(Clearwisdom.net) I know that some practitioners openly admit that they have an attachment to time, and that some other practitioners have the same attachment in a more subtle and hidden way. I was a bit upset by this, but unable to figure out why.
During Fa study yesterday, my heart was filled with the true manifestation of the Buddha Law. I suddenly came to the realization that the human world is an illusion, and that the Buddha Fa is precious as a gem.
As far as Dafa is concerned, my husband half believes and half doubts. When he believes in Dafa, he seems pretty happy, but when he doubts the truth of Dafa, his biggest concern is that if he were to discover one day that all of his belief in Dafa was false, he would fall apart completely. Sometimes, he tells me that this is all very silly of me to have sacrificed everything, and he asked when this would all come to an end. Sometimes, he would ask me affectionately just to be "a good everyday person."
I thought about what he said, but the answer is that even if I gain nothing in the end, I would have no regrets. I have cultivated Dafa for eight years, which have been the most real and meaningful years of my life. Other than this, all the past memories in my life are just illusions. Half a lifetime is not even worthy of the few true words in front of me.
How fortunate it is for a small life like mine to be able to obtain Dafa. Sometimes during Fa study, a sense of enormous gratitude emerges from the bottom of my heart beyond expression, and the only thing I can think to do is to Heshi with both hands, and my heart is imbued with boundless joy and respect.
Now, I no longer think about what I have done or sacrificed, as everything in life is an illusion. What can a human being do and sacrifice that would be worthy? I cannot repay what I have already gained. How can an everyday person understand the wonderfulness of the Buddha Fa! Just one word of the Dao Master taught is worth sacrificing my entire life.
I had a stronger sense of the boundless grace of the Fa during Fa study yesterday. When an everyday person reads the Fa, it is only black ink on white paper, so how could such a person understand the mighty power of the Fa itself? Dafa can break any attachment, eliminate all evil, and create all life, yet it asks for nothing in return.
I am not attached to time any more. What I have got is abundant enough and I have nothing to repay for it. Apart from Fa, I have nothing else. What a boundless joy and what enormous gratitude. I have nothing to repay for Master's mercy. I have only regrets that I cannot get rid of all my attachments quickly enough and cannot fully melt into the Fa. I only wish that one day I shall be fully melted into the Fa and ask for nothing else. The Fa is for every sentient being in the universe, I hope every sentient being is able to obtain it.
This is only an incidental understanding. I wish I could do well at all times.