(Clearwisdom.net) This is my second time participating in the Internet Experience Sharing Conference for Practitioners in China. During the first Internet Sharing Conference, I sent in my sharing article, but it was not published. I missed the opportunity to send in more sharing articles during the 2^nd, 3^rd and 4^th Internet Sharing Conferences. I now see that my previous thoughts were incorrect. As only a small particle in the boundless Dafa, I realize that the process of writing a sharing article is also a process of detailed summarizing and review of my cultivation. It is also a part of Fa-validation. Below, I will share with my fellow practitioners some experiences I have had during the past nine years of cultivation and Fa-validation. Fellow practitioners, please point out any problems in my understanding.

I was fortunate to obtain the Fa in March 1999. At the time I was only 32 years old, but I was already plagued by various illnesses and was miserable. Shortly after I started cultivation, Teacher purified my entire body. My body became problem-free and I was very energetic. I truly experienced the happiness of having no illness. Meanwhile, my view of the world also changed. I learned how to hold myself to a high moral standard and I no longer acted irrationally. Dafa gave me a new life. While I was immersed in the beauty of Dafa, the evil and madness of the persecution began on July 20 of that same year. The TV and newspapers slandered Teacher and Dafa all day long; however, I did not believe a word of it. I deeply believed that it was not wrong that Teacher taught us to be good people in accordance with the principles of Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance. Maybe it was because of this mindset, I was able to breeze through the so-called tests arranged by evil.

At the beginning of the persecution in 1999, the local government requested that the leaders of all work units report the names of all Falun Gong practitioners so that brainwashing sessions could be arranged. The leader of my work unit did not comply with the request but instead protected me and another fellow practitioner. This helped us escape this round of persecution while we repositioned ourselves for a brighter future. Since I started cultivation at a relatively later time and I had not studied the Fa much, I did not know what to do when faced with the sudden oppression and persecution. Later the fellow practitioners around me, after studying the Fa, realized that we should go to Beijing to appeal to the government, to tell people the truth about Falun Dafa and demand the right to practice the exercises. At the time I was not able to see the issue in accordance with the Fa, I had strong human attachments and I did not have enough righteous thoughts. I did not go to Beijing to validate Dafa with them. This has become my life-long regret. Whenever I think about this I feel deep regret: Teacher has done so much for me, yet I was unable to step forward at that critical time to speak out for Teacher and for Dafa.

Later, through studying Teacher's Fa:

"The Fa can break all attachments, the Fa can destroy all evil, the Fa can shatter all lies, and the Fa can strengthen righteous thoughts." ("Drive Out Interference" from Essentials for Further Advancement II)

I came to realize that only if I persist in my Fa study can I have Fa as my guidance to eliminate human attachments, break away from all arrangements by the old forces, and catch up with the Fa-rectification process. This is the only way we can proceed safely and successfully on the cultivation journey arranged by Teacher. Since then, not only did I study Zhuan Falun every day, I also used my spare time to recite Teacher's scriptures and Hong Yin, "Hong Yin (II)" as well as some of Teacher's lectures. The intensive Fa study created a good foundation for my future Fa-validation work.

In order to justify the persecution, the evil Chinese Communist Party (CCP) launched a campaign of lies on the TV. On January 23, 2001 they created the so-called "Tienanmen Self Immolation" incident, which deeply poisoned people's minds. For a time, immense lies deceived people inside and outside of China. My family members and coworkers were all deceived to some extent. This brought about interference to my cultivation.

First the interferences came from my family members. On the third day of the Chinese New Year in 2001, my brother drove my sister, brother-in-law and my parents to the home of my parents-in-law. They said they had to talk to us about our practice of Falun Gong. At the time my husband (also a practitioner) and I were home. Seeing their worried faces, I knew they must have been brainwashed by the CCP propaganda and they wanted us to give up cultivation (previously they all saw the great changes Dafa had brought to us both physically and mentally, so they had not opposed our cultivation practice). Their argument was they feared that if we practiced for long we would become like the persons they showed on TV who ignored their family and their children. They also feared that we would get into trouble by distributing flyers to try to stop the persecution.

