(Clearwisdom.net) I started practicing Falun Dafa in 1998. I was very timid before I obtained the Fa. I could never stay at home by myself. When I was young, I was always with my mother. My mother stayed with me in the evening when I did my homework. After I got married, I always asked someone to stay with me when my husband was out of town to work. After the sun went down, I did not dare to leave the house. After I obtained the Fa, I gradually became bolder.
Since the persecution of Falun Gong started in July 20, 1999, I have been working on clarifying the truth of Falun Gong to validate the Fa. At the end of 2000 I went to Beijing to appeal for Falun Gong. I left home at one o'clock at night. I crossed the Songhua River in the dark. That was the first time for me to walk outside at night. With Master's protection I crossed the river successfully. I firmly believed there was no risk as long as I put my heart on the Fa.
I remembered the first time I posted the words, "Falun Dafa is Good" on a utility pole. I went out in the middle of the night. I was looking around and my heart beat very fast. I thought, "I am a Falun Gong practitioner and I must validate the Fa." This is a righteous thought. I went with another practitioner the second time. After I finished the posting on two utility poles, I came to the third one. In the middle of posting the words, "Falun Dafa is Good," my fellow practitioner said, "Someone is coming." I saw that two people were coming. I was so scared that I dropped my materials and ran away. When we got home it was almost the midnight. I regretted that I did not finish posting those words. Was I so afraid to do Dafa work? At that time we did not yet know Master's Fa-rectification verses and did not know to send forth righteous thoughts. I recited Hong Yin. I was reciting Master's poem "Mighty Virtue":
Dafa does not leave the body,
The heart harbors Zhen-Shan-Ren;
In the world is a great Arhat,
Spirits and ghosts fear greatly.
(Hong Yin, English Translation Version B)
I suddenly realized that spirits and ghosts fear me greatly, what am I afraid of? I left my home alone, stepping into deep snow. I found the place where I dropped my materials. I found them and started to post those words again. I did not go back home until I had used up all my materials.
Since then, I have never been afraid again. When my attachment of fear shows up, I use righteous thoughts to eliminate it. In these years I have posted words in support of Dafa anywhere possible in our area. In the beginning, when we finished our truth clarification work, people who had been influenced by the anti-Falun Gong propaganda of the Chinese Communist Party would cover them up, but we would post them again. Thus, our righteous thoughts and righteous actions suffocated the evil forces. Now when we post the words, "Falun Dafa is Good," and "Truthfulness, Compassion and Forbearance are Good," no one will cover it any more. As long as we can study the Fa well, we can do well the three things which Master has asked us to do.
Some practitioners still do not step forward to validate the Fa. Is that because you have the attachment of fear? As long as we study the Fa well, truly believe our Master, and validate the Fa, our righteous thoughts will be stronger and stronger. The attachment of fear will disappear. Master said:
"The fact is, those who can't step forward, regardless of the excuse, are concealing fear. Yet for cultivators, fear or lack thereof proves [one's] humanity or divinity, and it is what differentiates cultivators from ordinary people. It is something that a cultivator must face, and the biggest human attachment that a cultivator must remove." (Teacher's Commentary "Study the Fa Well, and Getting Rid of Attachments is Not Hard")
My fellow practitioners, please put down the attachment of fear, and step forward! How many sentient beings are waiting for us to save them!
Category: Improving Oneself
