(Clearwisdom.net) As early as two years ago, a fellow practitioner pointed out to me that I had the attachment of relying on others. I didn't take it seriously at the time or look at it from the Fa. Instead, I argued with the practitioner. It wasn't until recently, when I read the article "Removing the Attachment to Relying on Others" on the Minghui website, that I truly realized the danger of the attachment, and that whoever has it must take it seriously and remove it. I would like to share the following two stories.
1. A few days ago, my printer kept printing a white stripe on every sheet of paper. For two days, I didn't get a single printout that was acceptable. I was very confused and didn't know what to do, so I called a practitioner who is good with technology. He came over and examined the printer, and printed a couple of test pages. Then he told me, "This is not a technical problem."
I said, "I am so confused and lost. I don't know how to understand it from the Fa."
He said, "You should try. The evils in the other dimensions are watching closely. They see you are straining, that your mind is not pure, that your heart is not righteous, and that you have strong human notions."
I gradually calmed down and started looking within, recalling when I started making truth-clarification materials several years ago. At that time we did it as a group, but I only paid attention to my own part, totally ignoring others' work such as buying supplies and repairs, which I didn't even want to watch or learn. I had a strong attachment to relying on others without knowing it.
Later, more materials production sites were established and our site became smaller, so I had to shoulder more responsibilities. Gradually, my weakness showed, and my attachment to doing things became greater. When a problem arose, I addressed it without realizing that it was the surface manifestation of my problem.
I felt quite relieved after understanding this. My righteous thoughts became strong and I told myself, "With Master and Dafa, there is no test that I cannot pass. If other practitioners can do it, I can do it too. Isn't Master teaching the Fa to me too?"
I asked Master in my heart, "Esteemed Master, please help me and give me the wisdom. I don't know the root of the printer's problem, and I don't know how to repair it." Then, Master's Fa was imprinted in my mind,
"You cannot only pursue transformation of gong in the physical body without emphasizing improvement of your xinxing. It is waiting for you to upgrade your xinxing--only then will you make a holistic change."(Zhuan Falun, Lecture Six)
It became clear to me, and I said to Master, "Master, I see! 'One's gong level is as high as one's xinxing level'." (Zhuan Falun, Lecture One) As soon as I understood the Fa better, my xinxing rose.
So I started communicating with the printer, and suddenly a practitioner's name popped up in my mind, so I called that practitioner. The practitioner told me how to operate the printer better, and I followed his instructions. The problem was solved, and the printer once again printed beautiful truth-clarification materials.
In running a materials site all by myself, buying supplies is a big test for me. I didn't think my age was suitable to buy computer supplies. I was afraid of being suspected and arrested. Practitioners pointed out my attachment to relying on others, but I argued, "Practitioners should complement each other and do what others cannot do. Helping each other is harmonizing the whole body."
Through studying the Fa constantly and reading practitioners' experience sharing articles, my understanding of the matter became clearer. I realized that my attachment to relying on others must be removed and that it was an attachment that came from emotion, because I had the attachment to admiring others, thinking that they were better than me.
"Therefore, as to the many attachments that come from sentimentality, we should take them lightly and eventually abandon them." (Zhuan Falun, Lecture Six)
My attachment to relying on others led to my attachments to ease and comfort. Because I didn't want to do it by myself or put efforts into making it happen, I only wanted the convenience and comfort that were handed to me. It also manifested in the lack of righteous thoughts and lack of confidence in myself.
In my understanding, the root of the attachment to relying on others is selfishness, which is the fundamental characteristic of the old universe. If one fails to remove the attachment, one would fail to ascend from the old principles or fundamentally change one's conventional thinking.
The attachment to relying on others will add burden and hardship to fellow practitioners. Isn't that harming fellow practitioners, then? That would be a lack of compassion, as well.
Category: Improving Oneself