(Clearwisdom.net) Looking back at my experiences of validating the Fa in the past several years, nothing stood out as an extraordinary event that shook the world. However, I know in my heart that the situation is far more significant than it appears. All the practitioners who followed Master this far have done great things that can't be described even if they talked for three days and three nights nonstop. As long as we are true cultivators, each one of us has experienced Dafa's amazing supernatural effects.
One day in 2003 a fellow practitioner told me that one of her colleagues is a friend of the police officer in charge of the persecution of Falun Gong. The colleague also told her to "be careful" because the authorities have set a goal to arrest 50 practitioners; that anyone known to be a practitioner will be arrested and sent to a forced labor camp. At that time I knew that I was being watched, and I had some fear. Now, this colleague confirmed my concern, and my attachment of fear suddenly became out of control. I felt that I could not take it anymore. I rushed home and made some quick arrangements for my children, and then I promptly left home and went into hiding. I was feeling as if the evil had surrounded me. I had no choice but to leave. Right after I got to the street, several police cars came in my direction. I did not dare to look at them. I lowered my head and walked away. Apparently, these cars were not coming for me.
I moved into my niece's home. Sending forth righteous thoughts and practicing the exercises was not as convenient for me as in my own home, so I spent most of my time reading Dafa books. When I read "Lecturing on and Explaining the Fa at the Metropolitan New York Fa Conference," I calmed down. Afterwards, I called several fellow practitioners. I asked them how the "situation" was. During the conversation they were so calm, as if nothing had happened. They were calm and confident. I then realized that it was I that had not been righteous; I had a strong fear and my mind was away from the Fa. Two days later my mind stabilized, and I returned home.
At home, I calmed down and reflected on myself. Why did I panic? Why were others not affected, but I was? I stepped out of my mindset and examined my recent thoughts. I was surprised by what I found. The root cause of my overreaction was this: One day I had the thought that the local residential administration people will search door-to-door for something. I thought: "I should not let them see my Dafa books." This thought was already not right, but I did not become alarmed by it. On the contrary, my mind became occupied by it. So the old forces took advantage of this. The old forces have found that some practitioners have a defensive mentality against persecution, and they told me to hide the books. This suggestion somehow reinforced my fear and attachment. Fellow practitioners even told me, "So the 'big action' must be for real." My fear gradually grew; the more you fear the more false scenes the evil creates. Some fellow practitioners (as influenced by the evil) may tell you that "something" happened. Everything that happens around you seems natural and real because they were created to test your heart. So everything you see looks real and confirms your earlier notions.
Master stated,
"If these acquired notions become very strong, they will reverse their role and dictate one's real thinking and behavior. At this point, a person may still think that they are his own ideas. This is the case for almost all contemporary people." ("For Whom do You Exist" in Essentials for Further Advancement)
After identifying the notion, I became a more solid believer in Master and the Fa.
Master said,
"Your enlightened, original nature will automatically know what to do." ("Expounding on the Fa" in Essentials for Further Advancement)
I realized that Master had resolved all the interference. I also knew that after this experience, I walked a solid step forward along the path of cultivation. This simple step laid a foundation for my future cultivation. When I have righteous thoughts, the power of my sending forth righteous thoughts is much stronger.
On the third day after Chinese New Year in 2004 my uncle (mother's brother and a practitioner) came to my home and told me that a village head asked him to relay a message to me. The message was that I should hide away from home for the near future because the 610 Office and the police wanted to arrest me. This time I was much calmer because I recently increased my Fa study efforts; my mind was quite righteous. I almost went to the "610 Office" to question them. (I had previously clarified the facts to them.) However, because of some worries, I did not go. Now I know that I was attached to the surface appearance and always wanted to get an answer from them. With the help of fellow practitioners, I called the persons who were responsible for this action, "I heard that you are looking for me, why?" She said that the city government supplied my name to them. She kept talking nonsense to me. I asked her, "What do you mean the police will have a campaign?" At this moment, the phone suddenly went dead. I immediately became alerted, "Wasn't I talking to the evil directly? Do I really want to negotiate with the evil behind the human and expect an answer from them?" After realizing this, I was able to deal with the issue with rationality. I told myself, "I am Master's disciple; whoever has persecuted Dafa disciples will be punished." How dare they make plans to arrest practitioners! This will make it harder for everyday people to learn about Dafa. Based on this alone, the old forces are committing a huge crime against Dafa. Therefore I must clear away all the evil, dark minions and rotten demons behind the people and the police who persecute practitioners, interfere with Fa-rectification and hinder our efforts to save sentient beings. I must bring an end to all the old forces' involvement in the sabotage. It doesn't matter what attachment I have; with Master and Dafa as my guidance, no one else in the universe is qualified to test me. Everyone is a being coming to assimilate to Dafa. Who has the right to test me? Master said that we should deny the old forces from the most fundamental level. Therefore I should not give the old forces any power; I should give even less weight to the people who caused interference for me.
Master said,
" If anyone can harm you, he or she would be able to harm me. Put simply, that person would be able to harm this universe." (Zhuan Falun, 2000 translation version)
My belief in this sentence has solidified my understanding. I knew that I must unconditionally assimilate to Dafa. I am Master's disciple; therefore I must listen to Master's every word. When encountering interference and difficulties, I must calm down and examine myself. Why was I affected?
I knew that I had some fear deep inside my heart. When clarifying the truth, even to someone I knew, I didn't want to tell them my home address. I would just tell them roughly where I lived. In the current environment there is nothing wrong with my caution. However, I know better; my hesitation comes from pressure and fear.
Master said, "For cultivators at different levels, the Fa has different requirements." ("Non-Omission" in Essentials for Further Advancement)
Master also said,
"All matter in the universe, including all substances that permeate the universe, are living beings with thinking minds, and all of them are forms of existence of the universe's Fa at different levels. They do not let you ascend. Though you want to ascend, you cannot. They just do not let you move up. Why don't they let you move up? It is because your xinxing has not improved. There are different criteria for every level. If you want to reach a higher level, you must abandon your ill thoughts and clean out your filthy things in order to assimilate to the requirements of the standard at that level. Only by doing so can you ascend." ("Lecture One" in Zhuan Falun)
I know perfectly well that I cannot bring this fear to heaven. Now is the time to get rid of this fear once and for all. After realizing that this attachment has bothered me for six months, I suddenly felt relief. I felt that the energy flow in my body became completely unobstructed. So the old forces completely failed to take advantage of my fear and persecute me by using other people. I once again validated what Master told us; that if you don't have that thought, there is nothing they can do.
I strengthened my belief in Master and Dafa. With Master's empowerment, I broke through the interference of the old forces. Looking back, who could remember that during the process, there was a so called "situation."
After I went to Beijing to defend Dafa in 2000, the authorities illegally sentenced me to one year of forced labor. During my detention I deviated from my understanding and left Dafa. After I was released, I realized my mistake and became rational. I came back to Dafa and stayed with Dafa right until today. I rely on my determination, Fa study and examining every thought and behavior of mine using Dafa. Of course, I also learned a lot from other practitioners' lessons and have matured.
I would like to express my most sincere gratitude to our great Master for his benevolent salvation.
A Chinese proverb says, "Experts see the real merit, outsiders only see the surface." Every article by Dafa practitioners has a unique intrinsic significance. I thank Minghui Weekly Journal for publishing all the good articles. I also thank my fellow practitioners for helping me. Let's walk well on the path of validating Dafa. We will show all the people how wonderful, beautiful and bright Dafa really is. We will save the people of the world.
February 27, 2006