(Clearwisdom.net) Recently I read an article on Clearwisdom.net (http://www.clearwisdom.net/emh/articles/2009/1/22/104104.html) and was very touched. After being persecuted many times myself, I found that there was a deep-rooted fear in my mind. Whenever I thought about something, I tended to be afraid of being further persecuted. So even when I was at home, whenever I heard a car drive by or someone knock on the door, the fear would surface. As I did things, I always tried to protect myself using human notions. I realized this was a strong attachment, one that had to be let go of. Therefore, I spent hours and hours sending forth righteous thoughts, but the effect was limited.
One time, after hearing that another round of persecution was about to begin, I immediately told a fellow practitioner about it. That practitioner became very frightened and stopped doing anything. I felt very bad and realized that I had done something wrong. After this, whenever I heard information like that again, I no longer passed it on to other practitioners; I just kept it to myself. For a long time, I kept such information to myself, thinking that it was safer that way. Seeing that I was not yet enlightened, Master gave me a hint. In a dream, I saw the police coming and found myself surrounded. Even though I had undergone cosmetic surgery to alter my appearance, and I was lying on the ground face down, I was still was recognized. I then realized that human notions could not protect me--only steadfast faith in Master and Dafa is the safest. I thus began to recite the following passage of the Fa every day:
"If upon encountering trying circumstances your thinking can be truly righteous, then, when faced with the evil's persecution and when faced with interference, just one sentence of yours fortified with steadfast righteous thoughts can instantly make the evil disintegrate (applause), and it will make those who are being used by the evil turn and flee, it will make the evil's persecution of you dissolve, and it will make the evil's interfering with you disappear without a trace. One thought born of righteous faith is all it takes. And whoever can hold firm that righteous thought and go the distance will become a magnificent god forged by Dafa." ("Teaching the Fa at the Western U.S. International Fa Conference")
I also recited other lectures as well as Zhuan Falun. In addition, I read many sharing articles from fellow practitioners, especially those on eliminating the attachment to fear and opposing the evil persecution through righteous thoughts and righteous actions. Now my attachment of fear is much weaker than before.
In the past, I was always afraid of telling other people any personal information, and I was worried that the phone line might be bugged. Then I realized that, since my cultivation path is arranged by Master, whoever sees, hears, or knows what I say cannot influence me. If I do not acknowledge them, they will have no effect on me. When thinking about this, a warm current flowed all over my body. I was no longer disturbed by the attachment to fear. Even if it occasionally surfaced again, I realized that this was not the real me and began to recite the Fa-rectification verses. Those thoughts were gone immediately.
January 20, 2009
Category: Improving Oneself
