a half months, my experience and personal understanding. Please kindly point any inappropriate parts.
One day in late May, as I was just finishing lunch, someone knocked on my door. I opened the door without thinking, and about seven or eight policemen from the Domestic Security Team rushed in. After showing me their search warrant, they started to search my residence. It all happened so suddenly that I felt somewhat overwhelmed, even though I remembered to ask Master to help me eliminate the vicious forces. Because my frame of mind was not entirely righteous, I was unable to control the situation. The thugs took Master's portrait and my Dafa books. Additionally, they stole my computer, printer and some other personal belongings. In the end, they showed me the arrest warrant intending to arrest me (they obviously had planned in advance to arrest me, even if they could not find anything incriminating). I absolutely refused to cooperate with them, hence I was forcibly carried out of my home by four muscular policemen. I struggled the entire time and shouted, "Falun Dafa is good!" I also asked Master to help me at the same time. After carrying me downstairs, they all felt exhausted. Shoving me down to the ground, they forcefully twisted my arms and legs around (because of this, my right elbow, wrist joints and left knee were all severely bruised). After that, they threw me into the police vehicle and took me to the Domestic Security Team Building. I told them that they were persecuting me.
They interrogated me on the matter of my distributing the DVD's of the Nine Commentaries on the Communist Party. I told them that there was nothing wrong with the Nine Commentaries. Couldn't we instead discuss what's wrong with the Communist Party? The Chinese Communist Party (CCP) is the main source of the corruption and darkness that is rampant in China. Chinese people are monitored and restricted every single minute of their lives. While examining history through the unfolding of events, the Nine Commentaries exposes the true evil nature of the CCP. Was there anything wrong with this? When they asked me to sign the minutes of the interrogation, I noticed there was one line included that I never said. They could have used that one line that I did not say to trap me (the evil forces take every opportunity to persecute Dafa practitioners). After that sentence was corrected, I signed my name. When I was about to put my fingerprint on as I was asked to, the ink box suddenly dropped to the floor. I immediately realized that I shouldn't have signed, nor should I give them my finger print. If I did this, then wasn't I cooperating with the evil? After realizing this, I refused to put my fingerprint on the paper. Because of this I understood that we should not sign our names, nor should we give our finger prints to the evil forces. Furthermore, we should ignore their request to collect "evidence." I was locked up in a detention center.
While I was imprisoned at the detention center, I remembered Master's teaching, "No matter what the situation, do not cooperate with the evil's demands, orders, or what it instigates." ("Dafa Disciples' Righteous Thoughts are Powerful" from Essentials for Further Advancement II) At the detention center, I refused to cooperate with the evil: I did not wear the inmate uniform, I did not recite the center's rules, and I did not allow them to take pictures of me or record my fingerprints. Because I would not let them shave my head, four of them forcibly held me down to the floor and shaved my head. I firmly resisted, and shouted at the same time, "Falun Dafa is good!" I also asked Master to help me. My elbows and knees were bleeding, but they were still unable to cut my hair. Afterwards one guard said, "Considering your old age, we gave up trying to shave you." I did not respond. I knew that Master had helped me. It was because of the mighty power of Dafa. I told Master in my heart, "Master, I must hold on to my righteous mind. I won't bring shame to Master, and Dafa." For over a month at the detention center, I tried to find every opportunity possible to clarify the truth about Dafa to the guards and the inmates and convince them to quit the CCP and its associated organizations. At the same time, I searched inside myself to see what loopholes I had developed that were allowing the evil forces to persecute me this way. After searching inward, I found out that I still had many very strong attachments. Besides the attachment to competitiveness, monetary gains, and sentiment, I was still pursuing worldly things, and I was still filled with desires for those things that I hadn't been able to achieve in my ordinary life. These attachments were interfering with me so severely that I still was longing to have a comfortable life in ordinary human society. I was holding on to these worldly things so tightly that I refused to let go. In retrospect, I had actually identified these attachments before, but I did not pay much attention to eliminating them. I was grasping divinity with one hand, while the other hand held on tightly to the worldly things and I would not let them go. This is not cultivation! I decided that in the future I must pay attention to every single one of my thoughts, and if I see something that is not righteous, I must eliminate that thought right away.
