(Clearwisdom.net) I wish to become a more diligent Dafa practitioner, yet I believe I am always lacking initiative, and therefore I am constantly depressed. Every time I'm in a dilemma, I feel the protection that Master provides and it makes me feel guilty. If I were to write a book on the kindness Master has shown me, it would be a very thick book indeed. It's a pity that no matter how much I've wanted to write such a book, I was never able to get started. However, after the occurrence of a huge fire, I have no choice but to put pen to paper.
It was the twelfth month of the lunar year, 2006. I was with guests at home when my granddaughter ran to me out of breath. She was shouting for me to put out a fire outside which was approaching and about to consume her room. I ran to look and saw a huge fire coming from a northerly direction. Everything was smothered in smoke and I left the guests in haste, while I hurried outside to put out the fire.
The rooms of my two sons were constructed from clay which leans on a hill. My wife and I do not live with them. We live half a mile away. When I arrived, my granddaughters and daughter-in-law were moving their furniture outside, fearing for the worst possible scenario. (One of my daughters-in-law and my two sons were not there).
Although there was a ferocious fire and harsh winds, my heart remained calm as I mouthed: "Falun Dafa is good," and went to put out the fire. Because the nearby forest was vast, the fire was very strong and there was a lot of flammable debris. The fire was severely burning my face, and it was impossible to get close enough to the fire to suppress it. I begged Master to blow southerly winds, as I wouldn't be able to put out the fire otherwise, "Please protect me Master." After repeating these thoughts, the northerly winds started to diminish and eventually stopped. Then the southerly winds began to blow.
My friends and family dropped their furniture and hurried to the back of the house to thank the divine beings for letting the winds turn south. I told them that I requested the southerly winds from Mr. Li Hongzhi, my Master. Upon hearing this, my friends doubted the explanation and the northerly winds started to pick up again. My friends were astonished. Only my family and I were grateful for Master's help.
The illnesses my wife and I had were taken away by Master after a few months of practicing Dafa. During the past few years, under the pressure of persecution by the CCP, my wife and I have never given up cultivation. My neighbors admire our health and they know we practice Falun Dafa. When reading the book Zhuan Falun, I understand everything, but without it I understand nothing. When I'm feeling upset, I cannot possibly follow the principles of Truthfulness-Compassion-Tolerance. If it wasn't for Master's help, I wouldn't have been able to put out today's fire by myself. At the same time, I must find the flaws in my cultivation, and I must look within myself and try to have more initiative.
When comparing my cultivation with other practitioners' experiences that I read about on the Minghui website, I can see that they have all followed the three principles well. I however, often miss a great opportunity when people point out my mistakes, and I have nothing to say back. I feel very guilty about it. Time is more precious than gold! From this point on, I will strictly follow the words of my Master and his instructions. I will never again feel depression and regret. I will let go of human desire and I will motivate myself.
I don't know how to write and I haven't expressed my meaning too well. Please point out any mistakes and guide me compassionately.