(Clearwisdom.net) Once I needed to go out of town for a few days on a business trip. Due to some unexpected issues, I had to return after only one day. When I got home, I was stunned--my husband was with another woman.
My husband and the other woman were very nervous and scared. I said, "Don't be afraid. I'm different from others. I practice Falun Gong." My generosity and compassion deeply moved the woman. I told her that a woman should be responsible for herself, and for her family and children. I told her that Falun Dafa is good and that she should quit the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) and its affiliated organizations in order to save her own life. She finally understood the truth and quit the CCP and its related organizations. I didn't think too much about what I had discovered, even after she left.
Later, I began to look inward. I didn't have any human notions during this whole process, but at this time during Fa-rectification cultivation, why would I encounter an incident like this? Everything in this world is driven by our mentalities, so the old forces must have taken advantage of one of my notions. What was it?
Suddenly I realized that I had an emotion that was very difficult to eliminate. When I was a student, I fell in love with a boy, but we weren't able to become a couple. All these years, I've missed him, and because of this, I've accumulated lots of thought karma. Once, I went to visit one of my former classmates to advise him to quit the CCP and its affiliated organizations. He mentioned some unfortunate things that had happened to the boy I had loved. This news moved my heart. I began to blame myself and thought that it was my fault and that I owed him a debt. After that, I always thought about finding him to explain things and to reminisce with him. During that time, many things that had happened between us came to my mind. There were so many thoughts about him that they were difficult to eliminate or to subdue, and I was distressed. Over the course of a year, my emotion gradually weakened, but was not completely eliminated.
When I identified this notion, I understood that it was not the real me, that it had been placed in me by the old forces, which wanted to make me to go astray and destroy me. I sent righteous thoughts to eliminate it. Since that moment, I no longer have this notion, nor do I have any thought karma from this tribulation.
I also believe that I should help my husband and the woman. I sent forth righteous thoughts to disintegrate all the unrighteous elements behind them. I talked to my husband and explained that it was not right for him to do something like that. If they couldn't live without each other, I would help them. We could divorce, allowing him to legally marry her. If he wanted to live with me, he could not do such a thing anymore. I left the decision to him, and my husband understood. Now, everything has returned to normal.
Looking inward whenever there is trouble is the key!
Category: Improving Oneself