(Clearwisdom.net) I began practicing Falun Gong in 2003. I know that Master Li carefully arranged for me to practice Falun Gong. I would like to share my experiences.
The Chinese Communist Party (CCP) taught me atheism since I was very young, so I did not believe anything about Buddhas and gods before I began practicing Falun Gong. Now I have recalled some of my past experiences. When I was six or seven, I often heard sounds that I knew weren't from this dimension. I asked the other children whether they heard what I did, but they never did. At that time, I thought to myself, "Is there an another space in the universe?"
When I was nine, I had two dreams about when I lived with my eldest aunt when I was three. In the first dream, I played with my younger brother at the riverbank. We caught crabs and fish and were very happy until my aunt stopped us. In the second dream, I played with my neighbors in the mountain and got lost. Someone found me and took me home. When I asked my mother about it, she told me that my dreams were similar to her memories. No one had ever told me about the things that I saw in my dreams. My dreams were so vivid that they were like films. After I began to practice Falun Gong, I understood that my main consciousness went into a dimension in my past. My main consciousness also entered dimensions in my future several times.
When I was little and read books for a long time, I felt my head and body grow bigger and bigger. Meanwhile, it seemed I was very small and was spinning in this dimension. I felt I could communicate with objects before I was 10. Later on, these feelings vanished.
I had felt my main consciousness leaving my body twice before I began to practice Falun Gong. The first time was when I was playing on a swing when I was 15. I fell off the swing and hit my head on the ground and lost consciousness. It felt like I flew into the sky and talked with strange spirits. Afterwards, I was awakened by someone shouting. After I began to practice Falun Gong, I understood that my main consciousness had left my body at that time.
The second time it happened I was 27. I looked down when I was washing my hands. Suddenly, I felt my spirit leave through my head. I saw the back of my head and felt like I was seeing a stranger in a mirror.
After I had been practicing for a short while, I clearly knew my main consciousness was leaving my body when I was awake. One day when I had very spicy food, my main consciousness left me but stayed above the back of my head. I realized many spirits in and around my body couldn't stand spicy or strongly flavored food. As my practice continued, the frequency of it leaving my body increased.
When I was 13, I often suffered from stomachaches, fatigue, and nightmares. I felt I was sinking and somewhere there was a black substance that seemed like a ghost.
At times, when I met someone, I could know the person's feelings and thoughts instantly. I could feel a close friend's sudden emotional change. I have to say these experiences were not comfortable. Fortunately I didn't experience them very often.
I like lotus flowers very much. I tried to add the words "lily" or "lotus" to my Chinese name when I was little. I liked purple and yellow best. Maybe those feelings are from my previous encounters with Buddha.
I preferred to study strange things from the time I was young. I thought that human beings did not know much about the universe. The CCP taught me atheism from my childhood, so I did not care for those supernormal things that happened to me. I did not believe in Buddhas and gods because I thought they were illusions and superstitions that came from ancient times when there was no science.
As I grew older, I thought that China was in a non-faith age, and today it is that way. Not only do Chinese people no longer believe in Buddhas and gods, they even laugh at communism, too. Before I started practicing Dafa, chasing fame and gain was just a way of staying alive for me, too. I had lost my way. I felt very wretched deep inside my heart, wanting to know the answers to life, but none were to be found. So I worked day and night for my business. I often considered that my life would be hopeless in the future. Subconsciously I was always looking for something. I would even ask myself, "Why do people live," "what is the purpose of life?" But since I did not know the answers, I would just stick to my way of doing things and continue living for money.
In 1996, my parents began practicing Falun Gong. My mother suffered from different kinds of diseases such as arthritis, nephritis, diabetes, and other illnesses. Falun Gong turned my mother into a happy, healthy. and energetic person. I saw miracles happen to my father as well. The left side of my father's face and his left ear became severely swollen one time. My father did not take medicine or injections. Several days later, this illness was cured. This happened about a dozen times!
I never saw my parents take any medicine after they began to practice Falun Gong. Even so, I was a firm atheist. I considered what happened to my parents to be natural bodily reactions and that practicing Falun Gong had a certain effect on healing illnesses.
After the persecution of Falun Gong began on July 20,1999, especially after the "Self-Immolation" incident, my attitude towards Falun Gong changed. At first I thought it was the CCP's lies and political games again, then I began to fear that my parents would be harmed by the CCP. Afterwards, numerous newspapers repeatedly reported the cases of "Self-Immolation" and "Psychotic Killer" on television. I got scared and worried that someday my mother would kill me. Although I had witnessed the miracles of Falun Gong healing my parents, I was still afraid and gradually was frightened by Falun Gong and disliked it.
In this environment, my parents firmly studied the Fa, did the exercises, and clarified the truth about Falun Gong. My mother was never afraid. I admire my parents very much. My parents had clarified the facts to me, but I refused to listen.
Eight years later, in September 2003, I took it upon myself to read Zhuan Falun. In it I found the values I had always believed in: " Truthfulness, Compassion, Forbearance."
As I read Zhuan Falun, there were strong reactions in my body. I had heart, stomach, and tooth problems. As I read, I felt my heart stop occasionally and I wanted to vomit. I knew that Master Li was doing something for me. When I read about the "Third Eye," forehead became tight with the flesh gathering and drilling inward. Later, my mother taught me the fifth exercise. I sat in the lotus posture for half hour. In the process, I smelled something familiar from my childhood.
At night, I clearly dreamed several dreams about arguing with my coworkers. I remembered the dreams after I got up and I couldn't stop the anger in my heart. Later I saw the Chinese character "Forbearance" in the corner of my left eye. This word has the character for "heart" on the top and "knife" underneath the heart! This word pulsed with a golden glow. No matter if I shut my eyes or I slept, I could still see this word. My mother told me that it was Master Li telling me to forbear something. Five days later, the word vanished. I do not believe in atheism anymore. I no longer consider things like this to be illusions. I have come to really understand how miraculous Falun Dafa is and also recognize that there are simply a lot of things we don't understand in the universe. I no longer believe in the CCP's lies.
I now know the greatness of Falun Dafa and that this is the way to return to my true self.
I wrote down these experience to share with those who have not started the practice.