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I am a Falun Dafa practitioner in Montreal, Canada. I have practiced Falun Dafa since September 1997. In December 1999, I went to Beijing to clarify the truth of Falun Dafa to the government and point out the error of its decision to persecute Falun Dafa. The police arrested me and sent me to the police station on Fuyou Street. The police did not dare to physically abuse me as they do other practitioners because I lived overseas. At the time, my understanding of Falun Dafa was limited and I did not realize that I should refuse their illegal arrest and actively suffocate and eradicate the evil. Fearing more trouble, I made up my mind to do what they ask as long as I did not have to write a pledge betraying my belief in Falun Dafa.

Several policemen interrogated me and I answered them without using much caution, even answering personal questions about other practitioners. When they asked who was in charge of the Falun Dafa Association and local exercise group in Montreal, I told them, thinking that they were Canadian citizens and that Chinese police could do nothing to them. I answered questions about my family, telling them the names of my wife and children and that they were practitioners too. At the time I did not think about other practitioners' security or the possible danger to them or their families. I realized later that although none of them had troubles, what I did actually betrayed them. I feel deep regret for this, but have not admitted it publicly before now because I lacked courage and feared losing face.

The police wanted to take my photo and I allowed them to do so. Finally, they asked me to sign the interrogation record. I did not want to sign it because they did not write down all of my words, especially the parts about how good Falun Dafa is, why persecuting Dafa is wrong, and the details of my appeal to stop the persecution. The record only included personal information about my family and me, just like a common criminal case. The record did not reflect any of my intentions to appeal. I was not willing to sign the record; however a policeman threatened that the case would not close if I refused to sign the record. With a fearful heart, I eventually signed.

I was detained in the Beijing Office of Nanning Government of Guangxi Province for 4 days. During that period, I asked to go out for a walk on the street but they refused my request. I complied with them, giving in to my attachments and fear again.

As I look back on this experience, I find that I did not pass the tests well. I actually cooperated with the evil and made a dark spot on my cultivation. This is because I did not understand Dafa well, and because I had not given up various attachments. I was unable to contribute and forbear for Dafa. I actually caused damage to Dafa. I realize now that this was an arrangement made by the old forces.

Therefore, I solemnly and completely renounce everything arranged for me by the old forces, including allowing the police to photograph me, the criminal-like file they compiled, and my signature on the interrogation record. I also want to apologize for the information I gave regarding other practitioners. I want to use my righteous thoughts to eliminate all that damages Falun Dafa. Do not give the evil any means by which it can persecute Dafa. To make up for the damage I brought to Dafa, from now on I will actively use my righteous thoughts to eradicate all evil forces, clarify the truth about Falun Dafa and do my best to help Teacher in Fa Rectification.