(Clearwisdom.net)

Before I began practicing Falun Dafa, I was unable to take care of myself and I often felt so bad that I no longer wanted to live. I was fortunate enough to begin practicing Falun Gong in 1996 and have experienced tremendous physical and mental benefits such as recovering from all the diseases I once had. However, Falun Gong was outlawed after July 20th, 1999, and I felt extremely uncomfortable and always wanted to find a chance to clarify the truth about Falun Gong to people. So I went to Beijing later on to appeal for Falun Gong. After I was taken back to my hometown, I found all of my money, cassette recorder, and Falun Dafa books at home were all confiscated. In the detention center the police did not allow me to sleep and I was forced to sit on a "tiger bench" (a torture instrument, see http://www.clearwisdom.net/emh/articles/2001/11/24/16156.html for illustration) and was tortured for over 40 days before I was released back home. But when the situation became tense, I was arrested again and tortured like this many times until 2003. They forcibly sent me to a hospital for medical examination and they said that I was going to be sentenced to 3 years in a forced labor camp. They also tried all means to threaten me to write a "pledge" promising not to practice anymore. Because I still had attachments that were not discarded, I signed the "pledge" under strong pressure. I felt very bad after going home. Master Li's said, "You have to walk your own path, and it's okay to trip and fall, you know how to pick yourselves up, and you know how to treasure everything that you do, and do everything afterwards even better." (Explaining the Fa During the 2003 Lantern Festival at the U.S. West Fa Conference) When I read this passage, I knew Master did not give up on me. I hereby solemnly declare that all of my signatures under coercion are invalid. I should put down the mental burden as soon as possible and try to catch up with the process of Fa-rectification and make up for the losses that I have caused to Dafa.

Sun Jixiang

Written on October 20, 2003

(From http://www.minghui.ca/mh/articles/2003/10/22/59267.html)

I am a policeman in the local police department. During the 16^th Party Congress in November 2002, I was arrested and taken to the local police station and detained there for three days. On the fourth day, the supervisors in the police department talked to me and said, "The Party Committee of our police department wants to bail you out, but you have to write a 'pledge'. " I clearly expressed that I would not write the "pledge". Then they kept trying to persuade me by saying things like"The police department realizes you are our policeman and also in your senior years, so we want to give you some special treatment. Otherwise you would have been treated like other Falun Gong practitioners" and so on. Under the influence of human attachments and due to errors in my thinking, I made the mistake to say that I would write a "pledge" promising to practice, and I told them I would never write any "pledge" promising not to practice Falun Gong. However, later I found out they secretly added a word "not" before the word "practice" in my pledge without letting me know.

Recently after I read articles on Clearwisdom and Pure Insight, I realize that the above actions are extremely wrong and I have done something that a Dafa disciple should not do and have left some stains on my path of cultivation that are difficult to clean up. When I dig deeply inside, I find that it is caused by my attachment of fear. Moreover, I mistakenly thought that it was the "special treatment" from my supervisors that prevented me from being persecuted in the past 4 years, thus developing some gratitude to the everyday people. Now I know it is Master that was compassionately protecting me along the way. When I measure myself with Dafa, I realize that I took the path arranged by the old forces on this important issue and was used by the evil. Therefore, I declare that the "pledge" written on November 4th, 2002 is completely void. I will firmly believe in Master Li and Dafa, eliminate the evil with righteous thoughts, thoroughly remove my attachments of fear, and assist Master Li in Fa-Rectification and offer salvation to sentient beings with righteous thoughts and actions. I will also summarize these lessons, strive forward diligently in my cultivation and try to make up for losses with redoubled efforts.

Dafa disciple Li Zhongyi

Written on October 23, 2002

(From http://www.minghui.ca/mh/articles/2003/10/24/59386.html)