(Clearwisdom.net) I began practicing Falun Dafa in the spring of 1999. After I read the book Zhuan Falun for the first time, I felt that I had obtained an invaluable treasure, and blamed myself for obtaining it so late. Therefore, I raced against time to study the Fa and do the exercises. During the several months before July 20, 1999, when the persecution started, I had read Zhuan Falun over twenty times and persisted in doing the five sets of exercises every day. Within a month, I could practice on sitting in cross-legged for thirty minutes. My body was soon purified. Many of my diseases, including gastroenteritis, rheumatoid arthritis, hyperosteogeny and neurasthenia had completely disappeared. I didn't quite understand what was going on at the time, but just felt that Dafa was very wonderful. Now I understand that it was our revered Master who pulled me up.
Looking back at the past years, although the evil has severely persecuted Dafa and Dafa practitioners, many disciples and I experienced violent storms in our cultivation, and broke through various trials and tribulations. I was also arrested and persecuted by the evil. Nonetheless, on the cultivation path of Fa-rectification, I always pushed forward and never wavered in my mind regardless what difficulties or dangers were at hand. Under Master's revered care, I am here today even after being put through all these difficulties.
1. Master Just Being Around Me
In 2002, after I studied "Touring North America to Teach the Fa," I understood that the historic mission of Dafa disciples was to assist Master in saving sentient beings. This is when I started going out to clarify the facts about Falun Gong face-to-face.
I still remember once when I attended a wedding party, thinking that it was a good opportunity to save people with predestined relationships. Upon arrival, people whom I hoped to talk to voluntarily approached me. Without hesitation, they all quit the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) with no questions asked. That day twenty-eight people, most of whom are party members, quit the CCP. I was very excited at that time. When the party concluded, I looked around and found that there was one more person I hadn't talked to. I immediately hurried to him to talk about quitting the CCP, however, he didn't believe me. I then realized that I had developed the attachment of zealotry and therefore was interfered with by the evil. What a pity it was that I didn't save that person who should have been saved. From this lesson, I subsequently didn't have the attachment of zealotry with anyone else to whom I talked.
In the process of clarifying the truth and persuading people to quit the CCP, I usually had good results, but it was actually all arranged by Master. One of my colleagues is a Chinese Communist Party member and he worked at a different place. For a time I heard that he came back. So I hoped to clarify the truth to him, but it was inconvenient for me to go to his house. Then I thought how nice it would be if I could run into him somewhere. As a result, I actually encountered him several days later.
We have such a revered Master taking care of us. Who can stop us from assisting Master to save sentient beings? What reason can we then have for not coming out to fulfill our great prehistoric vows!
2. Fellow Practitioners Are Mirrors That Can Reflect Ourselves
The process of clarifying the truth is cultivation. If we can look inside every moment, we may find many attachments that are hard to detect, and it is a good opportunity for us to eliminate them. Especially when I clarify the truth with fellow practitioners, their positive aspects often encourage me to strive forward.
For example, one day a fellow practitioner and I traveled along the roadside to clarify the truth to some workers who were gathering there and waiting for jobs. We greeted them and started a conversation with them. Soon we began talking directly about the facts of Falun Gong and persuaded them to quit the CCP. As a result, more than ten people agreed, except for one man. There were others who were playing chess at that time, so we didn't talk to them, but planned to return in the future. Several days later, when we went back, the first person I saw was the man who didn't accept the truth before, so I decided to talk to him last. When I started clarifying the truth to others, my fellow practitioner went directly to that man and talked peacefully to him. Soon he happily quit the CCP. I didn't think too much of it at that time, but afterwards I thought more about the incident. Compared with my fellow practitioner who had a pure heart for saving sentient beings, I felt ashamed. I was attached to myself and was in a dilemma trapped by human thinking. It is just due to a selfish heart. There are many people who haven't been saved, but I chose people who seemed to be easily saved and postponed talking with those who seemed difficult. It seemed reasonable because I thought I could save time, but in actuality I missed many sentient beings with predestined relationships.
