On one occasion, after sending righteous thoughts at the top of each hour for 13 hours here in Argentina, some thoughts came to my mind and I decided to write them down and share them with my fellow practitioners.
One year ago, when I had just started sending righteous thoughts, I felt there was a lot of resistance inside myself because I did not have a clear understanding of the Fa. Nonetheless, I felt that somehow my own field was being rectified. It seemed as if everything inside my body and all my bodies in other dimensions were starting to work harmoniously. At the same time, my enlightenment quality improved and the resistance I felt seemed to gradually dissolve. At first I didn't feel very comfortable with the idea of "eliminating" something, no matter how bad it was. To go beyond the limits of forbearance during this period of time was something I knew to be necessary given the circumstances. Nonetheless, I felt some sadness within, but didn't know why, and part of me wasn't able to separate from the old forces because it pained me to see such high-level beings falling because they interfered with Master's plan of rectification and their warped understanding of the cosmos.
I also didn't have a clear understanding about not adding any mind intent to my cultivation. Now I have understood the fact that perhaps every time I add something to my cultivation, I'm actually doing the same thing the old forces are doing to the rectification of the Fa. By insisting on their own thoughts, they are harming not only themselves but others too. This is based on not trusting Master's wisdom and preventing the fulfillment of his sacred mission in the way he sees as most appropriate.
I am beginning to realize the magnitude of the effect my thoughts have in the cosmos and most of all within the realm that I'm responsible for. I've understood that it is better to remain as humble as I can and trust that no matter how they manifest, Teacher's plans will always be infinitely more perfect and benevolent than any of my own; so it is better that I follow His boundlessly compassionate teachings and let things take their natural course.
I feel it is time for all beings in the cosmos to react to the interference of the old forces and to raise their voices and let everyone know this should come to an end, that it should not be allowed to continue in this way. What is happening in this world seems to me to be symbolic, a reflection of unimaginably huge events happening in the infinite spaces of the cosmos. But our main spirit is here with us, with Master, and it is the choices we make here at every moment, that determine the course of events in those other spaces.
While I clarify the truth here, it is most likely that all my bodies in other dimensions are doing the same, along with countless other sentient beings. For every minute that I send forth righteous thoughts here on earth, how long am I sending righteous thoughts in other dimensions where the time-spaces are so much larger? All of this depends on the determination of the main consciousness in this dimension to carry it out. Perhaps if I didn't have the understanding of sending forth righteous thoughts and clarifying the truth during the Fa Rectification period, then perhaps the corresponding "me's" in other dimensions wouldn't do it either. Therefore, all those other dimensions might not be able to enter the new cosmos when the time comes. When I see that someone is tired, hoping for the persecution to be over so they can reach consummation, I feel uncomfortable. Sometimes I myself have worse thoughts, like wanting to disappear. I don't even want to think about what it's like in China!
Yet cultivation is something very serious and difficult to undertake. It's not easier to do in one place than in another, since the biggest struggles take place inside oneself, as I understand it. Overall, I think my feelings of discomfort stem from the thought that even this desire to reach consummation hides a pursuit of wanting to rest and take a vacation. Of course, just having a human body is pretty painful and no one likes to feel suffering.
Perhaps true happiness stems from sacrificing oneself for others, living to serve others. While on the other hand human happiness comes from seeking comfort and well-being for oneself and living in a "perpetual vacation." I have a feeling that it doesn't matter to me where I go at the time of my consummation (if I am successful in my cultivation), the level we reach doesn't matter because nothing in the history of this main spirit's existence will ever be as precious as this period of time of being with Master. This is true happiness. To be here, taking part in something so glorious and immense. Master can do it very well without me, but he gave me the opportunity to do something, no matter how big or small, for my own elevation.
Besides this, in the same way that cultivation depends on oneself, improving the cosmos is the responsibility of the beings that inhabit it; but because no one was capable of carrying this out by themselves, Master had to come and take charge of the things we couldn't do and give us his guidance. Didn't he say in Zhuan Falun: "Cultivation depends on oneself, but Gong is up to the Master"? Overall, he created a plan, and allowed us and countless other sentient beings to participate in it under his direction and infinite wisdom. But some wanted to set up their own rules and put everything at risk, which caused much suffering and unnecessary losses. I feel there is no more room in my heart for the beings in this category and I am absolutely no longer able to acknowledge any of their plans for myself or anyone else.
I have understood that when sending forth righteous thoughts I'm not really "killing" anyone. Instead, I'm bringing order and clarity to those places in the cosmos where Fa rectification hasn't reached yet. What I'm truly eliminating is evil, violence, torture, and murder of compassionate beings. This is why I hope that all practitioners who may still have doubts in their minds about sending forth righteous thoughts no longer have those doubts and remember why they came here--to become firm and determined, raise their voices and thoughts to eliminate the evil, and save the sentient beings in our cosmos' who are depending on us at this time. Please, no one else should allow the evil to continue. Let's not leave any gaps in our hearts that prevent the evil from taking advantage of us. I truly believe that as soon as the entire world learns the truth and recognizes the injustice of what is happening in China, the evil won't be able to stand any longer and will be eliminated entirely from the cosmos and then all of this will be over.
I wish to thank everyone for helping improve our environment through sharing their understandings. Please point out any wrong understanding since my level is still very limited and words can't always express an understanding with total clarity.
(Original article in Spanish)