I remember that day feeling that there was a very big evil field covering our home. My father-in-law asked us to all sit down and then he asked me if I still practice. I said firmly, "Yes. There is nothing wrong with practicing. Our Teacher asks us to do things according to the principles of Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance. There is nothing wrong about that. The things that have been on TV are all false. You should not listen to them." Then he asked my husband, "Are you listening to me?" My husband said,"I will listen to you if what you say is correct. I will not listen to you if what you say is not correct." Because he still had the attachment to sentimentality that had not yet been eliminated, he did not directly say that he would still practice Falun Gong because he did not want to hurt his father. My father-in-law persisted in asking him, "Are you still practicing or not?" My husband did not answer. My father-in-law saw that he did not answer and he picked up a glass from the table and smashed it on the ground. He lay down on the couch and repeated over and over again, "If you don't listen to me I will die." My husband's sentimentality arose,"You won't die, I will die." When I saw this scene I said loudly, "Don't pressure him any more! You are going to kill each other with this." Before I finished, my younger brother kicked me very hard and knocked me back to the couch two meters away. At the time I did not feel a bit of pain. When I looked down I saw a big footprint on my pants. I knew I was not being righteous at the moment; it was Teacher who bore the blow for me.

Just when everyone jumped in to the argument, my father-in-law said,"That's it for today's discussion! Please stay! (referring to my parents) Please have dinner with us today!" He then asked my husband and me to go to the kitchen to cook. In just a split second it was just like nothing happened. Everything became calm and peaceful.

Several days later, on the eighth day of the Chinese New Year (which was the first day back to work after the holiday) the leaders of my work unit were called to the government building for a meeting about Falun Gong. The unit heads asked me to stay so they could talk to me later. They had heard that I never gave up practicing Falun Gong. They were pressured by their supervisors to talk to me. I was very calm. I thought that I was afraid of nothing because Teacher was with me, and that it was a good opportunity to clarify the truth with my unit heads. I started talking about: what Falun Gong is, why I practice Falun Gong, what Falun Dafa had brought to me both physically and mentally, the wide spread of Dafa in the entire world and the wrongful persecution of Falun Gong by the Chinese Communist Party (CCP). I told them the truth very clearly and detailed. At the time I felt that the field around us was very pure and righteous. The unit heads acknowledged what I said and they said to me, "Since Falun Gong is so good, you can practice well at home!"

For several years later my bosses and family members were not influenced by the evil atmosphere around us. Instead, they always kindly reminded us to pay attention to our safety. I realize that on the road of cultivation, no matter how big the tribulation that we encounter, as long as we firmly have faith in Teacher and Dafa, we can over come all obstacles.

In May 2005, a practitioner who was in charge of making Dafa materials in our district was illegally arrested. After being interrogated and tortured, this practitioner told the police the names of almost a dozen practitioners, including me. So the police started a mass arrest of the practitioners that were named. My husband was the second one arrested. He was released "on bail" from the police sub-division after 5 days. His work unit was fined 5,000 yuan which was deducted from his paycheck in several installments.

I remember the morning when my husband was released, I received a call from the police station as soon as I got to work. The policeman asked me to go to the police bureau to take my husband home, or they would not release him. (In fact, a day earlier they had already notified my family that they would release my husband. My father and mother-in-law had gone to the police bureau early in the morning.) I thought to myself: you ask me to go, then I will go. I am a Dafa practitioner and I am not afraid of evil! I walked towards the police bureau while sending forth righteous thoughts, and I felt that I had very strong righteous thoughts. At this time Teacher's words were running through my mind:

"No matter what the situation, do not cooperate with the evil's demands, orders, or what it instigates. " ("Dafa Disciples' Righteous Thoughts are Powerful" from Essentials for Further Advancement II)

These words made me suddenly realize that I could not go to the police bureau. If I did, wouldn't that be cooperating with the evil's demands?

