(Clearwisdom.net) For me, the most profound and obvious guidance from Master is that which I received in a dream.
In the year 2000, Master’s lectures from 1999 were published on the Clearwisdom website. On a holiday, I downloaded these files with a phone line, along with a fellow practitioner who was familiar with computers. (I was not familiar with the internet at that time; even now I cannot imagine how to access the Clearwisdom website with only a phone line and download files). After printing the files, I went out to a copy shop. I asked several shops to make copies for me, but only one copy shop dared to do it. It was close to midnight when I finished making copies. At that moment I didn’t have any fear, but the attachment to fear surfaced a few days later.
One day I had a dream, and in the dream I moved forward quickly sitting on something that looked like a wave board. I sat in the back while someone in the front protected me, shielding me from a storm of arrows flying at us from both sides. After waking up, I realized that Master compassionately guided me, and that I was walking forward under Master's protection.
After that, I started to learn how to operate computers and use the internet with the help of fellow practitioners. At first, I disliked computers very much. As a result, I didn’t acquire the knowledge that fellow practitioners taught me so carefully, and I wanted to give up after I had just learned a little. Later, I began to realize that this was my obstacle, so I rectified my mindset. I realized that it was my task, and maybe my cultivation path, since I was confronted with it. Furthermore, I realized that it was not just about learning something, but rather it was about cultivation.
After my "xinxing" improved it was very easy for me to learn how to operate computers. I accomplished this not because of learning it, but because Dafa truly inspired and broadened my wisdom. Once I realized my shortcoming, I had many chances to learn from fellow practitioners. During that time, fellow practitioners helped me to lay a foundation so that I could follow my own cultivation path. When I began to deal with the details of Dafa work, I didn’t know how to do it. However, I still continued doing things, even though I hadn’t seen and used those things before. At that time, I sat in front of the computer, and the printer was next to me. The computer and the printer seemed to be aware that I didn’t know anything, so they did what they should do and cooperated very well. I sat there imperturbably, and had only one simple idea, which was to make Falun Gong materials. As long as I clicked here and there, the materials were printed. When I thought about this, I realized that all of these were truly miracles, because I really hadn’t used these machines before. All of these were Dafa’s miracles.
Later, a lot of such things happened. I was able to use machines that I had never used before. When I wanted to do something, I would by chance find the right kind of software. I followed a rational line in order to do things well. At that time, when someone asked me if I was able to do it, I replied that I didn’t know. The reason for this answer was that I couldn’t reply that I was unable to do it or that I was able to do it because I had never done it before, and I had no concept.
While I sat in front of the computer, I did not think about anything, and I was able to do what I needed to. I think it was the Fa that guided me. When I was in a bad state, I would go astray. The first time I wanted to lengthen the music, I used software to do it. I had never used the software before, and without thinking I succeeded in lengthening the music simply by using this software. Having this experience for the first time, I formed human notions in my mind. Therefore, when I intended to lengthen the music the second time, I wanted to do it better. I listened carefully to the music time after time because I was not able to distinguish it and calculate the time. It took me a few hours to do it, and as a result, the music was all done wrong. I did it once more. I pasted the section after copying it without any attachments. Then I repeated the above-mentioned process, and finally I succeeded in lengthening the music. I went astray like this many times.
I realized that my cultivation path had already been arranged. When I had no attachment to pursuit, and was consistent with the Fa at my current level, I would gain naturally without pursuit, and I could do it well. Actually it is the Fa that helped me. When I wanted to do something intentionally, even if I wanted to reach a certain goal, on the contrary, I could not reach my real target. The reason was that I had added in human things - but the Fa would not allow me do such sacred things with human thoughts. By experiencing these things, I realized that during each stage of Fa-rectification, we should not weigh what Master teaches us and requires of us with human thoughts and notions. Sometimes we understand the Fa and the phenomena that appear in each stage of Fa-rectification with our human notions. It is the same as what the old forces vainly attempted when they added their own things to Fa-rectification. At the very least, we are seeking to validate ourselves; or more seriously, it is just like the old forces wanting to influence the Fa-rectification and interfere with Fa-rectification. In fact, this will not interfere with Fa-rectification, but only interfere with oneself and make one go astray. When I finally understood this, I improved myself, rectified myself and assimilated to the Fa. This is the process of cultivation.
