(Clearwisdom.net) I obtained Dafa a long time ago, but my elevation was very slow. I wandered on one level for an extended period of time. The main reason is that whenever I did not pass a test, I became very upset. I would lose my spirit and feel remorseful. I did not use Fa as my guidance, using self-criticism, instead. When the next test came, I was still stuck with the previous one, and did not do well with the upcoming test and was again stuck. As time went by I became despondent, and felt discouraged and lost my confidence.
I have just recently realized that I had fallen into a trap arranged by the old forces.
As a practitioner, it is regretful if one does not pass a test. At times it is even a blemish. But the tests came with me, and with my cultivation. No matter whether the tests were to help me elevate or they were persecution arranged by the old forces, it was all caused by my attachments. When the tribulation comes, if one is able to elevate their xinxing, this is great. If not, it only shows that one has an attachment; a strong one. After I realized this, I thought to myself, "Should I just keep getting upset about the tests that I failed or should I get rid of the attachments?" The answer was obvious.
In fact, if you did not pass a test, you still need to use righteous thoughts to face the test. Because I am a cultivator, I cannot be stuck here forever. When one falls to the ground, don't just lie there, time is running out!