Because I did not cooperate with the police that morning my in-laws were not able to bring my husband home. The police asked them to come back again in the afternoon. My father-in-law told me,"The policemen still wanted to capture you." He asked me to be more careful. At this time it dawned on me that it was a trap they set for me to meet my husband at the police bureau. The real agenda was to illegally arrest me. I thought to myself that since the evil is existing around me, I must have some attachment that allowed the evil to seep in. So I calmed my mind and reflected: For a long time I was only focused on Fa-validation activities and I neglected studying the Fa with a tranquil heart and looking for attachments. I was too engrossed, which caused me to have very strong attachments to showing off. I also had the attachments to fame, lust and others that were not easily recognized. Once I found these attachments I denied, rejected, and cleared them away, at the same time asking Teacher to enhance my powers. I sat down and sent righteous thoughts for over half an hour, then I felt that there were very few evil elements left in my space and field.

At about 2:30 p.m. my supervisor called and asked me to come to work immediately. When I arrived, the supervisor said to me, "We don't mind you practicing Falun Gong, but you should not bring trouble to us." I said, "As practitioners, we should abide by the principles of Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance wherever we go. I am not going to bring trouble to anyone." As I said it, I sent righteous thoughts. At that time, someone came to see the supervisor, so he let me go. Since I was still concerned about my husband, I did not stay long at work. Later I was told that the police came to my workplace to arrest me shortly after I left. Under the care of the benevolent Teacher, their plan failed again.

Without my knowledge, members of my family treated officers from the local police sub-division to a dinner in an attempt to prevent my arrest. I later learned that the head of the police sub-division did agree not to arrest me. The next morning they told a member of my family to send me to the police sub-division to sign some letters acknowledging that I had participated in Falun Gong "gathering activities". I am very clear on this issue in my mind. This is not persecution of one person towards another person. How can we solve an issue with a practitioner with ordinary people's methods! I came to realize that I can only ask for help from Teacher. I should never acknowledge the persecution laid upon me by evil. Even if I did not do well in cultivation, I am under the care of my Teacher and I can still correct myself in Dafa. I denied any intervention by any evil elements. Meanwhile, I recited Teacher's Fa again and again in my mind:

"I'm Li Hongzhi's disciple, I don't want other arrangements or acknowledge them"--then they won't dare to do that. So it can all be resolved. When you can really do that, not just say it but put it into action, Master will definitely stand up for you. What's more, there are lots of Fa guardians around Master, there are lots of Buddhas, Daos, and Gods, and there are even greater beings. They will all participate because forced persecution that's not acknowledged is a crime and the cosmos's old laws don't allow it either--irrational persecution absolutely is not allowed, and the old forces don't dare to do it if that is the situation. So you should do things as righteously as you can. ("Fa-Lecture During the 2003 Lantern Festival at the U.S. West Fa Conference")

As such, I felt that my righteous thoughts became stronger and stronger. All bad thoughts in my mind became weaker and weaker.

In order to finish this issue off as soon as possible, one after another, my family members came trying to persuade me: You go to the police bureau to sign the paper and you can still come home and continue your practice, isn't that the same? I clarified the truth to them again. I also said, "I can't sign this letter. Do you know how important this is to me? Signing this letter is almost like taking my life." In my mind it was very clear that regardless of the circumstances, as a practitioner I cannot do anything to smear Dafa or do anything to betray Teacher and Dafa and leave dirty spots on my cultivation journey. Seeing that I would not budge, my family members no longer tried to force me to go sign the papers at the police bureau. Since that day, all interference from my family, work unit and the police sub-division has cleared. This is really:

"When disciples have ample righteous thoughts, Master has the power to turn back the tide" ("The Master-Disciple Bond" from Hong Yin II).

