(Clearwisdom.net) I remember a practitioner once saying, "As cultivators, we are very good truth clarification materials ourselves." I truly feel that this is indeed so.
Since July 20, 1999, when the persecution began, the Chinese Communist Party's (CCP) lies, fabrications, slander, and persecution have forced many practitioners to leave home to avoid arrest and to lose their jobs. Many people where I worked became terrified of Falun Gong and did not dare to talk about it or even dare to talk to me. They shunned me and stayed away from me. However, I maintained a compassionate heart and tried my best to communicate with them, little by little clarifying the truth and inserting small booklets and flyers into their toolboxes. Slowly they began to understand the real situation and changed their attitudes. Many of them also quit the CCP.
Once, I did not maintain my self control and started to have problems with someone at work. Before, he used to like reading the truth-clarification booklets and flyers, but as soon as I flared up at him, he changed his attitude. I once took a milk order form to his office to show to someone, but he thought that it was a flyer and wanted to tear it up. When he saw that it was only a milk order, he stopped. Even then, I got angry at him. I cannot let my own faults lead to his bad impression of Dafa.
I later told him with tears in my eyes, "I'm sorry. I was in a very bad temper that day and hurt your feelings. My Teacher asks us to be compassionate in all we do, to be truthful, compassionate and tolerant. I was not able to do this. Please forgive me." He said, "No, it's okay. I don't have such an even temper either." Immediately, he reached out towards me, surprising me. "Do you have any Falun Gong flyers?" he asked. I quickly took one out from my pocket and gave it to him with tears brimming in my eyes. From then on we became very good friends. I gave him truth-clarification flyers regularly and he constantly reminded me to help him and his entire family quit the CCP.
Due to work requirements I was transferred to another job site. The supervisor there made me learn as an apprentice from a senior worker. However, when the person I was apprenticed to saw me (I had by then become known where I worked for being a Falun Gong practitioner), she turned her head and left unhappily. I was not moved because I understood her situation--she did not know the truth about Falun Gong. I began working very hard at my new job and was very considerate of her. Slowly, we began to understand each other and grew to become very good friends. She also was willing to read truth-clarification flyers and quit the CCP. There were others at work that I did not know, and she helped me to convince several of them to quit the CCP and told others, "Falun Dafa is good." Many people received good rewards including her. She is filled with gratitude towards Teacher, just like everyone who knows the truth--they all deeply respect Teacher.
There are still many things to write, but I feel that I lag very far behind in terms of being diligent in doing the Three Things. My attachment to fear has made me lose a lot of opportunities to save sentient beings. From now on I will definitely study the Fa well to truly walk well on the cultivation path arranged by Master, fulfill my prehistoric vow, and save even more sentient beings.
