(Clearwisdom.net) In the past several years, many practitioners resisted the demands of the evil after they had been arrested, and were able to escape from the prisons, resume cultivation and participate in Fa-rectification activities. It was really encouraging.
However, in the last two years, in my area, there have been numerous cases of practitioners who were not able to overcome the evil. One practitioner got ill after being arrested, another was beaten up and subsequently lost consciousness, still another was paralyzed as a result of an accident; and some were sent to forced labor or imprisonment. I was disappointed over these outcomes. Knowing that the evil party has arrested many practitioners because of the upcoming Olympics, I would like to share an experience of mine that may shed light on how we can handle these situations.
In the spring of 2004, a CCP agent reported me and several other practitioners, which resulted in us being arrested. At the National Security Bureau, when I was being interrogated by staff from the 610 Office, I was determined not to disclose other practitioners' information. Whatever they asked about our activities, I just said that I did it all. The conversations went something as follows:
Q: "Where did you get the materials?"
A: "I picked them up under the door."
Q: "Who distributed the materials?"
A: "I did."
Q: "How did you manage to distribute them along so many kilometers?"
A: "By riding my bike."
Q: "Who hung up the banners?"
A: "I did."
Q: "How did you do it with such a big banner?"
A: "I climbed up to one tree first, then another."
They did not believe me and were angry that I was not telling them what they wanted, so they started to beat me up. Half a dozen people took turns beating me. I sent forth righteous thoughts and did not feel the pain. Then came a short, heavyset guy who said viciously, "You guys posted my name on the Internet. Yes, I beat up all practitioners. So what?"
I found him really pathetic so I recited in my heart Teacher's article: "Stop the Evil Acts with Righteous Thoughts":
"When you are persecuted in any way you can use righteous thoughts to turn the tables on the bad people and stop the persecution. And this includes those who assault the students with punches and kicks: strong righteous thoughts can make the person's punches and kicks land on himself, or make the wicked policemen and the bad people lash out against each other, and they can transfer all the pain and injuries over to the wicked person or policeman who assaults you. But the premise is that you have strong righteous thoughts, no fear, and no human attachments, apprehension, or hatred; only when you're in that state will it be effective, and it will take effect as soon as your thoughts emerge. While sending righteous thoughts, don't panic or be afraid, and as long as that wicked person keeps being violent, keep sending righteous thoughts."
I was handcuffed to the chair and could not move. The guy was about to kick me in the chest, but then he wavered and almost fell. He panicked, "Are you sending forth righteous thoughts?" He stopped and said to me, "I know that several of you went out in a big vehicle. We know everything. You are just trying to cover for the rest them. They told us all." I retorted, "Why do you ask me if you already know?"
They did not have anything to say. So I started to talk to them. I told them that a former chief of the Beijing Public Security Bureau killed himself at the end of the Cultural Revolution for the many people he persecuted to death. And 813 communist cadres and police officers were sent to Yunnan for execution. The families only received their ashes and were told that they died on business. I told these guys that they should look after themselves and not persecute good people. They knew that they could not get anything out of me and wanted me to sign their paper. I said that I was not guilty; I was not going to sign anything. On the second day, I told them about the Peach Blossom Poem, a prophecy style poem, and the beauty of Falun Dafa. Some of the police officers said, "You are the only one that explained to us what Falun Dafa is." On the same day, they sent me to a detention center.
At the detention center, all I did every day was send forth righteous thoughts, and recite Teacher's articles and poems from Hong Yin. I talked to anybody who would listen about the beauty of Falun Dafa, the persecution, and I recited Hong Yin to them. Some of them loved to listen to what I had to say, some even wanted to learn. I was interrogated twice. They tried to coerce me into signing the paper. But I refused. Twenty days later, they told me that I had been sentenced to three years in forced labor. I thought to myself, "I have Teacher. What you say does not count. Only what my Teacher says counts." Then I received the notice for 18 months of forced labor, I was confused. I thought, "I did not yield to their pressure and have been sending forth righteous thoughts. How come it did not work?" Then I realized that I should not have this thought. I should not be confused about this illusion. I said to Teacher, "Forced labor camp is not a place for practitioners. I am here to assist Teacher to rectify the Fa. I have to leave here to validate the Fa. There are so many sentient beings that are waiting for me." I refused to accept the persecution and refused to sign their documentation.
On the way to Tangshan Forced Labor Camp, I kept sending forth righteous thoughts to eliminate the evil and the evil arrangements. When I arrived there, I was not feeling well. After a physical checkup, the administrator at the forced labor camp said to them that I could not be admitted because of my physical condition. So I was driven back to the Public Security Bureau.
At the Public Security Bureau, I was thinking, "They will not let me go easily. They will either send me to the detention center or the brainwashing center." After a while, I realized that these were not my true thoughts. I have to rectify my thoughts; I am not going anywhere other than to validate the Fa and save people. I sent forth righteous thoughts all night. At night, two police officers on duty wanted me to tell them about the Peach Blossom Poem, so I did. Then they asked the name of the police chief who committed suicide. I told them that it was Liu Chuanxin. The following day, the woman who escorted me to the forced labor camp said, "He is not sick, but the forced labor camp would not admit him." The captain yelled at me, "If we catch you distributing [Falun Gong] materials again, we will send you to forced labor again." I said to him, "You have to give me 2 yuan to send me home. I have no money on me." He could not help laughing and gave me 2 yuan.
I walked out of the gate of the Public Security Bureau, turned back and I couldn't believe that I was out, because I didn't think that I did well enough. When I realized that it was all true, I wondered about my fellow practitioners, whether they have been arrested or not.
No one, including my family members and my fellow practitioners believe that I could leave detention like that. My experience was an inspiration to them. Many former practitioners who had left Dafa, witnessed the power of Dafa from my experience, and decided to come back to Dafa.
Looking back over my arrest and detention, I realize that I did not do so well in certain areas. My human mentalities surfaced, at times very strongly. Compared to many diligent practitioners, I am not that good. However, I was able to tell the difference between what is truly me and what is not. At that time, the outcome really depended on how we choose. If we choose to follow a human mentality, the evil will arrest you and sentence you, and you would be helpless and everything would become unchangeable. However, if we choose righteous thoughts, are unwavering in our faith in Teacher and Dafa., and if we know clearly what our mission is, everything will change.
My experience is that we have to study the Fa more. With a good foundation, we will not waver in our faith in Teacher and Dafa, and we will pass all tests.
The above is my personal understanding only. Please kindly point out anything inappropriate.