I could not continue working at my workplace. Three months later, I started a small business with a fellow practitioner. The intention was not to make money, but to validate the Fa and to save sentient beings. In those days, we persisted in going out rain or shine to clarify the truth about Dafa. The lack of understanding my family had showed changed to sympathy and support. As I continued to study the Fa, cultivate my heart and look inside for attachments, I continuously corrected myself based on the Fa. Several months later, I came to realize that I should go back to see my supervisors and ask to return to work. I should not lose this job that belonged to me. Once I realized it, I went to do it. I went to my workplace and talked to the supervisor. He asked me if I finished off my business with the police sub-bureau. I said, "I did not go to deal with it, but it is okay now. They are not going to bother me anymore." Because I know very clearly, Teacher said,

"Calmly reflect on the attachments you have, Remove your human thoughts and evil will naturally die out." ("Don't be Sad" from Hong Yin II)

The supervisor promised to consider my request after the New Year. On January 18, I received a phone call from work. They asked me to go to my workplace. The thought of being illegally arrested occurred to me again. This time, I was not affected by this attachment to fear. I thought that even if there is evil waiting ahead, I will face it. Since Teacher is with me always, I fear nothing.

I went to my workplace. As I stepped in the door, the unit head asked me, "What are your thoughts?" I said, "I ask to go back to work." He said, "That's why we asked you to come back today." Thus, after eight months of tribulations, under the guidance of the Fa and benevolent care of Teacher, I used righteous thoughts to break away from the persecution and I rightfully returned to my work position.

Another incident occurred in March 2004 while the CCP was holding the two National Meetings. Evil again started mass harassment and abduction of Dafa practitioners in our city. One morning three policemen came to my workplace when I was the only one there. When I saw them I felt very uneasy. Then I immediately had one thought: "I am a Dafa practitioner, I have no fear! Teacher please strengthen my righteous thoughts!" Not knowing who I was, one police officer asked me, "Is (my name) in the office?" By this time I had adjusted my mentality and no longer had fear. I questioned them back, "Who are you? What do you want her for?" They said, "We are her relatives and need to find her to deal with a few things." I thought to myself that I cannot be taken away by them so I chatted with them while sending righteous thoughts. Several minutes later they left.

After they were gone I calmed myself down and looked inward. I found that my stubborn mentality of showing off and becoming zealous created a loophole for evil. I deeply realized the seriousness of cultivation. I asked myself: What is the root cause of my mentality of showing off and zealotry? It was the depth of my Fa study. I forgot Teacher's words:

"Cultivation depends on one's own efforts, while the transformation of gong is done by one's master." (Zhuan Falun)

I came to realize that no matter how much we did in Fa-validation, it was only that we had this wish to do it. In fact, it was the Fa and Teacher that did it. When things are done well, it was because we were in conformity with the Fa; when things are done poorly, it was because we were not up to the standard of the Fa. The Fa became clear in my head. Since then, I have done the three things diligently and silently. Evil never had a chance to take advantage of my loopholes of unrighteous mentalities.

Through these two incidents of harassment by evil I realized that as a Dafa practitioner we should at all times remember Teacher's teaching:

"Cherish Zhen, Shan, Ren, And in Falun Dafa shall you succeed; Cultivate your xinxing without a moment's pause, To taste the wonder, so immeasurable, at Consummation." ("Real Cultivation" from Hong Yin).

Whatever we encounter, we must measure it with the Fa and pay attention to what we say and do at all times. Also we should always make note of our mental reflections and not forget to search inside ourselves for attachments. This way we can reduce interference and persecution. We better not wait until after there is interference and persecution to look inside. Waiting will bring damage to Dafa, and also bring pain to our families and bring pressure to our work supervisors. We should all take cultivation very seriously. We should only bring the beauty of Dafa to people and not bring damage to Dafa's image. Only this way can we save more sentient beings and accomplish the prehistoric vows we made.

