(Clearwisdom.net) Shortly after I obtained Dafa in 1998, the persecution began. I was miserable, but I did not dare to speak up for Dafa; I did many things that should not have been done. I was drifting away from the Fa, but I was not aware of it at the time; I still felt that I was quite firm in my practice. After I read Master's articles "Rationality" and "Towards Consummation," Master guided me back and I began to study the Fa again. I wanted all those who were deceived by the CCP to know the truth. After I obtained a copy of a truth-clarification flier, I copied it with carbon paper. Each time, I could make two copies. I used numerous boxes of carbon paper. I wanted everyone to know that the government information about Dafa on TV was false.
The New Year was approaching, and I wanted to go to Beijing to appeal for justice for Dafa. I was young and had never traveled before. My mother was worried about me and asked me to find a fellow practitioner to go with me. Because my phone was wiretapped, both my fellow practitioner and I were arrested. My father was crying, tears flowing from his aged eyes, when he asked me to write a Guarantee Statement (to not practice Dafa anymore), so I could be released. The process of making a choice was miserable. I had to put down the attachment to affection, and choose between the path of the human or divine. The conflict between the Fa and affection was serious. I chose to practice Falun Dafa.
In the detention center, I was tied down on a bed for one week because I had tried to do the exercises, and my fellow practitioners had to help me when I needed to urinate. My dignity was violated, my human rights were abused. Even though I was young, I was anxious to go home with Master. The reputation of Dafa was being damaged in the human world--how could I sit around and do nothing? Even though there would be innumerable hazards and hardships ahead, nothing would stop me from going home with Master.
I spent six months in jail and met many fellow practitioners. I watched how they practiced and how they looked inward; I felt that though I had been at the door of cultivation for a long time, I had not stepped in yet. During that time, I learned how to cultivate. I had a pustule on my wrist that was there for a whole year even with cultivation. During one interrogation, I firmly replied: "I will practice no matter what!" And I would continue to appeal for Dafa when I got out. The pustule disappeared and those who knew about the pustule were amazed.
I am very grateful that Master let me obtain Dafa at this critical time of my life. I had just graduated and stepped into society. I cannot imagine what I would have been like had I kept all my attachments to vanity, showing off, jealousy and selfishness.
After our marriage, my husband also began cultivation. For me, it was a new period of cultivation. It seemed more human emotions and attachments surfaced and I felt the seriousness of cultivation. I did not have other fellow practitioners nearby, so I felt lonely. My mother also cultivates but she lived far from me. My husband had just began cultivation, but he was still not quite clear on many things. I encouraged him to study the Fa, as only studying the Fa can guarantee our improvement. I benefited greatly from studying the Fa; whenever I faced a conflict or a problem, I would immediately approach it on the basis of Fa. One time when I was bothered by a small family matter, I remembered the line, "When one is attached to nothing, The path underfoot is naturally smooth." ("Unimpeded," Hong Yin II). I immediately felt the wall in front of me was gone, and I felt lighter and brighter. I experienced this many more times later.
Whenever I met these types of problems, as long as I was able to remember the Fa, anything could be resolved. It is such a wonderful feeling when the selfishness is gone--heaven and earth are boundless. I am more aware that as a cultivator one cannot have success without the guidance of the Fa. The Fa Master preaches can guide us in everything--I understand why Master keeps asking us to study the Fa. I began to learn the Fa by heart, and have almost finished my second time through the book.
After going through the process of writing out truth-clarifying materials, I wished to have a copy machine. Master helped me, as later a fellow practitioner gave us an all-in-one copy machine. My husband and I are able to make Dafa materials to send out ourselves, and are also able to provide materials to fellow practitioners in other areas. We covered all the villages and towns nearby. Sometimes we were lost, but we believed in Dafa and Master, we encouraged each other and were able to come home safely each time. I did not feel tired even when I walked all night long. I have been consistent in sending out materials, and did not stop until a few days before my child was born.
The fellow practitioner who provided us with copies of the Nine Commentaries on the Communist Party was persecuted in the last two years, so we were no longer able to receive the book. I wanted to step into his former role, but our machine was not working properly. What to do? The finances of our household were very tight, but we still managed to purchase a new machine and all the necessary material. We were so delighted to see the Nine Commentaries coming out of the machine, how many sentient beings could be saved! We only had two yuan left for the month and we made it.
Initially we did not know how to print the book so we cut the paper into four parts and put them together, but later we found a better way. We did not need to cut the paper, but had to pay close attention to each page and cut after the printing had been done. It was a lot faster this way. We believe the wisdom we used during the process was given by Master. We gradually became more mature and experienced. I was working with my mother late one night during the Olympic Games. Looking at the material all over the floor, suddenly I was scared. What if the police came? Immediately, I thought we were doing the most sacred deed in the universe--no one would be allowed to interfere, we only follow Master's words. My heart settled down and we quickly finished the job.
Only with Master's attentive care and protection, have I been able to come to this point today. We are more firm each day on the path of Fa-rectification. I witness so many touching and moving stories of fellow practitioners, and fellow practitioners overseas with their magnificent feats. With all the wonders of cultivation, there is so much I want to talk about, I will summarize everything in one sentence: Thank you Master! Thank you fellow practitioners overseas for your support, thank you fellow practitioners who walked before us who have done so much and given so much!
