(Clearwisdom.net)
After watching Master's video lecture Fa-Teaching Given to the Australian Practitioners, I realized that I still have many attachments--the need to complain, my fear of criticism, and selfishness. I saw I was far from Dafa's requirements. From now on, I will study the Fa more, seek within, and raise my xinxing (character). I will diligently work hard to do the three things well with my fellow disciples. I will save even more sentient beings and be worthy of Master's salvation. I would like to tell you about some of my amazing experiences.
1. Chief of Medicine and Doctors Witness a Miracle of Dafa
For a long time I was on medication for a number of illnesses. Due to taking medication for so long, I developed osteoporosis and had a low white blood cell count. I had anemia and serious rheumatism. I had broken many bones and was paralyzed and bedridden. Because my femur developed necrosis, I had to have three steel pins inserted in it. I couldn't walk without crutches and the pain was impossible to endure. I couldn't even take care of myself. During this most difficult period, I was fortunate to learn Falun Dafa. I decided to get the steel pins taken out so I could practice the exercises. After examining me, however, the Chief of Medicine told me that the pins could not be taken out because the femur was flat. I would be paralyzed if they did. He told me to wait and see, but the chances were slim.
After I got home I thought to myself, "I cannot live my life [like this] on crutches. I have to fight for myself." Everyone said that Falun Dafa was great, so I decided to try it out. Because I had been indoctrinated with the evil Communist Party culture since I was a child, I didn't believe in anything. With the attitude of "trying it out" I studied the Fa. With Master's photo in front of me, I begged Master to help me get into the lotus position. Master helped me, and with great difficulty I put my legs into the lotus position. When I did, at first there was no pain. Five minutes later, the pain started. The pins in my bones dug inward. Holding [the lotus position] for ten minutes was like ten years. It was so painful I couldn't tell my tears from my sweat.
Even with the three pins in my bones, I did the practice everyday. I meditated twice a day and increased the time by one to two-minute increments. I practiced the standing exercise three times a day, for about 30 minutes in the beginning. I maintained this regiment for three months. My condition changed rapidly, so I thought it was time to get the pins out.
The doctors took scans at the hospital. They were shocked when they compared the new pictures with the old ones. My formerly flat femur was now round. The quality of the bone had returned to normal. This was a miracle to modern medicine. I told the doctors that it was the miracle of Dafa. The Chief of Medicine agreed that it was fine to take out the pins. The pins were sturdily inserted in the bone. During the operation, the table literally shook during the procedure. [The surgeons] had a tough time taking the longest pin out as it was in very deep. The Chief of Medicine and the surgeons all commented that [my recovery] was a miracle.
2. I Witness a Miracle of Dafa
When I was four years old my mother passed away. My older sister raised me until I could take care of myself. When my sister passed away, I was greatly affected. It made me sink deeply into the sentiment of family affairs. At that time I had practiced Dafa for only four months. I would cry every day. I didn't practice the exercises hardly at all, and I couldn't study the Fa. One day when I was holding the Falun (Law Wheel) in the second exercise, Master let me see the different colors of the turning Falun. They were translucent and all very beautiful. The Falun flew to my window and then outside. It changed to many different colors. This beautiful sight made me very excited. I knew it was Master encouraging me to be diligent. I decided to genuinely study the Fa. Otherwise I would be letting Master down.
My husband suffered a cerebral hemorrhage and passed away shortly afterward. It hadn't been a year since my sister's death. Since I had only attained the Fa for a short time and had just thrown away my crutches, this was a huge blow. With the demon of sentiment interfering with me, again I couldn't study the Fa. I didn't even want to live. My old illnesses came back, and I couldn't get out of bed again. The demon of sentiment kept interfering and I couldn't shake free of it. At this critical time, compassionate Master helped me again. When I was meditating, I saw white light shooting out of my body and my hands. The light lit up the house completely. When I was practicing the standing exercise, the light from my hands emanated very far. When my xinxing was good, if I got angry Master would point it out to me in a dream. I dreamed that I had fallen from above. So, I diligently practiced. Afterwards I dreamed that I returned to my original position. I came to enlighten that I had to give up every sentiment. I have to follow Master's path for me with determination to not be unworthy of his compassionate salvation.
After my husband passed away, I discovered a tumor the size of an egg under my left armpit. I didn't pay any attention to it. I was focused on following Master, and nothing [in my body] was wrong. Some time after, I decided I didn't like to study the Fa with the group and, instead, studied by myself. One day I dreamed that the entire floor was filled with dead bodies, only I was standing there. Master looked at me from not far away. It was a particularly sad scene. When I woke up I realized I should participate in group study and exercise. I was a Dafa disciple in the Fa rectification period. Only studying the Fa can save people. [The dream] was Master pointing it out to me, so I immediately rejoined the group.
The first day of 2002, I went with another practitioner to put up truth clarifying posters. After four or five were posted, I fell down hard and couldn't move. All of a sudden I remembered Master's words from Zhuan Falun: "It's hard to endure, but you can endure it. It's hard to do, but you can do it." I thought to myself, "Master is here, the Fa is here, there is no way that I cannot move. I can move." I got up and finished posting the truth clarifying posters with the other practitioner. I thought, "Now predestined people will be saved." With great difficulty I went to bed but couldn't sleep. I tossed and turned with discomfort. At 3 o'clock in the morning I felt as if I were being pinched. I could move my body again! I opened my eyes but didn't see anyone. No one was there. I felt my armpit and the tumor was gone. [The tribulation] was really Master cleansing my body to get rid of the tumor.
I cried for a long time, but I was excited. I thanked Master for his compassion. I felt that Master has gone through so much blood and tears for disciples, but we don't live up to his expectations. I was afraid of tribulations so my level elevated slowly. This time I thought to myself that I must be determined to genuinely cultivate and follow Master closely. I will walk to the end of this journey and walk the path directed by Master.
Because my level is limited, fellow disciples, please correct me on anything I've incorrectly enlightened to.
April 28, 2008
Category: Journeys of Cultivation