I enlightened that we need to consider the bigger picture when we do things. We need to be in harmony with Dafa and form one indestructible body as soon as possible. Teacher does not want to leave a single disciple behind so it is our obligation to take the initiative to help fellow practitioners. Almost all of the fellow practitioners in my study group are those with strong mentalities of fear who had not stepped forward to validate the Fa in the previous years. In order to break though this mentality of fear, I organized a study of Teacher's various lectures as well as some articles in the "Minghui Weekly". We compared ourselves to the requirements of the Fa and the fellow practitioners in the Weekly and identified our shortcomings. Since everyone has the intention of cultivating, through continuous Fa study and Teacher's constant enlightenment, now all of these fellow practitioners are doing things, at their own levels of understanding, to validate the Fa and save sentient beings.

As the Fa-rectification process moved forward rapidly, I found that my fellow practitioners were distributing less and less Dafa materials. The reason was that after so many years of distributing material, all those who should realize the truth have already come to realize it; while those who do not realize it not only will not look at the Dafa material but will also destroy the material, thus bringing karma to themselves. Under such circumstances I gathered everyone to share our understandings based on the Fa. I realized that as the Fa-rectification progresses, the evil elements in the other dimensions have been eliminated with very few remaining. The evil spirit that manipulates the worlds people should also become less and less. The understanding side of everyday people will search for the truth and will want to listen to the truth. We should give people the opportunity to be saved, rather than being hindered by our human notions and forgetting about our mission and responsibilities as Dafa practitioners. We should not become passive, indifferent and relaxed on the issue of validating the Fa and saving sentient beings. We should act according to Teacher's Fa: "The Closer to the End, the More Diligent You Should Be". After the sharing, everyone came to realize that instead of reducing the volume of the Dafa material disseminated, we should increase the volume of material.

Ever since the Mingui/Clearwisdom editors suggested that the Dafa information sites should sprout up everywhere, I thought that as a Dafa disciple in Fa-rectification period I should cooperate with practitioners to form one body. I should share the work load with fellow practitioners instead of staying in the mindset of "wait, rely and ask". I talked to a fellow female practitioner (who is single) who contacted me often and told her about my thoughts. She also shared the same thought. Wanting to do something is one thing, but we didn't even understand the necessary technology! I had never even touched a computer. So I decided to take a computer training course in the evenings. I flipped open the newspaper and the first thing I saw was a computer training course opening soon near my house that started that very day. I knew that Teacher was helping me. After 40 days of class, I had the basic knowledge I needed to work on a computer (including typing, editing and printing techniques). When the training course was about to finish I asked the fellow practitioner to help me buy a computer and a printer. Then the information materials site started operation in August 2004 in the fellow practitioner's home.

Several days later, the local coordinator arranged for some practitioners from out of town to come teach us how to go on the Internet, download and install software. During the teaching session, in order not to cause inconvenience to fellow practitioners, I made notes of everything the practitioner taught us. Then later I practiced and memorized it. In order to send articles to Minghui/Clearwisdom we had to learn to type. In order to improve my typing speed, I often used my lunch hour to practice typing without looking at the keyboard. Later I took on most of the typing tasks.

As the workload in the Dafa material center increased, we had relatively little Fa study time. Plus we did not emphasize studying the Fa with a calm mind and we neglected to look inward for attachments. We developed the attachment of doing things, just as if we were ordinary persons doing Dafa work; we were printing materials for the sake of printing materials. We did not treat it as Dafa disciples validating the Fa and saving sentient beings. As a result, the equipment constantly broke down and there was tension between fellow practitioners. One of the practitioner was obsessed with sentimentality. This attachment was amplified by evil, preventing the practitioner from being awakened even with Teacher's hints again and again. In April 2006, our material center was destroyed by evil and this practitioner lost her home. We learned our lesson from this setback and intensified Fa study. We searched inward for attachments so that we could elevate our xinxing levels and overcome the difficulties. Very soon we established more material centers. Under the guidance of the Fa and care by Teacher, our material centers have operated smoothly and safely since that time.

