(Clearwisdom.net)
I have worked as a police officer for over 20 years. I was fortunate to have been introduced to Dafa in 1996. On July 20, 1999, the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) started to persecute Falun Gong. Because of my profession, my superiors, family, and friends tried their best to prevent me from cultivating. They strengthened my attachments by appealing to my devotion to my work and family. Due to my selfishness, I gave up cultivation for eight years.
In the middle of July 2007, I found a big lump on the right side of my neck. It was difficult to get a diagnosis even after going to several different hospitals. It was finally diagnosed as a thyroid tumor, for which doctors suggested an operation. I did not follow their suggestion because my elderly father was hospitalized at the time and was in need of care.
One evening in early August, when I was about to get off a bus, I suddenly sensed a great pain in the back of my head, as if someone was striking my head. I got off the bus, and it felt like the left half of my body was paralyzed. My head was very hot, and I found it more and more difficult to move. Although I was stunned at what was happening to me, I remembered Teacher and said in my mind, "Falun Dafa is good. Teacher will let me go home. I will get home." The symptoms did not get any worse. Half paralyzed and with my legs barely able to support me, I finally arrived at my home, which was on the fifth floor.
Lying in bed, I thought for a few minutes and decided to go to the hospital. I thought that I was no longer a cultivator after eight years, since I did not study the Fa or do the exercises. In the hospital I was diagnosed with a stroke and a tumor in my brain. After two weeks of treatment, the paralysis on the left half of my body was gone, but my headaches and dizziness did not improve.
During my stay in the hospital, I went home once to get some clothes. I took this opportunity to do the Falun Gong meditation exercise for 30 minutes. I felt really good and had no pain or dizziness. I told this to my husband, and he said that I should do it privately.
After two weeks of transfusions, the headaches and dizziness still remained. The doctors said I could take the medicine at home, but that it might take over three months to recover. After I got home, I went to a hospital that specialized in treating tumors. After the examination it was determined that the lump on the right side of my neck was a symptom of lymphatic tuberculosis, and I was told to go immediately to an infectious disease hospital.
At the doctor's words, I remained calm. I had been thinking about why I had so many life-threatening symptoms. Why did I remember Teacher and Dafa when the symptoms appeared? Why was there such a big difference between before and after when I did the meditation exercise? None of these things happened by accident. I suddenly remembered that there was a copy of Teacher's Fa lecture "Teaching the Fa at the U.S. Capital" on my milk box. I found it immediately and started to read it. After I read it through, I was in tears. Teacher said:
"As Dafa disciples, you need to validate the Fa and do what Dafa disciples are supposed to do. You can't take such a long time to change yourself. There's no time for that. This is especially relevant for those students who didn't do well in China and who made mistakes. Fa-rectification isn't over yet, so be quick to catch up. "
I came to understand that our compassionate Teacher had made use of my disease karma to wake me up. I failed to understand this when the first symptoms appeared and remained unaware. After that came the more serious ones, like the stroke and the brain tumor. The disease karma finally got my attention. That day, if I had not thought of Teacher and Dafa, I could have fallen over and never stood up again. Our compassionate Teacher had saved me and awakened me with a heavy blow. Although I have not practiced cultivation for eight years, Teacher never gave up on me. I came to understand that I was a cultivator, who has a predestined relationship with Teacher to return home with him. I was placed in this human world to help Teacher in Fa rectification and save sentient beings, not to enjoy the comforts of everyday people. I must let go of my attachments to fame, gain, and qing.
On September 4, 2007, I went to the home of a relative who practices Falun Gong and told him that I would cultivate and asked him for help. He told me to study the Fa, do the exercises, and do well the three things Teacher asked us to do. That day I felt really relaxed, and all my symptoms were gone. After I came home, I decided to cultivate and give up the medicine.
Right after I started to study the Fa, I ran into a fellow practitioner that I had not seen for many years at a vegetable market. Our compassionate Teacher had arranged our meeting. I told her that I was cultivating Falun Gong. Several days later, this practitioner sent me all the Fa lectures after 2000 and gave me truth clarification materials. I studied the Fa diligently. In the meantime, I tried to do the three things well, including truth clarification and sending forth righteous thoughts.
I now study the Fa, participate in the group exercises, send forth righteous thoughts, and ask people everyday to quit the CCP and its affiliated organizations. Recently, I started to study the Fa with fellow practitioners and send forth righteous thoughts. I can sense my improvement everyday. All that I lost in the past is now being recovered. I am taking fame, personal interest, and qing lightly, and I am giving up my attachments. I have successfully passed many xinxing tests very well.
In four months I underwent great changes. Compassionate Teacher picked me up from hell, awakened me with a heavy blow, and led me to find my way home. Whenever I ask people to quit the CCP and its affiliated organizations, I always recite Teacher's poems in Hong Yin and feel no fear with Teacher and Dafa at my side. The old forces have no way to take advantage of me now that my mind is filled with the Fa.
I think there are still fellow practitioners who are in a deep sleep like I was before. Wake up, stand up, and go out to validate the Fa and save sentient beings! Be quick to catch up. Teacher is waiting for us to go home.
