(Clearwisdom.net) The path of my cultivation practice has been bumpy. I am writing about it to share with fellow practitioners in the hope that my experience will be beneficial to others.
Back in 2004, I did not study the Fa often enough nor did I have a good understanding of the Fa. My attachment to doing Dafa work was intense. As a result, the evil found my loophole and persecuted me. After I was released from a detention center, out of my fear, I did not go out to clarify the truth for an extended period of time. The less I went out, the more fearful I became. I would glance this way and that, fearing there were suspicious people around. Even when I stayed at home, I remained alert whenever I heard footsteps.
Later, with the help of fellow practitioners, I started to earnestly study the Fa and read the experience sharing stories on Minghui (Chinese version of Clearwisdom). I realized that as an attachment and as very bad physical matter, fear has to be eliminated; otherwise I could not elevate. Witnessing fellow practitioners melting into the stream of validating the Fa and saving sentient beings with their righteous thoughts and actions, I became anxious. Finally I made a vow: Despite my fear, I must do Fa-validation work. As a result, I went back to the truth-clarification materials production site.
Because of my fear, as soon as I set foot in my home, my family told me that the police were looking for me. I decided to not sleep at home. As time went by, my family had trouble understanding me. Once again, I encountered a dilemma due to my human sentimentality.
Right then, the symptoms of appendicitis recurred and I felt unbearable pain. One thought occurred to me: I must not acknowledge the persecution, I must not lose my human body, and I must not sabotage the Fa. That night, I had a dream. Carefree, I flew in the sky followed by my father. I realized after I woke up that Teacher was encouraging me and giving me the hint that my father has a predestined relationship with the Fa so I ought to be compassionate to him.
Although my mother was a practitioner, my father was not. After the police arrested me, my father was so worried that he was unable to walk. After I was released, all of my friends and relatives tried very hard to persuade me to give up the practice. While my father had no objection to my belief, he too wanted me to give up the practice because he was afraid the persecution would disrupt my normal life. I refused and sometimes even quarreled with him. Later he stopped talking about this with me.
Soon afterward, my father fell ill. His symptoms appeared to be a cerebral hemorrhage and he could not speak normally. As a result, he stayed in the hospital and received intravenous injections for two weeks. While he was sick, I was unable to accompany him, although I constantly sent forth righteous thoughts during that period to dissolve all elements that interfered with him. Now my father is healthy again and he too practices Falun Gong.
On the path of cultivation, my attachment to fear is hardly noticeable any more and the police are no longer chasing after me. In addition, the influence of evil beings causing my family to interfere with my practice has become minimal. I have awakened to the fact that attachments can be let go of during the processing of doing the three things. As long as our "xinxing" is in place, Teacher and the Fa-guardian gods will help us. When we place Fa at the highest priority at every moment, all issues can be easily resolved. Master said, "Cultivation is up to you, gong is up to the master." (The First Talk, Zhuan Falun)
Some practitioners dared not come out to clarify the truth because, as they explained, their homes were monitored or they were under surveillance. Regarding this issue, I have my own understanding. First, one must deny it from one's mind. Do not recognize the illusion. Calm down and study the Fa and then look within to see what attachments you have not let go of. Master said,
"Any time some kind of interference comes along in your practice, you have to look within for the cause and find what it is you still haven't let go of." (The Seventh Talk, Zhuan Falun)
Dafa has created everything. Those who conform to Dafa are the most righteous, while those who do not will be eliminated. With righteous thoughts and righteous actions, together let us clarify the truth and dissolve all evil elements that try to prevent us from saving sentient beings. With the boundless wisdom and the supernormal capabilities provided by Dafa, let us demonstrate our divine power and dissolve all the evil.
