(Clearwisdom.net) I was very fortunate to obtain the Fa in 1997. After a few months, the myriad diseases that plagued me disappeared. Before I began to cultivate, I considered suicide several times, unable to take the pain. I had very painful headaches, so painful that they made me want to bang my head against a wall; I had nervous system disorders, and could only sleep two or three hours a day. I was not able to smell anything for the last 30 years because of nasal inflammation. My lung inflammation would recur every winter, and there'd be stomach problems, flu, chest pain, and so much more. I had no idea how to cure all these problems. Not only that, due to my health, I had a very bad temper. Everyone at home was afraid of me and didn't even dare to talk to me. It was truly painful. Falun Dafa miraculously cured all of my diseases and saved my life.
On July 20, 1999, I wanted to go to Beijing to tell the government leaders about the goodness of Falun Dafa. I wanted to tell them that not only can it cure diseases, it can also purify your heart and improve your morality. However, we were arrested, detained, and fined. For distributing materials to clarify the truth behind the persecution, I was illegally imprisoned in a forced labor camp. The multitude of hardships made me attached to consummation. I could not give up my emotion and walked a long and arduous path. Yet, compassionate Master has never given up on me and gave me many wake up calls. Through Master's enlightenment and with help from other practitioners, I returned to the path of cultivation in August 2003. I hugged Zhuan Falun and cried nonstop. The feeling could never be described in words. Only then did I realize the preciousness of the Fa and the solemn nature of cultivation.
Returning to the path of cultivation is not so simple. The evil forces began to persecute my body. I had no energy and could not eat. My children carried me on a bicycle to their home. After a few days, I walked home slowly, holding onto the walls for support. I could not cook, nor did I want to eat anything. I thought, "I must not die. If I were to die, the evil will make use of this to slander Master. Even if I have to crawl, I want to go to Tiananmen Square and shout 'Falun Dafa is good!'"
I cultivated without being able to see anything using my Third Eye, yet one day I saw a basketball-sized toad, a snake, a crocodile and a witch ghost on the TV. Seeing that I still had righteous thoughts, Master cleared them away. Later, my body began to recover and I began to study the Fa more. I understood the responsibilities of a Dafa disciple in the Fa-Rectification Period. We are to assist Master in Fa-Rectification, in doing the three things, and are not doing it for our own personal consummation.
In clarifying the truth and helping others withdraw from the Party, I met many people. Once I was clarifying the truth to a young man. He began to shout vulgarities after only a few sentences. But from his eyes I could still see kindness. I thought, "I have to rescue him," and together with another practitioner's help, I talked to him three times. In the end, he agreed to withdraw his membership from the Party.
Sometimes, I still could not achieve 100 percent faith in Master. Last year during the New Year holiday, I developed severe flu symptoms. I was very worried because on the ninth day of the Chinese New Year my son's mother-in-law would be celebrating her sixtieth birthday and would host a big celebration. I had talked to them many times about withdrawing from the Party, but they had always refused. In their entire family, there are perhaps a dozen Communist Party members. I thought that I had to use this opportunity. Yet, I was down with flu symptoms. I could only ask for Master's assistance, "Master, I want to go save others, yet in my current state... all of them know that I practice Falun Gong. I beg Master to strengthen me."
The next morning, I put on my clothes, took a towel, and left. On the way I talked to the bus driver and encouraged him to withdraw from the Party. He quickly agreed and even thanked me. All along the way I did not sneeze at all. Once I arrived at their place, both of them withdrew from the Party and also asked for Dafa amulets (1). At the banquet, I did my best to help more than a dozen people quit the Party organizations, among which were perhaps four or five Party members, and the rest were Youth League members. Once I returned home, my sneezing and flu symptoms returned. I realized that taking a towel along was acknowledging the sickness and showed my lack of full faith in Master.
In this last stretch of Fa-Rectification, I will be diligent, study the Fa more, assimilate into the Fa, save sentient beings, and follow Master home.
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(1) Amulets - In China, practitioners sometimes "clarify the truth" by giving people something small to wear or cherish, bearing a few words reminding them of the goodness of Dafa.