Besides the attachments that I mentioned earlier, I also had an attachment to lust. I had been working on eliminating my attachment to lust the entire time that I have been practicing. The human moral standards have deteriorated so much, and my attachment to lust was strong in the beginning. Although it had been weakened over the years since I started cultivating, I still had not been able to totally eliminate it. Sometimes, I could not pass this test in my dreams. Nevertheless, since I had not been bothered by this attachment for over a year, I believed that I had probably pretty much passed the test of lust. However, inside the dirty environment of the detention center, the inmates constantly used profane and dirty language, and they vividly described their past "love history." Those words kept pouring into my ears, and it was impossible for me not to listen. While outwardly it seemed as if I was not affected by those words, however, four times in my dreams I was unable to keep my heart righteous when facing the test of lust. This was showing me that, in reality, my attachment to lust was still subconsciously affecting me. I immediately warned myself that I must be on the alert. I started to recite the Fa more often, so that all of my beings in every dimension would be totally immersed in the Fa, and I could therefore eliminate any negative substances before they could interfere with me. In the meantime, I sent forth righteous thoughts to cleanse the evil environment in the detention center. Especially when the inmates began talking about dirty subjects, I would send righteous thoughts to cleanse those evil and lust substances that were behind the inmates. After this, the environment became better. Master said,
"You will be made to abandon all those attachments that cannot be given up among everyday people. As long as you have them, all of those attachments must be removed in different environments. You will be made to stumble, whereby you will become enlightened to the Tao. This is how one goes through cultivation practice. " (Lecture Four, Zhuan Falun, 2000 translation version)
The detention center was a special place for me to pass the test of lust.
I was detained at the detention center for a month. During the days that I was there, I spent most of my time reciting the Fa and sending forth righteous thoughts. The policemen from the Domestic Security Team came to "greet" me three times, and threatened that if I continued to refuse to cooperate with them, they would intensify the level of punishment. But no matter how I was threatened, I was not scared. I still refused to sign my name on their records. From then on, they never showed me the legal documents of the persecution, and neither did they again try to force me to sign their records.
One month later, some policemen from the Domestic Security Team took me to their temporary detention center where I was told that I had been sentenced to one year of forced labor. During my time in this center, I had a chance to practice the exercises, and resumed sending forth righteous thoughts and practicing the exercises daily. A week later, I was transferred to the labor camp. On my way there, I constantly sent forth righteous thoughts to eliminate the evil forces. Before arriving at the labor camp hospital for a physical check-up, I told Master in my heart, "Master, the labor camp is not the right place for me. I must return to society, in order to do the three things and save people. I must make up for those parts that I did not do well in the past. Please help strengthen my power, so that they will find something physically wrong with me, and they will not admit me." The physical at the labor camp was simply an ordinary routine check-up. When they measured my blood pressure, they found that I had "high blood pressure." Suddenly, I could feel that Master was right there to protect me. He would not allow the vicious forces to continue persecuting me. I could not find any words to express my appreciation for what Master had done for me in my heart, but outwardly I stayed calm. In the meantime, I intensified my righteous thoughts. The doctor who checked my blood pressure told the policemen that they would have to take me back to their temporary detention center. After begging the labor camp to admit me but failing, the director of the center had to take me back.
A week later, someone from the Domestic Security Team notified my son to take me home. They handed the sentence of "One Year Under House Arrest" to my son (not a practitioner) who was supposed to hand over the warrant to our local police station. At home, my son told me that I was required to report to the local police station once a month. I immediately denied this arrangement in my heart, but that "warrant" was still kept in my home. A month after I had returned home, I asked myself, "Why was I still keeping that piece of paper? Wasn't I accepting the evil's law that the vicious forces had used to persecute me?" Searching deeper inside myself, I found that there was an attachment to fear hidden in the depths of my heart. I was feeling sorry for myself. Master had helped me and worried about me. Was the evil force bigger or the power of the Fa mightier? Hadn't I just experienced the power of the Fa first-hand? Why was a dignified and upright Dafa practitioner afraid of the evil? Upon realizing this, I burned that warrant right away.
Recalling all these events, I have truly experienced the mighty power and magnificence of Dafa. It is my honor to cultivate in Dafa. I should treasure Dafa, and this opportunity! I have become more determined to cultivate in Dafa. Yet, I also understand the seriousness of cultivation. Fa-rectification is in it's final phase. Not a single iota of human attachment can be taken away with us. I must best use my time to do the three things well, and to cultivate. Furthermore, I must have a correct understanding regarding ordeals and suffering on my cultivation path. Master said,
"No matter what it is you have encountered as you've gone about validating the Fa, it is all, I will tell you, a good thing--and that's especially so in these years of persecution--for those things have come about specifically because you do cultivation. Those ordeals and the suffering, no matter how great or harsh you find them to be, are good things, because they take place solely on account of your cultivation. A person can eliminate karma and shed human attachments when he goes through ordeals, and through ordeals he can improve." ("Fa Teaching at the 2008 New York Conference")
From now on, when conflicts occur, I will regard them as opportunities for cultivation. I will search inside, and will not doubt my righteous belief in Dafa. I must have righteous thoughts and behavior so that I will be able to break through all kinds of suffering and ordeals. Only in doing so can I catch up with the process of Fa-rectification.
Having read many articles by fellow practitioners, I know that this article cannot compare with the others. It shows that I am way behind those fellow practitioners on the path of cultivation. Whenever problems occur, my understanding and the ways that I handle those problems often do not meet the standards of the Fa. I hope that fellow practitioners will point out my weaknesses after reading my article.