(Clearwisdom.net) When I recently went with my wife, who is also a practitioner, to post signs about the Nine Commentaries and quitting the CCP, I worried a little about my safety on the way home. I then began to feel a dull pain in my stomach. I immediately sent forth righteous thoughts to eliminate the evil factors, dark minions, rotten demons and evil spirit of the CCP that were persecuting me. The pain soon disappeared. However, when it was time to send forth righteous thoughts at midnight, my stomach hurt again. The pain suddenly intensified. My wife helped me send righteous thoughts to resist the persecution. I was not able to continue sending forth righteous thoughts for 20 minutes using the hand positions, and had to lie down on my bed and continue without holding the hand positions. At first, I could tolerate the pain. But the pain soon worked its way from my legs all way to my neck. I moaned at first, then groaned loudly, but the pain would not go away.
My wife didn't sleep either. She continued to help me to resist the persecution, but the pain continued to intensify. At dawn, the situation had not improved at all. I sent forth righteous thoughts and completely opposed any persecution stemming from my omissions. I affirmed that I was a Dafa practitioner in the Fa-rectification period. Even if I had big omissions, no being is qualified to test me, as I had Teacher and the Fa, and Teacher would guide me. My standards were those of a Dafa practitioner and I didn't accept or acknowledge any form of persecution.
Even so, I looked within for omissions. I discovered an attachment to comparing myself with other practitioners. I often felt that I did more of the three things that Teacher has told us to do than other practitioners. I bragged to others that I hadn't become a drag on Fa-rectification and that Teacher's law body would not be unhappy to see what I did. I had become very attached to showing off. The old forces' opportunity to persecute me was that I wasn't strict with myself nor did I try to rectify myself. I was determined to fundamentally get rid of this attachment.
I did most of my truth-clarification work during the day. I distributed truth-clarification materials and placed truth-clarification signs in residential areas, on streets or in busy business areas. Although I knew these were the things I was supposed to do, I did them with human attachments. Most prominent was my attachment to time. In order to do my best, I thought I had to do it fast and well. I wanted to end my homeless life very soon. I was unconditionally doing Dafa work. I needed to get rid of it from the root.
Later, I discovered another big omission. When I studied the Fa, I had an indistinct thought in my mind, which quickly slipped away after it appeared. It was as if I thought Teacher was bragging. At first I refused to acknowledge it and thought it was thought karma. Now I realized it was my omission of not respecting Teacher and not firmly believing in Dafa. I was determined to really eliminate it.
When I recognized some of my omissions, the symptoms and pains got better. By that evening, however, it was still not completely gone. I had no appetite. At dawn the next day, my wife told me I didn't look good and was very thin. By noon, I realized that because I hadn't firmly and thoroughly opposed the persecution by the old forces, I had artificially separated myself from Teacher and nourished the evil demons. I had studied Teacher's Fa, but I hadn't really applied it.
I told myself to have a strong master consciousness. Teacher's Fa appeared in my mind. I thought I should follow my path arranged by Teacher to save the sentient beings and would go out to distribute the Nine Commentaries the next day. When that thought appeared in my mind, I realized the meaning of "A good or bad outcome comes from one thought." My body began to recover quickly. I could stand and walk. Although my back still hurt badly and I still felt weak, an invisible force supported my body. I thank Teacher for his benevolence. The next day, I did what Dafa practitioners in the Fa-rectification period are supposed to do.
