August 27, 2003
(Clearwisdom.net)
On July 20, 1999, when the TV began broadcasting propaganda slandering Falun Dafa, I was enraged. Right away, I realized this news was all false. Since then, my husband watched over me closely because he was afraid something would happen to me. He cursed fellow practitioners who called me at home. I had to avoid him when reading Dafa materials or doing Dafa work. Even when he was at work, he often called me to see if I was at home. One time when he came back home, I was not there since I went out to distribute truth-clarification flyers. After I came back, he kicked and beat me. I realized the environment could no longer be like that--it needed to change.
In the past, I only read Dafa materials when he was out, and immediately hid them upon hearing him opening the door. Later, I felt it should not be like that. How could it be that I couldn't read Dafa materials in my own home? One day, I continued to read Dafa materials when he came back. He looked at me, but I pretended not to notice him. He had no choice but to leave. Soon afterwards, I talked with him about how good Dafa was, and that Falun Gong practitioners are good people. For example, by following Dafa's requirement, I was able to tolerate his faults. I also became forbearing and more compassionate. He knew that change was the result of practice since I had a bad temper and egotism in the past. There are practitioners all over the world, including me in China. I also talked to him about some principles I learned from the Fa. Later when talking with his colleagues, my husband said Falun Gong was good. Since then, I was able read Dafa materials even when he was at home. When fellow practitioners called me, he also helped to answer the phone. And I was able to go out to get Dafa materials when he was at home.
In the beginning, I also avoided him when doing Dafa work. One day, there was lots of work to do, and I had not finished it when it was time for him to come back. I thought, shouldn't I do it openly and above board? So I did not hide things when he came back. He was very upset upon seeing this. He said, you are so silly--nobody does this except you. I said if nobody prepared the materials, where did the flyers and VCDs come from? Plus, what I do are good things. He said I could be sentenced to 8 or 10 years imprisonment for doing that, which was bad for both me and the family. I said that I surely would continue doing things for Falun Gong. He asked me to take the Falun Dafa materials out of the house and not to keep them at home. He was so angry that he slapped his own face. I sat there, undisturbed. He then moved the quilt to the sofa, and cursed me. I started to send forth righteous thoughts to eliminate the evil controlling him. After two or three minutes, he suddenly became quiet. I continued to send forth righteous thoughts. After about 10 minutes, he went to sleep.
The next day, I realized that the undesirable environment at home was a result of my poor cultivation. The reason why I let him know I was doing Dafa work was not on the basis of Dafa, but instead from human notions. It was my human mentality that gave the evil loopholes and could be taken advantage of. I decided not to compromise, but instead continued to do things at home openly and above board. Thus, I still kept things at home. When I was cooking dinner, he came back. Not only did he not complain any more, he tried to find topics to talk to me about. During dinner, he said, "I hope that, after you finish these things, you can give them to others and not keep them at home." In the evening, he went to sleep, so that I could do Dafa work in the room. After finishing Dafa work for that day, I still kept the equipment at home. He did not comment on it.
Four years have passed sine July 20, 1999, and some fellow practitioners still cannot study the Fa, read Dafa materials, or make phone calls at home. I have shared my experience here, hoping that fellow practitioners can use it as a reference to change their home environments with compassion.
Some practitioners do not study the Fa at home because they fear the reactions of their family members and want to avoid quarrels. This may actually harm these family members, because their thoughts about Dafa determine their own future. Teacher said, "The environment is created by you, yourselves, and it, too, is essential for your improvement." ("Environment" Essentials For Further Advancement) As long as we let go of attachments, Teacher will definitely help us when we want to create a good cultivation environment at home. The situation will not get really bad, either. On the other hand, if we cannot let go of attachments, the evil will continue to harass us and do bad things endlessly. If we are unable to create a good environment even at home, how can we do well in Fa-rectification outside home? On the surface, our family members are relatives, but according to the Fa, they are also beings that need to be saved.
