A "Whack on the Head" That Woke Me Up

(Clearwisdom.net) I had a profound realization after repeatedly reading "Fa Teaching at the 2008 New York Conference."

A long time ago Teacher expounded the Fa clearly and asked us to do the three things well: Study the Fa, clarify the truth, and send forth righteous thoughts. But how have I been doing? I especially had a poor understanding on the Fa in regards to cultivating myself well. I recalled Teacher saying,

"Dafa disciples' personal cultivation and improvement are no longer an issue, nor is Dafa disciples' achieving Consummation." ("Fa Teaching at the 2007 New York Fa Conference")

Due to my poor understanding I slacked off in my personal cultivation. When I faced troubles and unpleasant situations, I found it difficult to search inward for my attachments. I ignored smaller attachments to fame, self-interest and sentimentality, and I failed to mind the details of etiquette. I was reluctant to actively take part in things to save sentient beings, and sometimes I even slacked off in practicing the Falun Gong exercises. I also rarely sent forth righteous thoughts at other than the four daily set times.

Reading Teacher's "Fa Teaching at the 2008 New York Conference" was a "whack on the head" that woke me up. I asked myself, "How do you know for sure you can reach Consummation? Do you meet the standard?" I have been having a good time while waiting for the Fa-rectification to complete, so as to reach Consummation and soar up to paradise! Isn't this an attachment to reaching Consummation? How can any cultivator attached to Consummation reach it? Isn't it selfish to think of nothing but reaching Consummation?

I may be doing the three things, but is my heart pure enough to attain the selfless and altruistic level Teacher requires of us? I got goose bumps as I asked myself these questions. When I contemplated not being able to reach Consummation, and being unable to save the sentient beings in my realm, I suddenly felt a cold sweat over my body, and I thought of the severe consequences.

I believed that I had clarified the truth to many people and persuaded many to quit the Chinese Communist Party and its associated organizations. I took delight in the number of sentient beings I had saved and fantasized about becoming the king of my sentient beings once I return to my paradise. But I realized that if I don't elevate my level I won't reach Consummation or save enough sentient beings. This is the severity of the problem, and it also shows the solemnity of cultivation.

In the final stage of the Fa-rectification, I must emphasize cultivating myself well and prioritize enhancing my cultivation level. I should do well the three things while assimilating to the Fa and cultivating myself so as to truly reach the standard for Consummation. By doing so, I will be able to save more sentient beings and be worthy of the hardship Teacher has compassionately endured in order to save us.