(Clearwisdom.net) Recently, I was reported to the management of my company for distributing truth-clarification materials at my workplace. As a result, I was summoned to their office to have a discussion. At that time, I didn't look within and I only had the thought that everything I encountered was a good opportunity for me to clarify the truth. Therefore, I told them clearly, "Heaven will eliminate the Chinese Communist Party (CCP)," and, "There's nothing wrong with following the principles of Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance." Afterwards, I felt very content with myself as I wasn't intimidated by them. However, to my surprise, they suspended part of my job responsibilities.
My company is a state-owned business that offers high salaries to its employees. Deceived by the CCP, many of my colleagues were very grateful to the CCP for the handsome amount of money they received working there. Therefore, they were unwilling to listen to the facts about Falun Gong and even held hostility towards Falun Gong. There were also people who were too frightened to read or listen to any truth-clarification materials. Of course, with the evil being cleansed from the universe, the knowing side of people is becoming stronger and stronger, though they still possess a lot of fear. The newly appointed manager still felt insecure about his position and was very concerned about anything that might jeopardize his career. I realized that if I kept clarifying the truth irrationally, I could only push the manager and my colleagues away, as they didn't want the higher-ups to accuse them of siding with Falun Gong practitioners. After further reflection, I found I still had a lot of attachments.
I tended to rely on overseas practitioners to clarify the truth. In my company, many people have the opportunity to go on business trips to other countries. I thought they should have understood the truth after witnessing the spread of Falun Gong overseas. Obviously, I overestimated that possibility. Overseas practitioners are a great help, but practitioners inside China should also do well so we can harmonize Dafa as a whole body.
I also had the attachment to emotion. When I clarified the truth to my colleagues before, some of them did not oppose me, or even accepted some truth-clarification materials to read. I then took it for granted that they had understood the truth. I forgot that everything revolves around Dafa and any human notion is an obstacle in our cultivation path. As a result, the evil exploited my omissions and made my colleagues hostile to Falun Gong.
Another problem I had is that when clarifying the truth, I failed to consider the recipient's level of understanding. I tended to talk about whatever I felt was right without asking myself whether it was appropriate for my audience. Nowadays very few people believe in the existence of Gods and many have lots of karma. The evil is also looking for every opportunity to interfere. As a result, sometimes when I brought up the concept that "good will be rewarded and evil will be punished," people would think I was cursing them and didn't believe their good deeds will bring good fortune.
Even after I dug out the above-mentioned attachments, I still felt something missing. Then when I was told that part of my job would be suspended, I began to look inside even further and realized I had more problems.
First of all, I failed to maintain a calm mind when studying the Fa and tended to hold on to my acquired notions. I was ecstatic when enlightening to higher Fa principles and wanted to show off. I felt that other practitioners were not as superior as me. When fellow practitioners pointed out that I acted like a boss, I disagreed in my heart.
Second, I was inclined to look at other people's shortcomings. I lacked compassion and failed to cultivate my speech. The words that came out of my mouth often were not pure, and carried selfish messages. No wonder I didn't do well in saving sentient beings.
Lastly, I found I had deeply-hidden jealousy and I used the excuse of validating Dafa to cover up this attachment. This time, my manager explicitly told me that my job was partly suspended solely because of my belief in Dafa. I realized that I had to relinquish my jealousy so I sent forth righteous thoughts to eliminate it. Afterwards, I felt much more clearheaded. I saw during sending forth righteous thoughts that the evil has no way to persecute Dafa disciples, but it is using the excuse of testing Dafa disciples to destroy numerous sentient beings. Therefore, I was determined to let go of my hatred towards those people who reported on me. I thought to myself that I must cultivate myself well so in the future no one will be destroyed by reporting me or committing other sins against Dafa. Once I had this thought, I found my whole office filled with peace and harmony. The evil elements in other dimensions were disintegrated. I then asked Master to strengthen me, and I went to talk to my manager. This time I tried to talk in a way that he could understand. I told him that I knew he didn't want me or other Dafa practitioners to be persecuted because that's equivalent to persecuting himself. In the end, he said, "Rest assured that you can keep working here."
From this incident I realized what Master told us before, that on the surface it is us seeking everyday people's support and help, but in fact we are saving them. So during our truth clarification, we must not go against our audience, but instead try to put ourselves in their shoes. When they feel our compassion, they will understand. In the future, I will work harder to demonstrate the wonderfulness of Dafa to people and save more sentient beings.
Category: Improving Oneself
