(Clearwisdom.net) I recently experienced much interference in every area of my life: my children were not behaving; there were conflicts in my family, school and other social circles that took a lot of my time and effort to resolve; and sometimes I even experienced "sickness." These problems all reduced my time and effectiveness in doing the three things well. I looked inwards and found some attachments. However, it has not been easy to eliminate these attachments, and they always resurface. I tried to find excuses for myself, thinking that since I obtained the Fa after 1999, maybe all these interruptions were for me to improve my xinxing. As a result, I endured them passively. As a matter of fact, I was trying to find excuses for myself to keep from eliminating my attachments and cultivating diligently.
Today during the five minutes before sending forth righteous thoughts, as I was "thinking about eliminating the bad thoughts, karma, bad notions, and external interference in my mind," I realized that all my attachments are omissions for the evil to take advantage of to interrupt me and that all the interruptions reduced the time and effectiveness for me to fulfill my responsibilities. If I do not cultivate diligently to eliminate these attachments, these self-generated and evil-generated interruptions will all interfere with the Fa-rectification. I was alert once I realized this. My cultivation environment is much easier than that of our fellow practitioners in China, yet I did not face my attachments and cultivate diligently. I became part of the interruptions to the Fa rectification.
In "Teaching the Fa in San Francisco, 2005, Q&A portion," when answering the question "In explaining the three withdrawals [from the CCP] to ordinary people, if we talk about prophecies and epidemics will that be putting it at too high a level?" Master said,
"But why is it like this? As you know, the old forces' goal is to test Dafa disciples by having these clowns stage this persecution, isn't it? They think, 'The test of Dafa disciples isn't over yet. Those students who have not yet stepped forward should be doing so continuously, and you have let those who haven't done well, do well.' If we're going to talk about hindering the Fa-rectification's progress in this world, well, these students really are slowing it down."
The above is my understanding at my level; I would like to share it with fellow practitioners who are in similar situations. Please kindly point out any mistakes.
January 2, 2006