(Clearwisdom.net) I have been cultivating for more than ten years, and there is so much understanding and experience to share that I do not know where to start. I have learned a lot from experience sharing from fellow practitioners, and many of my wrong thoughts were rectified in time. I have truly understood the benefits of studying the Fa and looking within oneself. Every Fa-conference has helped the improvement and elevation of practitioners as one body. I would also like to contribute and share some of my own cultivation experiences with fellow practitioners.
1. Obtaining the Fa
I obtained the Fa in March 1998. When I first obtained the precious book Zhuan Falun, I read it through from the beginning to end. After that, I felt my world outlook changed, and I understood that the true purpose of being a human being is to "return to one's true self" and what we should cherish most is "de." I also understood that it is a good thing when one suffers hardships and losses. I now believe there are beautiful paradises awaiting cultivators in heaven. About three days later, when I unwittingly closed my eyes, I saw half of the sun and colorful particles in the shape of the Milky Way galaxy, rotating and moving forward. I also saw an eye made of micro-particles. Through Fa-study, I understood the scene I saw was when Master was opening up my celestial eye. It was really wonderful. Since then, I have kept studying the Fa and doing the exercises and strictly followed the principles of Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance, and I made rapid breakthroughs in my cultivation. The scenes I saw with my celestial eye turned from black and white to colorful, and then transparent. Whenever I passed a test well, I would be able to see beautiful scenes through my celestial eye. Such things happened often, and I felt I was elevating rapidly. During a test, if I was firmly adhering to the Fa, I did well, and Master allowed me to see the golden characters "returning home" through my celestial eye. The words were very clear.
2. Clarifying the facts well to save people
After the persecution started, in March 2000, I started to compile truth-clarifying materials, and print out flyers to distribute at bus stops or on buses. This scared the evil. I remember once I gave flyers to two young men. One of them said, "She is Falun Gong, let's report her." My heart was not moved at all upon hearing this. On another occasion, when I was distributing flyers to five or six peasant workers, one of them stood up when he saw the flyer and said, "Falun Gong. I'll tell the police to arrest you." I just looked at him with a smile. When he saw me so calm, he smiled, too, and sat down again. Later, on another occasion I went to distribute the Nine Commentaries in the countryside. I took a box of them with me and distributed them in villages. One villager started to follow me, keeping a distance of about ten meters. When I noticed him, I stopped walking and put down what I had in my hands; then I turned around to look at him, while being calm and collected. When he saw me like this, he looked rather embarrassed, and then he turned around and left. I had experienced many similar situations which appeared dangerous, but nothing happened to me, because I had no fear, and the old forces could not take advantage of me. With Master's protection, danger was turned into safety.
3. Witnessing the power of righteous thoughts
I clearly feel that whenever I have strong righteous thoughts, I have a field around me everywhere I go; it is like radiance from the Buddha body that shows I have cultivated well. Everywhere I go I feel I'm in the state of a god, without any human stuff, and my whole body and heart are assimilated into the Fa. Inspired by this feeling, I thought, "Why don't I think about expanding this 'Buddha's radiance?'" So, I extended the radiance from five or six meters around me to two square kilometers, then to five square kilometers, with me as the center. I often send forth righteous thoughts this way every day, imaging myself "being gigantic, touching heaven and earth, and my Buddha body in other dimensions giving off immensely strong radiance that completely eliminates all the evil, dark minions, rotten demons, and the evil communist specters within five square kilometers." I found that no Dafa practitioners were arrested within the range I had defined. I hope fellow practitioners can all pay attention to the power of their fields of our righteous thoughts, so that we can eliminate all the evil, and stop the persecution as soon as possible.
4. Studying the Fa diligently, looking within and cultivating solidly
To study the "Fa" diligently, one must not merely follow formalities. Although it can be easy to study the Fa conscientiously and understand what it says, one still must act according to requirements of the Fa in cultivation and notice their shortcomings. If not, one will not make any significant improvements for a prolonged period of time.
At present in my cultivation, I have not lapsed in Fa study and practice the exercises every day, as well as send forth righteous thoughts. However, my attachment to comfort has not been rooted out. As soon as I feel a bit tired, I do not want to do the exercises and lie down to sleep for a while. Even though I think I will rest for only 10 minutes or half an hour and get up shortly to study the Fa and send forth righteous thoughts, things never turn out that way. Every time I sleep for at least an hour, or even two or three hours. I always felt regret after I wake up, yet I kept making the same mistake. Master must have been worried about me. Suddenly I remembered the hints Master has been giving me all along: Recently, a tin of paint fell over for no reason and spilled all over the floor; a bottle of cooking oil also fell, and the oil leaked out. At the time, I knew these things did not happen by coincidence, but only now do I enlighten to the fact that I am not diligent in dealing with this problem. After I decided to write an experience sharing article yesterday, my xinxing has elevated noticeably. Even when I felt uncomfortable, I would think: "I am a practitioner walking the path towards godhood, I do not want human things, and I should not feel tired." Immediately, the discomfort disappeared. Yet it quickly re-emerged, but I persisted and refused to lie down in order to uproot the attachment to comfort. After three rounds, I felt full of energy, without one trace of exhaustion. It's truly amazing.
We must put emphasis on cultivating every single thought. Almost every time I went shopping, passersby would hurry past. I noticed that whenever I saw good-looking men, my heart would be moved. I realized this was an attachment of lust. If the attachment of lust is not cultivated away completely, the consequences will be disastrous. I thought to myself, "I have cultivated for so many years, I must completely root out this attachment." I said in my heart, "Master, I definitely do not want this thing. Please help me get rid of this substance." I'm clearly aware that with Master's help, this material substance attached to lust is being reduced.
On the topic of "desire" between husband and wife, I would like to share my understanding. Someone once told me that a practitioner couple lived in separate rooms after the woman became pregnant. I thought this was an attempt to get rid of the attachment to desire through formality, and it would not achieve the goal of completely uprooting the attachment to lust and desire. Our practice is so convenient, but also difficult. When your husband or wife holds you tightly and whispers loving words and continues to beg you, would you not have one thought of desire? When your partner continues to beg, if you have the thought, "Cut loose the desire," the whole thing would fizzle out, and the two of you would continue to live harmoniously; your partner would not complain, either. I think in this way, one would be able to completely eliminate the attachment to desire.
When no form of seduction is able to spark a single desire from us, then I think we will be up to the standard. During our everyday cultivation, let us carefully analyze and observe our thoughts and see if such attachments have been completely cultivated away.
When my husband calls home and says he will return late, I sometimes think that he was with another woman. When we pay visits to our parents, and he only sees his mother, but not mine, I feel angry. It is not difficult to realize that these thoughts are caused by my attachments to jealousy and resentment. I can also think of many other kinds of attachments I still have. They are all human attachments that have not been eliminated completely. None of them belong to the state of a god. Since we are all walking on the path toward godhood, whenever these unrighteous everyday attachments surface, I would say in my heart, "This belongs to everyday people, I don't want it," and it would immediately correct the thought. It is important to strive to maintain a practitioner's state at all times.
The above is my cultivation experience. Please kindly point out anything inappropriate.