November 23, 2003
(Clearwisdom.net) Below are bits and pieces of my cultivation experience. Even though the experiences flashed by within moments, the impact on my mind and my infinite respect towards Master Li were etched in my mind. Whenever I became uncertain and hesitant, I would think of these sacred moments. Master Li eliminated my tremendous karma; Master Li helps me step by step along the path of returning home; Master Li continuously displays layers of the Fa's principles in front of my eyes.
1. Miracles at the Beginning of Learning the Buddha Fa
I remember that when I first obtained the Fa, during one practice session, both of my legs became weak and shook. My heart felt as if it were suffocating. My arms were heavy, as if two large mountains were pressing down on them. One thought came to my mind: "lie down quickly, otherwise you are going to die." (Before practicing Dafa, this happened to me twice and I lay down both times). When I opened my eyes, I saw that everyone was quietly practicing the second exercise. I said to myself, "I can't undermine the appearance of Dafa practitioners." When this righteous thought came out, from the left side of my head, I heard a man's strong voice ask, "Are you firm towards Dafa?"
"Yes! I am firm," I replied. This voice came from far away. The voice was closely related to me. It was me, and yet it wasn't me. I listened in surprise, and within moments I felt the top of my head open a bit, and a gas slowly escaped. Very shortly my discomfort was gone and I felt relieved and light. I felt as if I could fly. I was stunned. After I went home, I could not stop my tears. Thinking back on that moment, I deeply understand that all the things Master Li said were true; all the things Master Li did were for us.
2. Appealing in Beijing
After July 20, 1999, the situation in China became very tense. Police frequently harassed all of the known Dafa practitioners, both at home and at work. After I decided that I would risk my safety to appeal in Beijing, I experienced great anxiety, with thoughts such as these: "A high income and stable job is waiting for you. You've been separated from your wife for so many years, and the whole family is waiting to reunite with you." Good things from everyday life came one after another, and they were all the things I had long been waiting for. I started to wonder and hesitate. The next day, a friend invited me for a meal and talked a lot about his bright future in life. I was attracted by such thoughts and decided not to appeal in Beijing for the time being.
After the meal, I walked out of the restaurant. The sky was dark and it was raining lightly. I did not pay much attention and rushed to the lab. In a few minutes, the sky suddenly was covered with dark clouds; the wind was strong and the rain came down heavily. I looked out the window in shock. The grass had been flattened on the ground due to the rain and the wind. I repeatedly asked myself, "Why is the weather like this? Nothing happens by chance around a cultivator."
At that time, I saw a Dafa practitioner walking in the strong wind and heavy rain. As I was wondering about that, I saw another Dafa practitioner also out in the wind and rain. I understood immediately. I must go to Beijing to appeal. I repeatedly studied the Fa, and one part appeared in my vision in large print:
"So that's why we just let things happen naturally. Sometimes you think that something is yours, and other people tell you it is, when in fact it's not. So maybe you think it's yours but it turns out it's not. That will reveal whether you're able to let it go. If you can't let it go it's an attachment. That method has to be used to get rid of your attachment to personal gain--that's the idea." (Zhuan Falun)
I immediately understood. When confronted with materialistic temptation, what did I choose? From what basis did I look at this issue? As a cultivator, the only way to truly get on the path of Fa-rectification is to give up the strong attachment towards personal benefits. I cannot express how I felt at that moment. Time and time again I understood Master Li's intricate and incomparably wise arrangements.
With Master Li's help, we avoided the obstacles from our families and work units, and arrived at the Beijing Appeals Bureau. After handing in the appeal letter, we were brought to the Beijing Liaison Office of our local government. When Dafa practitioners met each other, we were encouraged and glad. After sharing experiences, we stayed together and studied the Fa together. When having meals, we told everyone we met that "Dafa is good" and told them the stories of our cultivation.
Later we were picked up by our work units and sent to a detention center. In the detention center, everyday people were arriving there on a daily basis. Whenever there was a chance, Dafa practitioners would introduce the Fa to them and tell them "Falun Dafa is good." There was a fourteen-year-old girl in the same room with us. When she was being interrogated, she told the police, "After I get out, I will also learn Falun Gong. After I learn it well, I will also go to Beijing." The police officer thought about it and told her, "They are all good people; you should really learn from them." When she told me this after she came back from the interrogation, I was very glad.
We went on hunger strike because our Dafa books were taken away from us. During the five-day hunger strike, I deeply felt the power of Dafa. When people in the room were eating, I would practice my exercises. Whenever I practiced "Holding the Wheel above the Head," from the second exercise, I could feel a sweet substance from another dimension slowly flow into my stomach, and the feeling of hunger would immediately go away. I felt my head was clear and my whole body was light. At that time I truly felt proud to be Master Li's Dafa disciple. I felt deep respect for Master Li and for Dafa, and I firmly believed in them.
In the months and years after that, no matter what I went through, that voice from the past, "Are you firm towards Dafa?" and my reply, "Yes, I am firm" always encouraged me to stay firmly in the mighty current of Fa-rectification and to perform all the things a Dafa practitioner should do to fulfill the promise we had made.
