(Clearwisdom.net) Recently I made several phone calls to introduce the "Nine Commentaries on the Communist Party" to my family members and friends. Before making each phone call, I felt a lot of mental pressure. However, I thought, "If we look at it like this--all over the world, there are 100 million Falun Gong practitioners. If each of us clarifies the truth about Falun Gong to 10 people, then how many people will be saved? Time doesn't wait for us."
I was encouraged when I made the first phone call. However, on a second phone call, I could sense that my relative was opposed to what I was saying. I was very frustrated when I hung up the phone. I didn't know how to make the key points, so I spoke quickly and impatiently. After I shared my experience with fellow practitioners, I realized that I should not devote my mind to the result, nor to my own feelings. I should think about the other people. If making one phone call doesn't work well, then I should make more phone calls to clarify the truth. I shouldn't expect to accomplish it in one action. I should also try to relax when I make phone calls.
Afterwards, that afternoon, I found out the phone numbers of two classmates of mine. I had promoted Falun Gong to them before, and they are both Chinese Communist Party members.
I left a message for them, and soon one of them called me back. Although she lives outside of China, she had never heard of Nine Commentaries, as she only reads the entertainment section of the Epoch Times. I summarized the contents, and while she could understand some things, she couldn't follow everything I said. Finally she asked me where she could find and read those articles.
After I hung up the phone, I thought, "That would be great if I could be so calm when I call my family members. They are all sentient beings, why can't I accept the fact that they also have misunderstandings and problems? Why was I so impatient?" Then I sent forth righteous thoughts to eliminate my selfishness and thought karma.
Last night, I called my younger brother, mainly asking him to help me pass on the Nine Commentaries and clarifying the truth about Falun Gong to my father, since he did not receive the copy I sent him.
From the very beginning of the conversation, my younger brother questioned me on whether Falun Gong practitioners were involved in politics, although last time he said that he would like to quit the CCP. I remained calm and talked about some events that recently happened to him. I told him that our purpose was not getting into politics but saving sentient beings. I also mentioned to him how cruel the persecution of Falun Gong was. (The day before yesterday, the Minghui website published a video tape of the body of a Falun Gong practitioner from Mainland China, who had been tortured to death.) I told him how compassionate Falun Gong practitioners are. They would spend all of their extra savings to produce materials to clarify the truth, while living a hard life themselves. In addition, they risked arrest, torture, and death, all to clarify the truth to people. As I continued, my younger brother became quiet, and finally he said, "This is the strength from their faith."
In the end, he asked, "Even if the CCP had committed such severe crimes and sins, are the individual CCP members considered bad too, since many of them didn't persecute people and gods can see people's hearts?" I answered, "Well, if this person has a righteous thought about Falun Dafa, and he opposes what the CCP has done, then maybe he will be fine. But if a person has some knowledge of Dafa, on the other hand, and he agrees with the CCP on everything without thinking it through himself, then shouldn't we count this person as a particle of the CCP? Besides, you said that our father didn't participate in the persecution of Falun Gong, but how could Jiang Zemin have launched the cruel persecution of Falun Gong all by himself? Didn't the CCP members carry out those orders from the top down? During the process, who didn't participate in some kind of declaration or slander against Falun Gong? This is what keeps the persecution going. When the final moment comes, the Party members will be condemned and purged by the gods, so don't you think that our father is in danger?" He thought about my words and said, "Yes, our father is indeed in danger. He believes the CCP so easily." I said, "You have already quit the CCP, but you should help our father to renounce it, too." He promised to give it a try.
The conversation lasted about 40 minutes. During the conversation, I realized that I could have been more rational and had more wisdom if I wasn't so emotional. Yet, this was only a beginning. I will be given more chances later on. I believe that as long as I study the Fa well and keep my heart calm, I will do better. Actually, while clarifying the truth, as a practitioner, I experienced a lot from doing this. I threw myself into clarifying the truth to people, and it was clear that I must save the sentient beings. I didn't feel lonely or that there were tests that I couldn't pass.
In the past, I seldom clarified the truth to people face to face. That's why I felt I went through so much when I actually only accomplished just a little bit. Even if I am busy in other forms of truth-clarification, that shouldn't stop us from speaking out the truth. If we Dafa practitioners are diligent, and if each of us genuinely wants to break through this obstacle, then there shouldn't be any problems and we will break through it in no time.
March 29, 2005