(Clearwisdom.net) I was fortunate to have become a Falun Dafa practitioner before July 20, 1999 (when the persecution began). I understood the Fa principles relatively clearly as I studied the Fa a lot. Teacher says:
"The Buddha Fa is most profound; among all the theories in the world, it is the most intricate and extraordinary science." (Lunyu from Zhuan Falun)
Despite this, I have made some mistakes on the path of cultivation after the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) began persecuting Falun Dafa.
In 2004, I was persecuted by the CCP's evil henchmen due to many human attachments. Because of this my family did not understand me and tried to block my path of cultivation in every possible way, especially my wife. My wife was a government employee. The CCP was pressuring her to "transform" me and threatened her, "You and your husband will lose your jobs if your husband refuses to renounce Falun Gong."
My wife was scared of losing her job, husband and family. She followed and monitored me all the time. She even knelt down and begged me to give up my belief. She said to me, "What will happen to our family if we both lose our jobs? Why are you persisting in Falun Gong when it is persecuted by the CCP?" Seeing that I was not moved by her words, she brought my mother from the country to our home and tried to have my mother persuade me. When my wife saw that I remained unchanged, she finally said to me, "I have to divorce you if you insist in practicing Falun Gong because I need this job and my family."
The pressure from my family, workplace, and society followed me constantly and I didn't know what to do. I knelt down in front of Teacher' portrait and asked Teacher to strengthen me. I made up my mind to spend the rest of my life cultivating in Dafa and to return home with Teacher. I intensified my righteous thoughts: "I am a Falun Dafa practitioner. Even though I have loopholes, I will be rectified by the Fa. I will not acknowledge the old forces' or the CCP's evil attempts to sabotage or interfere with my practice." After studying all of Teachers's lectures I was determined with my strong will to practice Falun Gong. Teacher said:
"Whenever you encounter problems you should each look inward to search for the cause within, regardless of whether you're to blame or not. Remember my words: Regardless of whether the problem is your fault or not, you should look inside yourself, and you will find a problem. If the matter has absolutely nothing to do with you or doesn't involve any of the attachments you should break, then that thing would rarely happen to you. If you didn't have an attachment the problem wouldn't have come about. I have to be responsible for your cultivation. Any problem that happens to you, around you, or among you is most likely related to you, and there is something for you to get rid of." (Teaching the Fa at the Conference in Europe)
Through looking inward I have realized many of my attachments hidden deep inside of me, such as vanity and concern with saving face, fear, seeking comfort and the attachment to sentimentality. I realized that when I eliminate my attachments I must be very determined in my righteous faith -- believing in Teacher and the Fa. I must strengthen my righteous thoughts. I must realize that it is simply superficial symptoms of evil pressuring me and persecuting me. I decided that I would not be driven by these factors anymore. I persisted in talking to my wife, telling her that Falun Dafa is good. I also clarified the truth to her about the persecution of Falun Gong. After this she did not oppose me in my Fa study and exercising at home anymore, but I was not allowed to go out for the truth clarification.
Later, I told my wife in depth about my experiences, changes and benefits, gained from practicing Falun Gong. When I had time I told her some cultivation stories and helped her recognize the evil nature of the Communist Party. I also told her that the CCP orchestrated the Tiananmen Self-immolation incident and used the rumours as an excuse to persecute Falun Gong. I suggested that she read the "Nine Commentaries on the Communist Party" and "Minghui Weekly", which resulted in her knowing side awakening. Now she doesn't oppose me going out to clarify the facts, and instead she often tells me to be careful. After learning the facts she withdrew from the CCP and read Zhuan Falun.
My wife is saved and now I have a harmonious family. Her manager at work doesn't threaten her any more. I am also back to my workplace. The old forces and the CCP have failed completely to interfere with or sabotage my path. All of these blessed actions are due to Teacher's boundless Fa-power. I cannot express my gratitude to Teacher even with a thousand words.
I would like to take this opportunity to thank practitioners who work for Minghui/Clearwisdom for their hard work; thanks to fellow practitioners in our region for helping me and thanks to my wife who understands the facts, and for understanding and supporting me.
