(Clearwisdom.net) When I began writing this experience-sharing article, I felt very sorry. I had a strange feeling and could not calm down. Under the immense persecution, I was influenced by my family members. Led by my human notions, I took a detour. Thinking about these things makes me feel painful and guilty. I have let down Teacher's compassionate salvation and did not meet the requirements of the Fa.
While I was without the Fa, it was as if I was without a soul. During those days when I drifted away from the Fa, it seemed that my entire life was miserable and that there was no way out. Under such intense anxiety, I received Teacher's new articles in August 2003, and with Teacher's great compassion and help from fellow practitioners. I knew Teacher had saved me again and I was very happy. I am very grateful to Teacher for giving me a second life. Since then I again walk the path towards consummation.
I am an elderly person who began practicing in 1997. I became a different person after I began to practice Falun Dafa; not only in my mind, but also my life changed. I have had a very happy life ever since. When I read the Fa, I read it again and again, unwilling to put it down. In Zhuan Falun, Teacher said, "Once they learn our Falun Dafa, they will understand at once many questions in life that they have wished to understand but could not answer." I suddenly understood the purpose of life. I was very diligent. Through studying the Fa and reciting the Fa, I came to know many Dafa principles. I knew we are not here to be ordinary people, but to return to our origin.
Teacher has suffered for us tremendously and put out enormous effort to save us. In Essentials for Further Advancement II, Teacher said,
"......in the several years of your cultivation, I have not only borne an incredibly great deal for you, but also, along with this, constantly given you hints for your improvement, looked after you for your safety, and settled the debts that you owed at different levels so that you can reach Consummation......"
Thinking about these words, as genuine practitioners, how can we not be diligent? We have the very precious opportunity to cultivate. Were we not diligent, how could we live up to Teacher's salvation of us?
In Zhuan Falun, Teacher said, "......the entire cultivation process for a practitioner is one of constantly giving up human attachments." Here I would like to share my experience after returning to practice. Since my education is limited, please correct any mistakes.
I remember in 2004, both my ears started to itch. Later some fluid began coming out, and the skin inside the ear peeled off. The fluid constantly seeped out, and my ear was always itchy. It became worse when I tried to do the exercises. I was disturbed and could not calm down. I said to myself, "I am a Dafa disciple, not an everyday person. Cultivation is to improve amidst hardships. I should consider the Fa as teacher, and nothing can disturb me no matter what happens. I have understood some Fa principles, and I cannot make mistakes again and again. The predestined relationship will not repeat, and I cannot live without the Fa. Anyone who wants to practice cannot be afraid of enduring hardship, since it allows us to improve."
I went on studying the Fa, reciting the Fa, and sending forth righteous thoughts. Teacher's Fa was deep in my heart and guided me to maturity. As long as we have faith in Teacher and the Fa, there are no barriers that can stop us. In "To the Chicago Fa Conference", Teacher said,
"Whatever you experience during your cultivation--whether good or bad--is good, for it comes about only because you are cultivating. A cultivator cannot achieve Consummation when laden with human thoughts, laden with karmic debts, or laden with attachments."
Teacher's Fa guided me to walk though this tribulation. I am very grateful to Teacher and Dafa.
One day in September 2006, suddenly my left leg--together with the ischial nerve--could not move. I could not walk. Even getting out of the bed, I had to be very slow with the help of a cane. When going to the bathroom, I could not squat down. I had no choice but to drink less and eat less. In my mind, I considered myself a Dafa disciple, not an everyday person. I would let go of any attachments, and not cause any negative consequences to Dafa. I strengthened sending forth righteous thoughts, and considered the Fa as Teacher to void any interference. In this way, I also walked through this tribulation.
The third tribulation was in November 2006. One day, I had an unbearable symptom like hemorrhoids. I was not afraid of it. I knew that, rather than simply eliminating karma, rotten demons taking advantages of my omissions. However, I did not know where I had omissions, so I went on studying the Fa more, sharing with fellow practitioners and sending forth righteous thoughts. In Lectures in the United States, Teacher said,
"When people suffer from sickness, their karma is really being eliminated. You get well after it's eliminated. Oftentimes, a person gets a serious sickness, and after a while, when you've recovered, you'll find your face glowing with radiance and everything you do will go smoothly. That's because after your karma is eliminated it's transformed into blessings--virtue. Because you've suffered, whatever you do will usually go smoothly and can be accomplished easily. People can't see this, so they think it's bad to undergo even a little hardship. Actually, what's so scary about hardship?! Even if you have a little hardship, if you steel your will and withstand it, you'll find afterwards that everything you do will proceed differently. I'd say it's nothing more than just hardships that humans have to endure when they practice cultivation. If you're able to let go of [the fear of hardship] you're sure to reach Consummation. Speaking from a higher perspective, if you're able to let go of the thought of life and death, you are truly a God!"
Teacher's Fa has guided me to break through barriers one after another. Throughout these tribulations, Teacher's caring, and profound Fa principles enlightened me, so that I was able to change from an everyday person to a cultivator, and become more and more mature. In Teaching the Fa at the Conference in Switzerland, Teacher said,
"You will obtain everything so long as you cultivate. But do you know how many things of mine are incorporated into what you obtain?"
I cannot make mistakes again and again, and I cannot live without the Fa. Teacher has done so much for us, and the only way to return is to have firm faith in Teacher and Dafa.
Category: Improving Oneself
