(Clearwidom.net) It has been many years that I have been immersed in the all-encompassing benevolence of Teacher, and I have benefited a lot. However, when it comes to the three things that Teacher has asked us to do, I have been falling short of the requirements. For this, I feel deeply ashamed. It is not that I don't want to do well. Whenever I am facing ordinary people, all kinds of thoughts emerge, obstructing me from clarifying the truth about Falun Gong. Afterwards, I would always feel sorry and regretful that I had missed yet another opportunity. I have often scolded myself for not advancing diligently in my cultivation, and therefore, not being able to create a righteous environment so that I can study the Fa freely.

When I calmed myself down and read Teacher's Fa, the righteousness and compassion that emanates from the words reminded me of the power of Dafa. When I encountered difficulties trying to save sentient beings, yet still believed in Dafa and eliminated various bad thoughts, the situation became better immediately and I experienced the greatness of Dafa. When I dug deep into the roots of my attachments, the changes in my environment made me experience the seriousness of Dafa. I have come to the understanding that human notions are dying, bad matter, to be destroyed and eliminated. My laziness and slacking-off in cultivation leave loopholes open for the old forces. I believe that I should grasp each and every thought and judge it according to the Fa. If the thought is not grounded in the Fa, I should get rid of it. The old forces are facing death and elimination, yet they are still struggling. They are watching practitioners and as soon as you slack off a little bit they will take advantage of our loopholes and interfere with our Fa-validation efforts.

My mother was illegally detained for practicing Falun Gong and had gone astray in her cultivation while facing the persecution. Over a very long period of time, I had been affected negatively by my human emotions and felt a lot of pain. When I realized it and let go of my emotions and attachment to family members, my mother returned to the cultivation of Dafa.

It is Dafa that has transformed me to become so broadminded. It is Dafa that made me enlighten to the true meaning of life. I have true joy because I live in the benevolence of Dafa. I enriched because Dafa is in my heart.

Teacher said, "......your work in society isn't cultivation, but your cultivation will be reflected in your work in society." ("Teaching the Fa in San Francisco, 2005")

Therefore, Dafa disciples' each and every thought should be judged according to the Fa, to have it meet the requirement of the Fa. We should do well the three things in order to not break our pledge to live up to the title of Fa-rectification period Dafa disciples.

Above is my limited understanding at my current stage of cultivation. Please kindly point out anything that falls short of the Fa.

Heshi

October 13, 2009