(Clearwisdom.net) Three years ago, I clarified the truth to two cousins of mine several times, but the effect wasn’t very good. Though I was disappointed, I felt I had no cause for regret, even if they were eliminated, because I’d tried my best. Later I dreamed that I was riding a bicycle home in a heavy rain. As I passed my cousins’ home, I stopped for a while. After resting a moment I got back on the road without speaking to them. The wind and rain got stronger, and there were big puddles everywhere. I took a shortcut and got lost, and I couldn’t find my home.
At that moment I woke up. I looked inside and examined the way I had clarified the truth to my cousins. I realized that they were predestined to become my relatives in this lifetime, and the reason for this was so they could know the truth about Dafa, and be saved. They may very well have suffered a lot through history in order to become my relatives, yet I’d treated them like ordinary people when I clarified the truth to them, and I hadn’t done my best to apply a practitioner’s compassion.
Realizing this I changed my mindset, and clarified truth to them with compassion. After several more attempts they finally came to understand the complete truth, and they even expressed a desire to practice Falun Gong. After the Nine Commentaries on the Communist Party came out, they made a great effort to quit the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) and its affiliated organizations with me. I realized that we cannot have human notions while clarifying the truth, and we cannot be attached to the results of clarifying truth one or two times. We need to apply a practitioner’s compassion to look at it righteously. If we do well in the process, the end result is inevitable.
For a period of time I was attached to the lust between a husband and wife. I had one dream where a large group of people, men and women, elderly and young, were walking upstream along a river. They said there would be a big flood and they were seeking shelter. In the dream I saw clearly a walking mother carrying an infant. Upon waking I felt quite sad, because I realized I had failed to eliminate my attachment and I hadn’t practiced well, and had thus caused the sentient beings associated with me to suffer disaster and hardship. From then on I was determined to eliminate my attachment. Now I worry less about marital relations, and treat the matter lightly. It’s not that we should fear this or that attachment during cultivation; the key is finding the courage to face them. We must eliminate them, especially when we realize we have them. If we don’t , they will keep us from moving forward. Failing that, won’t we be dropping down in level?
My child experienced sickness karma on May 8th. I thought it was interference. My wife, child and I sent forth righteous thoughts together to eliminate the interference. A couple of days later, my child gradually recovered. On the night of May 12th, the sleeping child suddenly cried out in pain. We knew he was again experiencing interference. My wife called for me to send forth righteous thoughts. I didn’t get up, but immediately fell back to sleep. As I slept I entered a cold, dark dimension. There was thick ice on the ground. Many evil beings were persecuting people, including my child. I held a sword poised to vanquish them. Many righteous gods were also helping. I clearly remember that when I cut off the last evil head, its hands were still moving, trying to harm my child. I added one more cut, completely ending its life. In the dream the intensity of the scene and the Dafa practitioners’ dauntless efforts to eliminate the evils were very vivid. After I woke up, my child was no longer screaming. He had recovered.
I enlightened to a new understand of Teacher’s words:
"the evil won’t stop persecuting even right up until the very end. Even if it’s going to end tomorrow, today that evil will still do evil just the same. That’s the way things are in the cosmos before the Fa-rectification is done rectifying it. Without going through Fa-rectification it won’t become good on its own—how could it turn good without Fa-rectification? Poison is just poisonous, and if you want it to stop being poisonous it can’t do that. So when you look at it that way, we shouldn’t have any fantasies about the evil forces and those evil people who are persecuting Dafa." ("Teaching the Fa at the 2002 Fa Conference in Philadelphia, U.S.A.")
Thus even until the very end, Dafa practitioners need to do the three things well. We cannot slack off even a bit, otherwise evil will immediately interfere.
Finally, I would like to share my understanding by quoting Teacher’s recent article "Pass the Deadly Test." Teacher said,
"Dafa disciples and I will not regard students who have gone down the wrong path in their cultivation the way ordinary people would. Back when I began teaching the Fa in human society, I knew about the various states that would emerge in people's cultivation. During a human being's journey toward divinity, since it is a human being--and not a god--cultivating, he will definitely make mistakes in the process of cultivating, and there will definitely be tests that he doesn't pass well. And of course there are those who make huge mistakes. Once you have recognized your problem, the key question is whether you are determined to get rid of it. Only when you are determined to emerge from it can it be called cultivation, and that is cultivation."
Before I started to cultivate Falun Gong, I committed many bad acts, like beating people up, swearing, reporting others to management behind their backs, engaging in conflicts with others, etc. After I started practicing Falun Gong, when I remembered those things I felt very ashamed and inferior. I thought that if I managed to reach consummation, it would be so disgraceful if the other Gods looked on those things I did when I was an ordinary person, but as I studied the Fa even more deeply, I changed my mindset. Dafa can turn all unrighteousness into the most righteous. Teacher’s Fa rectifies all bad things into good! With this understanding I was able to consider those issues positively, and now I am able to deal with them. During cultivation I make mistakes; when others point them out to me, I am happy to accept them and I won’t argue with them. When we have attachments, we need to take the initiative to expose them so we can eliminate them. This way our cultivation path will be more and more smooth.
These are only my shallow understandings. Please point out anything improper.
