October 11, 2001

I obtained Dafa in May of 1996, but at that time my understanding of Dafa was still in the perceptual stage and had not yet risen to a rational understanding. Neither was I diligently advancing myself in Dafa. So when the evil viciously began to attack Dafa on July 22, 1999, and when the Street Administrative office asked me to attend a meeting with all sorts of excuses, such as Dafa is in my heart, there is no need to make trouble for myself, I wrote a so-called guarantee letter and handed in several Dafa books and music tapes. After this event, my child did not dare to study the Fa any more, nor did he admit that he was a practitioner. I saw my own attachment through my child. So I tried to obtain Dafa books and music tapes from another source and persisted to do the exercises and read the books at home everyday.

In October 2000, I was shocked after reading Teacher's latest articles. I realized that I was a person who simply wanted to gain benefits from Dafa and did not want to devote any of my own effort and time to Dafa. I then decided to re-join cultivation in Fa-Rectification, and I realized that a Dafa disciple should go to Tiananmen to validate and safeguard Dafa. So, determined, I brought my child to Tiananmen and there I spoke out my heartfelt opinion that "Falun Dafa is good!" Therefore, I finally fulfilled my vow. I then returned home safely.

Thereafter, everyday I was actively finding Fa-Rectification work to do. Because my attachment of doing work for Dafa was extremely strong, I was unable to keep a calm mind while I was reading Dafa books everyday. Soon after, my father was reported to and arrested by the corrupt police for distributing Dafa's truth-clarifying literature. I didn't know that my father was arrested until the corrupt police visited my home. Because I was disturbed by the attachment of sentimentality, I made another huge mistake. I handed in a copy of Zhuan Falun and a copy of Teacher's Dharmakaya picture [Fashen picture, a body made of energy and Fa] and I signed the search warrant. I feel that this was a betrayal of Teacher and Dafa. At that time, I really wanted to destroy the signed search warrant, but I did not have the courage to do so.

After the corrupt police left, I burst into tears and cried very hard. This time I was consciously and clearly doing things that I should not do. As Teacher said in the article "Eliminate Your Last Attachment(s):" "Whenever I see you suffer hardships, Master feels even more upset than you; whenever you do not take a step well, it really pains my heart." Through this mistake, I realized that my own attachment was taken advantage of by the evil demons in order to create a bad name for Dafa. After reading Teacher's article "Coercion Cannot Change People's Hearts," I enlightened that I should write a declaration for my mistake. But because I was content with the fact that I did not stop doing work for Fa-rectification and that the tribulations I experienced would suffice to clean up the stain and make up for the losses I brought to Dafa, I gradually forgot to write this declaration. This was extremely dangerous!

It was at this moment that Teacher's article "Dafa is Indestructible" awakened me again: I was bargaining back and forth with Teacher who offers me salvation and I was self-contented with my own effort and sufferings. An attachment of fear was still deeply buried in the depth of my life. I was afraid that writing a solemn declaration would disturb the evil and then I would lose the comfortable environment I have for cultivation. I was actually living dishonorably, and this was the fundamental issue. I did not view Dafa from the standpoint of the Fa and was only thinking of my own safety. I was then shedding tears, and saw that Teacher was waving his hands to me with immense Compassion from a place not too far from me and it looked like Teacher was saying: "Child, come back!"

As a Fa-Rectification period Dafa disciple, in order to make myself worthy of this magnificent title, I now solemnly declare that what I wrote and spoke of in the past, which was not in accordance with the Fa, is to be completely voided, and that I will step forward from humanness with determination to do what a Fa-Rectification period Dafa disciple should do: "Clarify the truth thoroughly, eliminate the evil with righteous thoughts, save all beings, and safeguard the Fa with determination." ("Dafa is Indestructible") I will not fail Teacher's immense Compassion and salvation and I will cultivate myself "to attain the righteous Enlightenment of selflessness and altruism" ("Non-Omission in Buddha-Nature") as soon as possible.