I must therefore drop all attachments, break though human notions and just follow the course of nature. Once I have the opportunity, I must help save everyone, yet I also shouldn't be attached. The ultimate point is that we should consider everything for sentient beings without any selfishness or distinctions.
3. Sentient Beings' Words Have "Reasons"
From the Fa, we know that any incidental things are not accidental. Therefore, no matter what we hear, what we see, or what we encounter, we need to look inside to find whether there is an attachment that hasn't been removed. The process of clarifying the truth is the best way to identify them. Looking back at the beginning of my clarifying the truth, some people specifically asked me about matters that I wasn't clear on because I didn't have a deep understanding of the Fa. Afterwards, I heartily persisted in studying the Fa and have accomplished my fifth round of reciting it. I became much clearer on the Fa principles, which has helped me to answer all questions and help these sentient beings accept the truth.
People often mention money to me. I clarify the truth to them, but they just ask for money or don't believe that compassion really exists in the world.
I have looked inside and considered why people often mention money to me. One reason might be that they have been deeply poisoned by the evil CCP, which causes them to lose their morals and only pursue money. The other reason might be related to my xinxing. Since I'm consistently hearing about money, are there any attachments of fame and self interest that I haven't completely removed? I thought that I had been not attached to fame or self interest and I had believed what Master said,
"If something is yours, you will not lose it. If something is not yours, you will not have it even if you fight for it." (Zhuan Falun)
Therefore, I didn't care about these things and just followed the course of nature. However, those human thoughts that were developed over thousands of years had already deeply melted into my bones and it was not easy to eliminate them all at once, but I knew we must eliminate them gradually with time. We can manage large matters well, but some small issues can appear now and then. In this case it is ordinary human thoughts, and I cannot accept them. I must firmly destroy and eliminate them. Regarding jumping out of the human level, Master wrote,
"...humankind must fundamentally change its conventional thinking." ("Lunyu," from Zhuan Falun)
Moreover, the question "where does compassion really exist?" also shocked me (maybe he didn't point at me). What we cultivate is Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance, but this person said there was no trustfulness. Although I persuaded him to be kind on several occasions, he still didn't understand. Isn't this my problem? I was mixed with emotion and selfishness, rather than having compassion. Otherwise, why wasn't I able to help him accept the truth? Remembering that on various occasions, I had trouble with people who didn't accept me and showed evil, and I thought they were too hard to save, so I needed to save the easier ones. Measuring myself with the Fa, I was far from the requirements of Dafa. Due to selfish thoughts and the heart of validating myself, I felt that my self-esteem was damaged by them and that they were very opinionated. Although they were my colleagues, they were much harder to save than those people I didn't know. Actually, it was me who was opinionated. Their reactions were just expressed to remind me to cultivate. I must remove the thoughts of being attached to myself and my emotions. If I can't be equally compassionate to every sentient being, I am far from being compassionate.
All sentient beings are in a maze. Many Chinese are deeply poisoned by the evil CCP and know nothing about how dangerous their situation is. How pitiful they are. If we don't save them, they will be destroyed. How can we complain about them? We should save them without enmity and repentance. If I delay the saving of sentient beings, I will be a sinner in history. Finally, I have decided that I must save those who are hard to save.
Actually, if we let go of ourselves and our emotions, eliminate the fear of losing face or damaging self-esteem, and talk with a peaceful and compassionate heart, it is not hard to clarify the truth. One of my neighbors is a communist party member. The first time I clarified the truth to him, he told me that he refused to quit the CCP because all he ate and drank came from the CCP. But I didn't lose heart. A few days later, I went back to his home and talked with a peaceful heart about the beauty of Dafa and the tricks used by the evil CCP to cheat the public. He finally understood and happily quit the CCP. He told me at last, "You have such a good attitude, you can succeed in anything." I also understood that Master used his mouth to encourage me. What I can do is only to strive forward vigorously, and cherish Master's kindness.
Dear fellow practitioners, during the last moments of Fa-rectification, let's closely follow Master, hurry up and do the three things well. Firmly embrace the great mission that history gave to Dafa disciples to save more sentient beings. Sentient beings are depending on us. We should write a glorious page in history.
