(Clearwisdom.net) I began Falun Dafa study in March 1998 and have walked on the Fa rectification path until today, under Teacher's kind protection. I would like to share my experiences of believing in Teacher and Dafa and having righteous thoughts and righteous conduct during the Chinese Communist Party's (CCP) seven years of persecution. Teacher told us that as Fa rectification period Dafa disciples we should not only cultivate ourselves but also be responsible for clarifying the truth and rescuing people.
When initially distributing a few Dafa flyers I chose to get up early and distribute the flyers at 3:00 or 4:00 a.m. One day I left some flyers at a street-front shop and heard someone yelling from a distance. I was scared and my heart was beating fast. I rushed back home. My heart rate was still pounding, so I started memorizing Teacher's new article "True Cultivation" and gradually calmed down.
Since Teacher asked us to send forth righteous thoughts, whenever I validated the Fa I sent forth righteous thoughts first to eliminate evils from other dimensions. I distributed the truth clarification materials, along with sending forth righteous thoughts. As I handed a person a flyer I though that Dafa was saving someone's life. Once a flyer was handed to one person, it would pass on to ten people, and the ten would pass the information to one hundred people, so that people with predestined relationships would have an opportunity to know Dafa and to begin their new life from the Fa.
I never missed any opportunity to rescue people and clarify the truth. My husband worked at a private company. I frequently had to go his workplace to pick up his paychecks. I thought that was a good opportunity. I took CDs, flyers and Dafa cards with me and distributed them to his co-workers. Some people said to me, "You are so brave. Aren't you afraid of police? Aren't you afraid that someone may report this to police?" I replied while sending forth righteous thoughts, "I am doing this for your own benefit. I want you to have a good future. Don't listen to those lies from the television!" They were glad to accept the Dafa materials.
I also distributed flyers in a residential building while I asked for Teacher's support so that no one would leave or come back and I could complete the task quickly. I knew that Teacher was doing it all, and I just contributed a little help.
I had always been a timid person. I was not too fearful prior to reading the "Minghui Weekly," but after reading the persecution articles I got panicky and thought that something might happen to me, thus I began to be afraid of being persecuted. Whenever this kind of thought appeared I studied the Fa more, sent forth righteous thoughts and memorized Teacher's article "Don't Be Afraid!" Teacher once pointed something out to me in a dream: I dreamed of riding a lion king and also having a leopard running behind me. I awoke and understood that Teacher asked me not to be afraid, to be as brave as the lion king and the leopard, and to ascend. After studying the Fa and reading Minghui/Clearwisdom website articles, I realized that I should not fear evil, but that it should be the evil that is afraid!
During Fa study I came to the realization that no matter how much interference, destruction, and rumor from the evil persecution, each true cultivator should firmly believe--hundreds of millions times more--in Teacher and the Fa, and unconditionally assimilate into Dafa.
I also realized that I need to study the Fa more, not let my head get empty, and send forth righteous thoughts to eliminate wickedness at all times. Every day before going to bed I would think of 24 hours non-stop eliminating the old forces' arrangements. Whenever I hear that other practitioners are persecuted or the evildoers are planning some action against practitioners, my first thought is to disregard it and eradicate it, and to not let the old forces persecute practitioners. Due to an initial lack of understanding of the Fa, I thought that sending forth righteous thoughts was only used against the persecution. Later I studied the Fa with a tranquil mind. Teacher told us,
"Of course, we don't acknowledge any of the things that the old forces arranged--I as your master don't acknowledge them, and Dafa disciples of course don't acknowledge them either."
"We negate even the very emergence of the old forces and everything that they've arranged; we don't even acknowledge their existence. We're fundamentally negating all of their things, and all of, and only, the things you do while negating and getting rid of them is mighty-virtue. It's not that you're cultivating amidst the ordeals they created. Rather, you are to walk your own path well while not acknowledging them, not even acknowledging the elimination of their ordeals' manifestations. (Applause) So looking at it from this angle, what we need to do is completely negate the old forces. Dafa disciples and I don't even acknowledge the manifestations of their last-ditch efforts." ("Teaching the Fa at the 2004 Chicago Conference")
Because we have Teacher and the Fa, we don't permit any old forces' tests. We only go along the righteous path Teacher has arranged.
I sometimes did something wrong in the past. When I exchanged cultivation experiences with fellow practitioners and saw their problems, I would complain. My tone was harsh, so that it was hard for them to accept. Later I regretted what I had done and asked myself why I had done such a thing without patience and compassion, even after practicing Dafa for so many years. I constantly studied the Fa and somewhat understood the Fa. Why could I not do things right? Looking within myself I found that, first of all, I prefer to hear a good thing [about myself] rather than bad stuff. Secondly, I was self-centered, sometimes selfish, and did not have a gracious mindset. I began to realize that the old forces had made us not respect each other so that we kept a distance and could not work and improve together. Therefore I studied the Fa more, sent forth righteous thoughts, and asked Teacher for more power to eliminate all the factors that fall short of Dafa's standards. After I did that, at group study the other practitioners and I had new understandings of the Fa and improved together.
With Teacher's gracious protection I have walked smoothly along the path of Fa rectification all these years. I will do better, play a Dafa practitioner's role in the Fa rectification period, and go home with Teacher.