During my illegal detention, I was asked why I wanted to cultivate. My reply was that I wanted to cure my diseases and keep fit. In addition, I wanted to become a good person. When I was asked again why I wanted to cultivate, the fellow practitioner in front of me didn’t answer directly because he worried about the evil’s intrigues. When I was asked the same question, I recalled these words in Zhuan Falun:
"For anybody here, only if you can follow the universe’s nature, to be True, Good, and Endure, only then you can call yourself a good person. And a person who goes against this nature, now that’s somebody who’s truly bad. Maybe when you’re at work or out and about, someone will say that you’re bad. But maybe you aren’t really bad. Or maybe someone says that you’re good. But, turns out, maybe you aren’t really good. And for a cultivator, if you assimilate to this nature you’re someone who has attained the Dao. The truth is really just that simple." ("The First Talk" from Zhuan Falun, 2003 translation version)
Therefore, I calmly replied that my purpose for cultivation was to assimilate to the nature of the universe, Truthfulness, Compassion, Tolerance. At this moment, I knew that I had truly answered the question why I wanted to cultivate. When I said these words I truly felt I was a person who had attained the Fa.
Many times, I realized that Dafa creates everything and guided me to learn Falun Gong. It led me to a group practice and it guides me all the time. Moreover, Dafa creates everything for me and manifests supernormal results in the human world. But I sometimes forgot the Fa when I displayed the attachment to showing off. I envied fellow practitioners when working with them, and I did not harmonize the environment with righteous thoughts. I didn’t use righteous thoughts to strengthen the process when we produced Falun Gong materials. I intended to protect myself when clarifying the truth. As Master said,
"It’s just that people have been engrossed with the conflicts and clashes that have been acted out in the details of the play, and have forgotten the play’s main theme and the purpose of life." (Touring North America to Teach the Fa, 2002)
Attachment surface from time to time, and I can be easily affected by sentiment and false phenomena. Sometimes I forget my purpose of assimilating to the Fa and saving sentient beings.
During this period, I was much despaired, but couldn’t find a reason. I asked Master for help because I wanted to change this state. I had the attachment to pursuit, and intended to take shortcuts in order to pass this test. At the same time, I wanted to get Master’s pardon for not being diligent. One day, a fellow practitioner wanted to share her understanding with me. At first, I listened to her, but I thought that she was showing off. Little by little, I realized that this was the answer I was looking for. I should study the Fa with a tranquil mind, and stay calm at all times. I can’t help but cry, thanking Master, and thanking my fellow practitioners. I hadn’t studied the Fa with a calm mind for a long while. In addition, I had lost the feeling of deeply melting into the Fa. I realized that I had always treated daily Fa study and exercise as rituals and formalities, and wasted time by pursuing comfort. Now I realize that I am too attached to my "self," and I care too much about whether I behave well or not. As a result, I could not use righteous thoughts to eliminate the problem of slacking off, which was caused by not eliminating my attachments.
Master said,
"Actually, if you think about it, the cultivators of the past didn't dare to slack off for even a second, and that was when it took an entire lifetime to complete the journey. So how can Dafa disciples-who are to achieve the Attainment Status of a being who is saved by Dafa and who have the most convenient cultivation way-not be even more diligent when they are given this most glorious honor of Fa-validating cultivation in a brief cultivation period that passes in the blink of an eye? You already know that the form of a Dafa disciple's cultivation has one cultivate here, in the world, among ordinary people, and that the cultivation directly targets one's mind. All human attachments and notions that interfere with validating the Fa and saving sentient beings must be removed. For cultivators traveling a divine path, is it really that hard to get rid of those attachments that arise from human thinking and to change those notions? If a cultivator doesn't want to get rid of even those things, well, how is he to show that he's a cultivator? Of course, most disciples who are in this state are that way because, at the beginning, they didn't realize that they had subtle attachments or were being interfered with by their own notions, and so the evil has exploited this gap and magnified those factors. I know that after you become clear on this you will quickly catch up, but you should take fewer detours on this most magnificent, divine path; not leave reason for regret in your futures; and not fall so far behind in terms of levels. That is my hope, your hope, and the hope of the beings who are counting on you." ("The Closer to the End, the More Diligent You Should Be")
Master's article "The Closer to the End, the More Diligent You Should Be" has now been published for eight months. I used to think that these words were aimed at other practitioners. Now I feel that these words are aimed at me.
A fellow practitioner has explained to me how important it is to produce Falun Gong materials. Now I realize my status—Dafa disciple, and I am a glorious Dafa disciple who participates in the important Dafa work. Therefore I should be even more diligent, and strengthen our work, and make things even more stable.
