(Clearwisdom.net) I suddenly lost my voice while giving a lecture in class. I had to ask someone to read my notes to the students. I felt really bad. I had told many colleagues about the miraculous healing power of Dafa. Now, I couldn't speak, so how could people believe what I had told them? I looked inward and found that I was still attached to a comfortable life, was too harsh towards mischievous students, among other issues. I had sworn I would change, however, I did not truly improve myself.
Worrying did not help, so I started to study the Fa. I sensed Master saying to me, "Did you conduct yourself as a practitioner? Are you holding righteous thoughts? It is dangerous to use human reasoning instead of the Fa." I felt ashamed. Yesterday, I drank more water, tried to rest my voice, and made excuses when people asked what happened to my voice. In class, I wrote on the board, "I have lost my voice. You may review the lessons yourself." After school, when I went to buy cough drops, all kinds of throat illnesses came to mind. A colleague lost his voice for half a month. How long would it be for me? I realized that these were the actions and thoughts of ordinary people. When a fellow practitioner had a problem, it was clear to me that he should act like a practitioner, not an everyday person. When it was my turn, I felt lost.
I decided that I should think and act like a practitioner. I thought to myself, "I'm a practitioner during the Fa-rectification period. Any mistake that I made can be corrected in accordance with the Fa. I will not let the evil take advantage of me. Losing my voice is not Master's arrangement. I shouldn't accept it. Whatever happens to me is to be used to validate the Fa. My voice should be fine." After regaining my righteous thoughts, I started reading Zhuan Falun. I went ahead and read it out loud until I finished one chapter. My voice was perfectly fine.
In the 2006 conference in Los Angeles, Master said,
"What's important for cultivators is righteous thoughts. When you have strong righteous thoughts, you are able to withstand anything and do anything. That's because you are a cultivator: someone who is on a divine path and who is not controlled by the factors of ordinary people or low-level principles."
I now understand the deeper meaning of this passage. Fa-rectification has reached its last phase. When we choose to be a divine being, our words and actions should reflect that. Righteous actions require righteous thoughts that comes from our inner being. Talking about and reciting the Fa will not change anything until your inner being is aligned with the Fa. Another point I realized is that the old forces' arrangements should be completely rejected. There is no exception there. We must be clear on this point for Master to help us.
This is my personal understanding. I hope fellow practitioners will kindly point out anything that is improper.