(Clearwisdom.net) Last fall my cousin purchased an apartment in our local township. He had it retrofitted and wanted to rent it out. He made a huge stack of "For Rent" posters and asked me to put them up. I figured it would take at least a few days to finish posting them. I really did not have that much time for that. I knew, however, that to cultivate among ordinary people requires us to conform to the ordinary way of life. If I declined to help my family, they might end up harboring bad thoughts about Dafa cultivators and even about Dafa. Yet, doing what he asked would interfere with my doing the three things, which was the most important of all.
Nothing happens for a reason for practitioners; the outcome depends on how we understand and treat the matter at hand.
I recall that Master said in "Teaching the Fa at the 2005 Manhattan International Fa Conference," "Master has prepared the best of everything for you, but you need to make it there!"
Even though I understood the principle, in the process of dealing with emotions, other human notions would often emerge, lessening my faith in Master's words. Then I would worry about delaying my cousin's business. For instance, when I distributed truth-clarification materials I would think, "Perhaps I could post those 'For Rent' ads along with Dafa literature." As soon as this thought emerged, I immediately tried to eliminate it. I understood it compromised the solemnity of Dafa work.
When my xinxing in this instance reached the standard, Master prepared a solution for me. During a chat with a friend I brought up my cousin's apartment for rent. She said she would help me find a real estate agency. Before long, that agency called to make an appointment for a potential client who was happy with the apartment and took the offer right there. I also took that opportunity to persuade the real estate agent to quit the CCP. In the end, not only did I help my cousin out, but I also did truth-clarification! This experience made me realize that we need to have a strong faith in Master and Dafa; only by doing so can we see that Master has arranged everything in an orderly fashion.
When doing truth-clarification I was somewhat hesitant and choosy--I had reservations about clarifying the facts to strangers and preferred to speak only to people I knew. I wanted to overcome this deficiency. A practitioner from my Fa-study group always did a good job with face-to-face truth-clarification. She had no fear or concern in this regard; all she thought of was to offer salvation to as many people as possible.
More than a thousand peasant workers were busily working at a construction site near my home. It occurred to me that it was my responsibility to save these people. We discussed this and decided that the two of us would clarify the truth to the workers during their after-dinner break. We went a few times and had good results. Yet, somehow I knew deep down that I was depending on this practitioner.
During the run-up to the 2008 Summer Olympics, the CCP was particularly severe in their persecution of Falun Gong. Our township happened to be one of the sites for the Olympic Torch relay. One of our local coordinators was arrested. The next day, police lay in wait and arrested another practitioner. All the practitioners in my township suddenly felt enormous pressure.
It so happened that I could not find the practitioner I had gone to the construction site with. I looked in vain for her for a few days. With a great deal of remaining Dafa materials on my hands, I could not help but reproach her in my heart. Could it be that on the surface she showed no fear, but in reality she was so fearful that she ran away from danger? But when I looked inside, I found my fear and my dependency on her. These emotions were due to a lack of strong faith in Master and in Dafa. So, I made up my mind that the evil forces would not dare to interfere with my efforts to offer sentient beings salvation, and I could accomplish this under the watchful eyes of Master and Dafa.
Having decided to rid myself of human notions, I went on walks after dinner and taped truth-clarification leaflets on light poles or on tree trunks along the pedestrian paths. The local people have a habit of taking a stroll after dinner, so as I posted these leaflets, those walking behind me would reach for them. These were savable people; they read the leaflets as they walked. Those who found the leaflets not of interest would not peel them off or trash them. Thus, the materials were not wasted. I did my evening postings a few times and gradually stopped being afraid all that much.
Soon after, I clarified the truth to a worker who agreed to quit the CCP. With alacrity, he also accepted the truth-clarification materials I had prepared for his co-workers.
A few days later I bumped into the practitioner who had originally gone to the construction site with me. When I asked her where she had been, she said she did not go anywhere but jut stayed put. The few times I knocked on her door she happened to be out. Then I came to understand that Master had arranged this opportunity for me to abandon my emotions in this regard. I am truly grateful for the opportunities Master has been giving me, time and time again, that make me able to advance to and reach a higher understanding.
Heshi