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Greetings Master!
Greetings Fellow Practitioners! As I think about my nearly ten years of cultivation with my children, I feel there is ample room for improvement. Though I also feel somewhat gratified.
My first child was born in 1999 when the evil had just started the persecution of Dafa. The overwhelming lies broke the peace of my harmonious family. My husband was afraid that our daughter would be influenced by me and become interested in cultivating Falun Gong, so he took her to his mother's home. I was selfishly relieved and thought this would give me time to do what I should.
That same night a dream hinted that I needed to take good care of my child and I should not let her go to an environment with only ordinary people. Shortly after I enlightened to this, my husband went abroad.
My daughter listened to Fa every day and she was very happy when I practiced the exercises near her. Her happiness touched me and my family, giving me confidence to take good care of her.
One day a fellow practitioner visited me and suggested that I take my daughter out to validate the Fa. Although my daughter was too young to go to Beijing, we were able to do something locally. The fellow practitioner said that on the first day of the Chinese New Year, we could all go to a large square to practice the exercises. I agreed.
The firecrackers on the eve of the Chinese New Year were extremely loud and frightened my daughter. To calm her, I covered her ears. I wondered: "Will we be alright the next day?"
On the second day, I went out with my daughter. She was just two months old. Surprisingly, she was very quiet, not bothered at all by the firecrackers along the way. I came to understand that I must do this, to step out and tell people that Falun Gong is good. We took a taxi. When we arrived at the site, many undercover police were waiting for us. We were sent to a drug rehabilitation center. Many fellow practitioners were already there. I did not bring anything with me, not even a diaper, what could I do? There was a boy, about a year and half old, who was crying. When he saw me, he smiled. He gave me a pear he was eating. I thought Master was encouraging me with his innocent smiling face. I was much relieved.
After we registered, we were then told to go to the fifth floor. Suddenly my daughter cried and screamed. Her voice touched everyone in the lobby. Children actually know more than adults. She was actually protesting this illegal detention. Why are good people detained, including a two-month-old baby? But at that time many practitioners did not realize this, they thought to be detained was part of cultivation. I was determined that I should go home, why should I stay in the rehabilitation center?
We were there all through the day. My daughter was quiet the rest of the day. She just looked at me peacefully. Because I did not have a diaper with me her pants and the quilt she was wrapped in were wet. We were finally sent home at night. I explained the benefits I received from practicing Falun Gong to the policemen while in the car during the drive. Eventually they did not argue anymore, they listened to me quietly. The policemen even took off his coat to cover my baby. I was very grateful to him. It was very cold outside and my daughter was freezing in the wet pants and quilt.
After we arrived home, I understood that my daughter is here to obtain the Fa and also to help me. She did not make any trouble for me. Why did I follow everyone to the fifth floor, and have her suffer with me for the whole day? Cultivation is not meant to follow the wrong arrangements.
My daughter continued to listen to the Fa as she grew up. She also went through many episodes of karma elimination, and each time was also a test for me. I worried when it became very serious, which actually prolonged the process. After I finally got rid of the attachment, she would overcome an issue quickly. Once she had high fever that lasted three days without eating and drinking. I was very worried and I brought nutritious food to her, but she did not want any. Then she rolled in the bed and said: "What can I do, what can I do?" I comforted her: "It is alright. Master will help you and you will be fine soon." She gradually calmed down and asked to listen to the Fa. She fell asleep and when she woke up, she was back to normal.
When my daughter learned to walk, sometimes she would grab my hands when she could see Master, but I could not see.
After she learned to send forth righteous thoughts, she would sometimes suddenly come to me and say: "Evil is here, send forth righteous thoughts." She learned to talk at a very early age and she was able to recite the poems in Hong Yin after hearing them three times.
I always took her with me to put up Dafa posters. Each time we hung one up, she would say: "Falun Dafa is good." She always dragged me to where there were many people. She was very happy each time we put up posters.
We went overseas before she turned three years old. She helped to pass out flyers and always encouraged me to read the Fa to her. When I read about the beauty of other dimensions she did not want me to stop. "Mom, continue reading, do not stop." When I said that I need to cook, she said: "Do not cook, continue reading. Do you know that when you read, Master puts gold in my mind? After you finish reading, the book is in my mind and I can open it up sometimes to read."
When she was four, she could read Hong Yin I and Hong Yin II. She would read from the beginning to the end without stopping. She told me when she reads it, demons will turn to smoke.
When she was five, she could read Zhuan Falun herself. She would read the whole lecture nonstop. I did not have time to teach her the characters. Dafa opened up her wisdom. She was also able to read other books, but in the past when I tried to teach her the characters with other books, she did not progress much.
