(Clearwisdom.net)
It had been a month since I started to memorize Zhuan Falun in early April. Whenever I used to study the Fa, or when I hand-copied Zhuan Falun, my mind often wandered and became distracted by other things. I tried everything, and finally resolved to memorize the book. At first, the task seemed daunting, and impure thoughts surfaced, "Such a thick book, how long will it take? I should just give up," or "Fa-rectification has already proceeded this far, what if I fail to memorize it by the time it concludes?" I recognized this as a form of interference. The former thought was due to laziness, idleness, and my desire to find some shortcut, as if Zhuan Falun could be memorized overnight. The latter thought was due to my severe attachment to time. I previously thought I had overcome this attachment to time, but evidently it resurfaced. Nonetheless, after memorizing a dozen pages with determination, I found that my deviated notions had all disintegrated. Now I no longer consider whether I can finish memorizing the book in time, or how long it will take me. I concentrate on simply memorizing whenever I have free time, regardless of how many pages I can accomplish. With a Fa this great, even if I can only commit one sentence to memory, a small portion of me will still be at one with the Fa.
I kept a slow pace, averaging forty to fifty minutes to memorize a page, and sometimes it took over an hour to memorize one page. But it wasn't a problem as long as I made my best effort. I didn't notice any difference at the beginning, but after a while I became aware of some holistic improvements [after memorizing Zhuan Falun].
One day I was having a meal at a small eatery, and saw the young wife of the owner with her three-year-old child. They looked like they were having a very difficult life. I wanted to clarify the truth to them, but I always felt uneasy previously whenever I clarified the truth one-on-one. I feared that the other person wouldn't understand and would ridicule me. I had often tried to get rid of these notions but with no success. However, on that day, I was able to break through this barrier. When I told them, "Please remember that Falun Dafa is good, and Zhen-Shan-Ren (Truthfulness-Compassion-Tolerance) is good," I didn't feel any uncertainty at all. I felt as if I was enshrouded in a field of compassion, and I wholeheartedly believed that Master was by my side. I was on the verge of crying, but during the conversation the restaurant owner's wife shed tears twice, and repeatedly told me, "Thank you! Thank you very much! I am very fortunate to meet you today!" Her child was beside me at the moment, and I also told the child, "Remember that Falun Dafa is good, and Zhen-Shan-Ren is good!" The young mother tugged at her child, and said "Go on, tell Auntie." Her mother eagerly waited, as if concerned that the child didn't hear me. When I was about to leave she asked me if she could read some Dafa books. I gave her a copy of Zhuan Falun the following day, and she finished it and learned the exercises just a few days later. Afterwards she told me, "This Fa is so great, no matter how challenging it is, I must continue to learn it!" Currently she does the exercises and studies the Fa every day. At the time, I had just finished memorizing the first lecture.
Another incident involved my local Dafa literature publication site. In March my own small VCD assembly site was established. The first batch of VCD's was distributed successfully. An hour after distribution, a strong notion cropped up: "What if my VCD's are defective?" I remembered on Minghui.net a fellow practitioner offered the suggestion to test each VCD with a VCD player to ensure proper playback. However, I didn't have a VCD player, and the first VCD I made played fine on a colleague's VCD player. At the time, however, there was a discontinuity between the picture and sound. I later corrected the problem, but no tests were conducted afterwards. At the time that notion appeared overwhelming. I knew it was interference, and assured myself, "Everything will be fine." But my righteous thoughts were insufficient, and I couldn't overcome this problem even after sending forth righteous thoughts. I proceeded to finish a few more batches with doubt and uncertainty on my mind. However, after I started to memorize Zhuan Falun, these thoughts gradually disappeared. After memorizing about 50 to 60 pages, I found a renewed confidence when I resumed making VCD's. Although I still didn't have a VCD player to test the them, they were immersed with Dafa practitioners' righteous thoughts and righteous actions. Righteous thoughts were incorporated from its creation to finish-- the creation of the hardware used to create the VCD's, the extraction of the files, the writing and distribution of the VCD's-- all of these were done by Dafa practitioners. The entire process was completed with honesty and dignity, so nothing should obstruct the proper operation of these discs. I will not allow it, Dafa will not allow it, and Master certainly will not allow it! My righteous thoughts were even more powerful this time. I was confident that every disc would successfully reach its destination, and would apply its greatest impact in saving sentient beings. I achieved a better understanding of what Master meant when he said, "The Fa can break all attachments, the Fa can destroy all evil, the Fa can shatter all lies, and the Fa can strengthen righteous thoughts." ("Drive Out Interference")
During this time, I also discovered improvements in many aspects of my personal cultivation. I no longer got impatient or nervous when encountering difficulties. Previously I was easily irritated, and felt the pressure of endless amounts of work. Being so preoccupied, I couldn't sit still during meditation, and quit as soon as my legs began to feel numb. The Fa tells us to endure the pain, but I just couldn't stand it. I frequently became angry when facing problems, and my attachments to fame, self-interests, and sentimentality seriously interfered with me. I knew I must possess righteous thoughts to cultivate myself, but I was unable to do it. Now, after I memorizing Zhuan Falun, I experienced a new peace of mind. I could sit through the pain while practicing the exercises, and could maintain my xinxing in different situations. Witnessing these changes, I regretted not memorizing the book earlier. If I had started earlier, I would not have encountered so many problems, and more lives would have been saved. However, it's still not too late, as I have indeed started my memorization.
With a slow pace, I can only memorize about four to five pages a day. In total I've committed over 200 pages to memory. I have enlightened to the fact that when we study the Fa better, clarifying the truth will be easier, our righteous thoughts will be more effective, and we'll truly achieve greater results.
