May 31st, 20001
I obtained Falun Dafa in January 1998 and have gained infinitely both physically and psychologically from the practice. I was one "whose attachments have driven them to follow those [evil] people," as described by Master in the article "Deter Interference." I was even a major influence among those who sought to do damage to Falun Dafa. Because of my strong attachments, I enlightened along an evil path and committed a series of deeds which deviated from, interfered with, and damaged Falun Dafa, causing a loss for which it is impossible to make up. I feel great regret and apologize sincerely to our compassionate Master and to Falun Dafa.
During the Hong Kong Incident, I participated in organizing the evil press conference, the gathering on May 7th, 2000 and the parade on May 11th, 2000. I helped the vile person organize these events and set up the website. I wrote a series of articles from my evil awakening, and gave a lot of speeches intended to damage Falun Dafa to newspapers, radio stations and television stations, including the BBC. Additionally, I purchased several thousand Falun Dafa books in order for that vile person to set up a book exhibition. I played a major role in the "Hong Kong Incident of Jumping Off A Building," and the "Hong Kong Incident of XXX Breaking the Customs." I also participated in activities organized to harass the temples in Mount Dayu in Hong Kong, causing a very bad effect on the people there. I provided a relatively large sum of money for the Hong Kong Incident. I was a personal witness to the collaboration between that vile person in Hong Kong and a secret agent dispatched by the Tianjin Public Security Bureau. I contacted them using a single phrase and was manipulated by them. Being attached to fame, I mislead the public and undermined the Fa. Because I thought highly of myself, I incurred demonic interference from my own mind and was manipulated by demons into accepting so-called "higher Fa principles." I actively recognized that vile person as my master, and engaged in influencing other students with my twisted understanding. Using email, I sent out a large number of that vile person's black articles and my own black articles to many places around the world . I even took off Master's Fa photo and replaced it with some evil stuff. I was not up to being a Falun Dafa disciple and even committed a great sin, which was unforgivable. My actions were a complete deviation from Falun Dafa. I was finally persecuted by the evil, and faced becoming neither a human being nor a ghost. I was in great agony.
After getting out of the Hong Kong Incident, I couldn't genuinely examine myself from the inside, which made me incapable of treating tribulations and trials using righteous thoughts. Instead I pursued externally, taking another wrong step and almost repeating the failure of the Hong Kong Incident. Driven by attachments, I went to India. This was done in the name of spreading the Fa, but actually I was again being manipulated by demons. I didn't consider the real situation in India, nor did I listen to the dissuasion of Fo Xue Hui (Falun Dafa Association) and other students and thus caused interference to Falun Dafa.
After coming back from India, I did a great deal of painful thinking and began to genuinely look inward to examine myself. I felt deep regret for everything I did and tried to deeply dig out my fundamental attachments. The reason that I came to this situation is completely because I didn't "genuinely cultivate" and didn't regard the Fa as teacher. As Master said, "It's simply that these people are too irrational and don't know to treasure Dafa and the opportunity to practice cultivation." Recalling all of this, I feel chilled and greatly shaken. I would be a ghost in hell without Master's great compassion toward all living beings.
Now I solemnly declare my words and deeds against Falun Dafa to be void. I completely break away from old evils and completely get rid of all the impure distorted things. At the same time, I solemnly apologize to Hong Kong citizens. All my extreme words and deeds, which didn't comply with Falun Dafa, had nothing to do with Falun Dafa. They did not conform to the universal characteristic of "Truth, Compassion and Forbearance." I am determined to double my efforts in order to make up for my mistakes, to "follow teacher closely and steadfastly cultivate Dafa," to keep up with the Fa-Rectification process, to advance further even more steadfastly, and to become a qualified Dafa disciple.
Qian Zhizheng, Student in California, USA