However, after we had another child and our older daughter went to school, the family burden became heavier and we did not have much time to study the Fa. We also did not do well in sending forth righteous thoughts. The relationship with my husband was challenging and because of my poor state of cultivation, my younger daughter always cried, which made me tired physically and mentally. Sometimes I thought she came to interfere with me. I did not look inside of myself.
I borrowed some DVD movies for them to watch, hoping this would calm them down. Instead, these distorted DVD programs pushed them further and further away from the Fa. For a while they refused to listen to the Fa and frequently interfered with my studying , doing the exercises and truth clarification. Their behavior shocked me. I was destroying them. They were also constantly sick. This made me even more tired and I could barely do the three things.
Master says:
"A person is like a container, and he is whatever he contains. All of what a person sees with the eyes and hears with the ears are: violence, lust, power struggles in literary works, struggles for profit in the practical world, money worship, other manifestations of demon-nature, and so on. With his head filled with these, this kind of person is truly a bad person, no matter what he appears to be. A person's behavior is dictated by his thoughts. With a mind full of such things, what's a person able to do?" ("Melt Into the Fa" from Essentials for Further Advancement)
As I looked inside myself and tried to adjust my schedule. I tried to study the Fa with my girls, letting them listen to the Fa quietly and I also took them to hand out newspapers at the airport. Sometimes I let them watch cartoon programs and listen to the radio programs made by Dafa disciples. They loved it.
One day, my younger daughter was listening to the programs, when she suddenly understood something. She asked me: "What is clarifying the truth? To pass out flyers is to clarify the truth?" I said, "Yes." She then wanted to pass out flyers. She took the flyers about the crime of organ harvesting, and passed them out one by one. She was only two and half years old at that time. They also helped hand out gala flyers. The innocence of children touches people. Most people would take the flyers from them and say "Thank you!"
Therefore, I want to say thank you to those who make cartoon and radio programs for young Dafa disciples. Our young children benefit a great deal from these. My two children understand the inner meaning of cultivation from these programs, such as the great forbearance of Han Xin, returning to true nature, clarifying the truth, saving people from disaster, etc. One day my younger daughter told me: "Mom, I understand what forbearance is. When my older sister hits me, I will not cry and fight back. I will just laugh it off."
My younger daughter also loves listen to the Fa. If I stop while reading the Fa, she will say: "Mom, do not stop." When I pass out newspapers at the airport, she listens to the Fa beside me and sends forth righteous thoughts. One day, my tooth hurt, but I needed to make food for them. I felt really bad. She said: "Mom, evil is interfering with you. I will help you eliminate it." I suddenly felt relieved and the pain disappeared. Once she told me: "There is evil preventing an auntie from sending forth righteous thoughts. I will help her." She said "Mie" and the evil was eliminated.
When we study the Fa and do the exercises, she sees beautiful scenes from other dimensions. She told me that many, many Buddhas are studying the Fa and the heavenly beauties are spreading flowers. There are big and golden houses and she also has a home in heaven. Her heavenly mother is very kind. Ma, it is really great!
Now she can meditate for one hour. Each time after she finishes the sitting meditation, she would Heshi and bow with gratefulness, and say loudly: "Thank you Master!" I know this is from the bottom of her heart. I am really grateful to Master to let her become a Dafa disciple. One day she told her dad: "I am a Falun Dafa disciple. Falun Dafa is good!"
Now my older daughter is able to read the Fa on her own, and has become much more mature. I am continuing to study the Fa and do the exercises with them every day. The three of us together creates a small Fa study group. We do the exercises in the morning and study the Fa after dinner. My younger daughter is nearly four years old. She always tells me: "Mama, studying the Fa and doing the exercises is so wonderful."
As parents, we all desire a bright future for our children. Master said:
"No matter what you give to others, it's not as good as giving them the Fa. No matter how good what you give someone is, or no matter how much money you give him, he is happy for only one lifetime or one moment. But if you give him the Fa, his life will be happy forever. What could be better than the Fa?" (Teaching the Fa at the Western U.S. Fa Conference, February 21 and 22, 1999, Los Angeles)
I realized that all Dafa disciples' children are here for the Fa. Hereby I hope all Dafa disciples' children are able to know the beauty of studying the Fa and doing the exercises. I hope our group sharing is able to benefit our children and help bring them into cultivation with their parents.
Here is my understanding to share with you, please provide your comments to help me improve!
Thank you Teacher,
Thank you my fellow practitioners.
2009 US West Falun Dafa Experience Sharing Conference
