(Clearwisdom.net) Looking back at my cultivation, due to my lack of diligence, I took a long detour, stumbled a lot, and fell a lot. Along my path, I could always feel Teacher's benevolence, not wanting to give up even one single disciple.
It was arranged by Teacher that I be responsible for some technical work in Fa-rectification. When I was diligent and my cultivation state was good, I always had confidence when encountering issues. Even new issues that I never seen before did not seem hard to solve. When solving these problems, I often felt I was at the end of my rope, yet "after passing the shady willow trees, there will be bright flowers and another village ahead!" I felt my wisdom sometimes did not come from my own head, it came from the Fa. But when my cultivation state was not good, I seemed to lack wisdom, it seemed like my brain could not think when confronted with a slightly complicated issue.
Several days ago, some practitioner had a technical problem and needed my help. I encountered several issues that I had never seen before. I felt a lack of confidence. Then somehow I remembered a cartoon I had seen when I was little. Every time the main character encountered a difficulty, he would hold his sword high and call: "God, please give me strength." Then he would become so powerful that no one could beat him. The evil forces and demons could not defeat him. Looking back at it, I feel this is because of the main character's firm belief in God, thus he was able to triumph over anyone.
I could not help but pray in my heart: "Teacher, please give me some wisdom!" Immediately I felt my confidence increase a lot. After I overcame the issues that I had never encountered before, I was able to solve the technical problem smoothly.
If you improve yourself, and look at the issue again, everything is so clear. It's like looking back at primary school homework when we're in college. What seemed difficult before is so simple now.
Teacher told us a long time ago, "If you still are not fundamentally resolute in the Fa, everything else is out of the question." ("For Whom do You Practice Cultivation?" Essentials for Further Advancement) We could also ask ourselves, "How firmly do we believe in Teacher and Dafa?" This is a fundamental issue. Do we pay attention to it?
Above is my personal understanding, please point out anything incorrect.