(Clearwisdom.net) After the persecution began, many practitioners in my county were illegally imprisoned, including those who knew how to make truth-clarifying materials. Those of us who were not arrested had to go out of town to get Teacher's articles and weekly publications from the Minghui website (Chinese version of Clearwisdom.net). I thought that it would be great if I knew how to make them. After I had that thought, Teacher helped me. My husband talked to me about wanting to buy a computer. I agreed because I knew I could use it for Dafa work.
We bought the computer in 2004. I knew nothing about computers, and neither did the rest of the practitioners in the county. My husband and son didn't want to teach me, because I was imprisoned twice for going to Beijing to appeal for justice for Falun Dafa. The police searched my house and caused my family a lot of trouble.
I told myself that I definitely could do it, because I was a practitioner. I put a VCD into the burner and followed the instructions on the computer. I copied several VCDs, and they all worked. I was very excited to see those VCDs that I had copied. I realized that this was the wisdom Teacher gave me, because I had that righteous wish. I knew that I should not get overly excited and must do the work step by step. After a little more practice, I got better at using the computer and the VCD burner.
I started to learn how to type and use simple commands in MS Word. I found software called Dynapass, which could be used to break the Internet blockade. I tried to install it onto the computer, thinking that it might lead me to the Minghui website. I tried a few times and eventually I got to the Minghui website! I was so happy. All of Teacher's articles, weekly news and journals were now available to me. I soon learned by trial and error how to post the list of people who quit the Chinese Communist Party.
Later, I printed out Teacher's articles and the weekly news publications. There were not many practitioners in the county, and there wasn't a great deal of demand for the materials. Printing truth-clarifying materials was a problem for me, because it was expensive to copy the materials in a printing store. Later, a practitioner and I bought a printer/copier/scanner multi-function device and solved this problem.
I was in charge of getting on-line, printing and copying materials. The solutions to problems that I encountered always came to mind out of nowhere, while I was just walking or meditating, and I knew it was Teacher giving me wisdom.
My attachment of achieving a certain goal arose, and the old forces exploited it. The city's National Security Bureau learned what I was doing in 2005. The county police came and confiscated the computer. Several other practitioners lost their computers, as well. We retrieved our computers ten days later with every practitioner's righteous thoughts. My family was against my doing Dafa work even more after this incident. I lost my Internet connection in October due to various reasons. I calmly studied the Fa for a period of time, and I found my attachment. I couldn't let go of my Dafa work and I didn't let other practitioners participate. I wanted all the mighty virtue for myself--what a selfish mindset that was. Practitioners are one body and should improve as a whole. I couldn't continue caring about only myself and keeping everything to myself.
I saw where I was lacking through experience-sharing with practitioners from out of town and reading articles on Minghui. I can't stay satisfied where I am at while Fa-rectification moves forward. I no longer have to be confined to my home computer, since I know basic computer skills and can use computers anywhere with software provided by the Minghui and Yuming websites. Globalpass and Dynapass make downloading easy. Now I can make truth-clarifying materials again. I learned from my previous lesson. I handed the task of printing to another practitioner to ensure my time to study the Fa and do the exercises.
I have taken wrong turns and stumbled many times during the past few years of Fa-rectification. My attachments were exposed and I have failed to pass many tests, much to my chagrin. Teacher didn't give up on me, but instead continued to enlighten and protect me. I felt Teacher's immense compassion and the hardship he's been through to save sentient beings. Practitioners will mature and cultivate well using the wisdom from Dafa. We will do better at clarifying the truth to help save sentient beings and fulfill our historical vows to help Teacher rectify the Fa.
This is my first time writing to Minghui. Some practitioners don't want to write because they didn't do well. I think those practitioners should do so, because the lessons they learned can help others.