I started distributing Dafa material in the fall of 2000. I remember the first time I got the Falun Dafa pamphlets from a fellow practitioner. I went alone to a residential area and went to the second floor of an apartment building. As I was about to slip the pamphlet in a door I heard the banging of a door upstairs. I was so scared, my heart jumped to my throat. My legs were also trembling; I could not move! Even if I wanted to escape, I would not be able to move. I waited for a while, no one came down the stairs. It was actually interference. This incident revealed how big my fear was. I knew that the fear was not from me. I was doing the most righteous and correct thing in the world; I should not have fear. I had Teacher and the Fa with me; nothing could touch me. So I overcame this hurdle and laid a solid foundation for my future work to distribute material about the truth of Dafa.

In the later days, on the road of Fa-validation, whenever the fear popped up, I would cleanse it. I would clear away the fear and continue to do whatever I was supposed to do. This way, I found that the road of cultivation had become wider and wider. I was able to feel very at ease when I gave out Dafa material wherever I was. Every time before I left my home to distribute flyers, I sent forth righteous thoughts to eliminate all evil beings or elements along the way that hinder the salvation of people. When I was distributing the Dafa materials, I thought to myself: "I, a Dafa practitioner, am here to save you! Please wake up!" Usually, things went very smoothly. I remember there were several times a few years back when I went to distribute flyers in residential areas. I was discovered by people who did not know the truth of Falun Gong (at the time they did not see me putting the flyers into mailboxes or underneath the doors, they were just suspecting that I did). When faced with these people who were controlled by evil in another dimension, I had no fear. I looked into their eyes and sent forth righteous thoughts. As soon as I had the righteous thoughts, the evil element behind these people would be eliminated and these people could no longer be evil. Then I would tell them the truth about Falun Dafa; I wanted them to be saved. Later on I would try to identify my own faults: I put myself in that situation because I did not pay much attention to physical safety. Whenever some bad thoughts emerged that acknowledged the old forces, I did not eliminate them in time. These days this kind of interference has decreased. In fact, as long as we maintain our righteous thoughts and clarify the truth with righteous thoughts and wisdom, it is actually very safe.

Another method of validating the Fa is to use paper currency. During this process I eliminated many of my human notions, the first being fear. I was afraid that people would recognize my handwriting on the bills and it would result in persecution. I knew this notion was not mine, it was inserted by the old forces. So I eliminated it and would not acknowledge it. After a few tries, my fear was gone. Writing on the bills took some time. Once I relaxed my thoughts another attachment would emerge, thinking that the work was too troublesome. Then I realized that we really need to put our hearts into writing Dafa messages on the bills because every word we write on the bills represents the image of Dafa practitioners. The handwriting must be neat and tidy so that people can read it clearly and thus be saved. When spending the bills I sometimes saw people read aloud from the bills: "Falun Dafa is good", "Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance" is good. I was very happy when this happened. When I looked inside myself, I realized that I had developed the attachment of being overzealous. Sometimes, just to spend the bills with Dafa material I tended to buy a lot of things that I did not need. When I looked into myself, I realized that I had developed an attachment to volume. I feel that as long as I get involved in various truth-clarifying projects, always measure myself with the Fa and constantly look inside myself for attachments, I will progress in strides with my xinxing level.

Looking back on my cultivation journey and firsthand experiences during the past 9 years of Fa-validation, there were still many unsatisfying moments. I understand profoundly the seriousness of cultivation. As the end comes closer, the Fa has greater requirements on us. We should be more diligent within the limited time to make every move a step in the right direction so that we do not disappoint Teacher's benevolent salvation and the great expectations of the sentient beings.