(Clearwisdom.net) We all know that Fa-study is very important. I believe that doing well in Fa-study is the most fundamental part of cultivation.
I have not done very well in my daily cultivation. I thought I was paying enough attention to Fa-study, but my improvement has been slow. Why is this? Recently I realized that I was not studying the Fa well. In fact, I wasn't truly studying the Fa much at all. The following are some manifestations:
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When studying the Fa, my purpose was merely getting through it. As a result, I was focusing primarily on finishing the reading, and I couldn't calm down.
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Sometimes I was able to study two or three lectures in one day, but only several pages on the following day. Therefore, I read less then one lecture per day, on the average, and still wasn't calm while studying the Fa.
I realized that my mindset wasn't right. I just focused on reading more, hoping to cultivate higher in this way. When hearing that fellow practitioners were studying one lecture per day, I thought that was not enough and they were not as good as me. Every time I opened Zhuan Falun, I wanted to study two or three lectures. But being in such a rush and with my impure thoughts, can I study the Fa well? Very often after reading several pages, I felt that I couldn't read any more, but after putting the book down, I still kept reminding myself that I needed to study the Fa more. Nonetheless, I preferred to spend lots of time visiting everyday people's websites. When it was time for Fa study and doing Dafa work, I felt less interested, and my mind became troubled.
After seeing this issue in myself, I decided not to rush my reading, but instead ensured that I read one lecture per day. After doing this for two weeks, I re-discovered the wonderfulness of cultivation.
Without the pressure of finishing two or three lectures, I was able to calm down and study the Fa solidly. Also, since I promised to read one lecture per day, I had to follow through, and I didn't go to bed until I finished reading the lecture. In this way, I found I was able to study even more than in the past.
As a result, I learned to cultivate by looking within and letting go of human notions. I am also able to do more Dafa work. In everyday life, I am more rational and confident, and have more wisdom to validate the Fa. When sending forth righteous thoughts, I also came to understand that what we are doing is eliminating those bad elements that affect us.
The above is my recent cultivation experience. Please point out anything improper.
