(Clearwisdom.net)
I am a new Falun Dafa practitioner, but my whole life has changed in such a short period of time. Without the protection of our compassionate Teacher, I would have already died. It is our great Teacher who has saved me and my whole family.
I'm 35 years old. Before I started to practice Dafa, I was diagnosed with cancer. Doctors said I had only a few months to live. We went to hospitals in Jinan, the capital of Shandong Province, and also Beijing, but all the doctors told us the same thing. It was such a shock to me! I couldn't accept it, either mentally or physically. I felt helpless seeing my family so worried and sad because of me. I also have two little children. I started chemotherapy and suffered a lot, and we spent a large amount of money. However, it was just a process of dying with cancer. The only thing I could do was to wait to die. I was desperate.
At such a difficult time, my husband said to me, "Start to practice Falun Dafa!" Due to the government's slanderous propaganda, I didn't really believe in Dafa. Besides, if hospitals didn't have a way to save me, how could practicing Falun Dafa save me? But I agreed, since I had nothing else to try. My husband got a copy of Zhuan Falun and the Fa lectures from a practitioner that he knew. I started to read the book. Just as I was getting to the end, on the last page, Teacher said:
"It's hard to endure, but you can endure it. It's hard to do, but you can do it."...
"When it's hard to endure, try to endure it. When it seems impossible to do, or just hard to do, give it a try and see just what you can do. And when you can really do it, just like that worn and weary traveler, you'll see, 'the shade of willows, the blooms of flowers, a place to rest my head!'" (Zhuan Falun)
Suddenly, I saw a light and I started to have hope again. I said to myself, "I cannot die. I will practice Falun Dafa. I will be saved as long as I become a true Falun Dafa practitioner, since Teacher said in Zhuan Falun that Falun Dafa cultivates both mind and body."
I read the Fa again and again. I read the book of poems, Hong Yin, as well. I came to understand the truth of life. Then, with the help of fellow practitioners, I learned how to practice the five sets of exercises. When I finished these Dafa exercises, I kept sweating. Previously, I had never sweat and my hands and feet were always cold. I began to feel so comfortable. I kept studying the Fa and listening to Teacher's Fa lectures. I practice the exercises and send forth righteous thoughts every day. Teacher has been purifying my body. I am very excited every time I read the Fa. I feel so happy. I often ask myself, "Why did you not study the Fa earlier?" I wish that I had started to practice Falun Dafa earlier.
Before I practiced Dafa, I didn't really know the purpose of life. Teacher explained everything so clearly. I'm determined to be just like Teacher asked us to be. I'll start as a good person. I'll always consider others first. I'll get rid of the attachments to fame and self-interests. I will practice Falun Dafa forever. I found what I had been looking for. I am so fortunate. Melting into the Fa makes me so proud and happy. If it hadn't been for the illness karma, how could I have believed in the Fa and started to practice it? How would I have known that Falun Dafa is so good? How would I have known that all the Chinese Communist Party's propaganda is sheer fabrications and lies? I came to realize that nothing is accidental. This is my predestined opportunity to get to know Dafa.
When studying the Fa, our great compassionate Teacher has been giving me hints. He has told me what to do through others' mouths. He cheered for me in my dream. With Teacher's strengthening, I became more diligent. After I practiced Dafa for a few months, one night I saw a very large Falun. Then, somehow, I fell sleep. Just then, I saw two hands going into my mouth and grabbing out a demon. The demon tried to run away. Teacher froze it. Then I saw the demon shattering to pieces. I cried out, "Eliminate!" Then I called, "Teacher!" I woke up. My body felt light. Teacher had purified my body. A few days later, Teacher once again eliminated the illness karma for me and completely cleared it away.
Now I know what it feels like to not have any illness. My body and my mood are both very relaxed. As Teacher said,"Cultivation is up to you, gong is up to the master..." (Zhuan Falun). Teacher purified my body, strengthened me, and gave me courage to pass the test of life and death. It is our benevolent Teacher that saved me. Without Teacher and the Fa, an everyday person would not be able to make it through. Didn't all the doctors say that I had only a few months to live?
I no longer need medicines or to go to hospitals. My relatives and neighbors all witnessed this miracle. My temperament changed, too. Previously, I always felt tired and I cried a lot. Now I'm happy every day. My whole family appreciates Teacher and the Fa.
I will follow what Teacher said, to start as a good person. I firmly believe in Teacher and the Fa. I will follow Teacher home. Teacher said in his poem "The Master-Disciple Bond," "When disciples have ample righteous thoughts Master has the power to turn back the tide" (Hong Yin II). Only with abundant righteous thoughts can Teacher help us to brave the tribulations. When studying the Fa, I keep cleansing my thoughts. Teacher said in another poem "Tempering the Will," "To consummate yourself, reaping Buddhahood, Let joy be found in hardship." (Hong Yin). I will remove all my attachments to fame and physical interests. I will do well with the three things that Teacher has asked us to do in order to assist Teacher with rectifying the Fa. Teacher gave me a second life. I'm here in this world to learn the Fa. Now that I have obtained the Fa, I have no regrets. I will only need to do as taught by Teacher.
In the poem "Clear Harmony" Teacher said,
"With Zhen Shan Ren nestled in the heart,
Cultivating oneself, in turn, betters a society.
With Dafa never off the mind,
Surely you will transcend others in time."(Hong Yin)
Falun Dafa is the law and principles of the cosmos. It is the righteous path and Great Way. We will be able to reach consummation and return home with Teacher as long as we are strict with ourselves and judge ourselves based on Truth-Compassion-Forbearance, the highest characteristics of the cosmos.
Above is my personal understanding. Please correct me if I said anything inappropriate.
Thank you, our benevolent Teacher!