(Clearwisdom.net) I started to practice Falun Gong in 1996. Before 1999, I used to practice the exercises in a park in the morning and studied the Fa with a group in the evening. Fellow practitioners helped me to find my attachments. We studied the Fa more and cultivated diligently. I felt that I improved very fast and my Xinxing reached a very high level.
When the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) started to persecute Falun Gong in July, 1999, I put down my attachments. I wrote a letter to my family and took my child (a fourth grade student) and went with another practitioner to Beijing to clarify the truth to the government. When we went to Tienanmen Square, a clerk asked me if I was a Falun Gong practitioner, because if someone wanted to go to Tienanmen, he or she had to answer that question. I didn't answer, so the clerk searched me and took some Fa lectures from me and a banner with the words "Falun Dafa Is Good" from the other practitioner. We were taken to the backyard. The police told us to hold on to the banner. I was thinking that this was a good chance to speak out and show the banner, so we held up the banner and shouted, "Falun Dafa is good!"
We were taken to the Tienanmen police station, where many practitioners stood in one line. A police officer told us that whoever promised not practice Falun Gong anymore could leave. Only one person cooperated with him. One of the officers threatened me, but I was not scared. We were taken to a room with bars, where so many practitioners were present. I felt very encouraged when we repeated Teacher's poems from Hong Yin, and I could not help but shed tears. At that time, one of the officers pointed at me and said, "You, take your kid and come on out." When I left, the other practitioners shouted, "Don't beat Dafa practitioners! Don't beat Dafa practitioners!" I was taken to a small room and an officer asked me where I came from: "What are you doing here with a kid in this New Year season? Go home. Don't come here anymore." Then he pushed me out. I asked him to release my fellow practitioner, but he did not pay an attention to me at all.
Later I asked a fellow practitioner that had been illegally sent to a forced labor camp for one year whether or not she was scared. She said, "Who is not afraid?" From that point on, I have believed that only someone with righteous thoughts can escape the persecution. I then trusted in Teacher and the Fa more.
Around the time of the Olympic Games in 2008, a practitioner was arrested. The police searched his home and confiscated some Falun Gong informational materials, a computer, a printer, and more. I was present at the time and felt nervous. The next day, my attachment of fear appeared and I hid my printer. I heard some sounds outside and was afraid the police would show up. I looked down from the balcony to see whether there was a police car on the street. I realized that this might be the attachment of pursuit. I sent forth righteous thoughts to eliminate this attachment. While we studied in the group, other practitioners sent forth righteous thought to help me get rid of this attachment. They used the Fa to help me to have righteous thoughts, and then I felt better.
When my attachment to fear became less, the police did come. They said that two practitioners had told them about me. The police took my computer away and said they would check what was on it. Because of my attachment, I cooperated with them, for which I was very regretful.
When I was looking inside, I noticed that my righteous thoughts were not as strong when I noticed that other practitioners were arrested. Since my curiosity about a certain website was strong and I had an attachment to showing off while explaining the facts and as well as to fame, I was taken advantage of by the authorities. My computer was taken away, and I was shocked. I looked inside immediately and found many attachments: fear, laziness, showing off, curiosity, watching TV, and more.
I decided to get rid of them and sent forth righteous thoughts every hour. I did not let myself watch TV, and I studied the Fa more. I reviewed Teacher's lectures and eliminated my fear. I also made a "Solemn Declaration." I then phoned the police and asked to have my computer returned. Finally, after 26 days, I got my computer back.
Due to my attachments, I didn't have righteous thoughts and was thus persecuted and did something wrong with regard to Dafa. When I realized this and corrected my behavior, I returned to my righteous path. I truly experienced that, through righteous thoughts and righteous behavior and believing in Teacher and the Fa, one can avoid a detour and persecution.
