(Clearwisdom.net) I visited Beijing recently. While riding in a taxi, I tried toclarify the facts to the driver. I talked to him about the persecution of Falun Gong by the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) from the perspective of a third party. Then the driver asked me, "How do you perceive Falun Gong?" Before I could reply, he told me of an experience he had.
Once he drove a client around the city for quite a long time. It turned out that the client owed him over 200 yuan, but he did not have enough money with him. He said, "I practice Falun Gong. We abide by the principles of Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance. Please give me your phone number and I will pay you in three days." The driver did not take his words seriously. He could not do anything about it if the client did not have enough money to pay, but he gave the client his number anyway. To his surprise, the client called him the next day. He not only paid the money he owed, but also took his taxi again for that day. The driver told me he once served in the army and joined the CCP. When the CCP started to slander Dafa, he knew it was wrong from his experience with that practitioner client. He recognized the high moral level and dignity of cultivators during a time when morality has degenerated so severely. The driver said that that practitioner continued to clarify the facts to him and also gave him a Dafa keepsake. The driver said, "Actually, everybody knows what Falun Gong is and that the CCP fabricates lies."
Through our chatting, I learned that his daughter studies in a school in Britain and that he did not know about withdrawing from the CCP and its affiliated organizations. I talked to him about why people should withdraw from the CCP and the current situation. I also suggested he talk to his daughter and ask her to help his whole family withdraw. He readily agreed. However, I regretted that I did not directly help him to withdraw. He drove me to my home and I worried about my safety. In addition, I had explained the facts to him as a third party and it would not have been very appropriate for me to help him withdraw. In all, it was my selfishness and my attachment to fear. Compared to the other practitioner, I did very poorly.
The impressions people have about Dafa are gained from their perceptions of practitioners' behavior. The story of the practitioner client helped me realize that, as a Dafa practitioner, I should behave like that fellow practitioner and measure myself against the requirement set for us by Dafa. We should always keep our word and be considerate of others all the time. As long as we can carefully follow Master's words, we will be able to reveal the CCP lies and slander and validate Dafa by our own behavior.
I am really ashamed of myself when I think about my own behavior.
I obtained the Fa in 2005, and only a few friends and family know that I practice Falun Gong. My parents were no longer young when I was born, so they really spoiled me. Although I am a very simple person, I am quick-tempered. I easily loose my temper if things do not go the way I want. I often fuss at my mother (a fellow practitioner) for petty things and loose my temper when educating my child. My husband is quick-tempered, too, but I have never made any compromises with him. Our relationship is getting worse and worse. At my job, I do not have good relationships with my colleagues, either. Although I have changed gradually after practicing Falun Gong, I still cannot do things well. I made mistakes in dealing with lust before I obtained the Fa, but I have not seriously faced it. After I fell down on my path of cultivation, I still did not enlighten to the issue. Instead, I was involved in a fight with everyday people and exhausted myself. I was not even able to do the work in everyday people's society well. I have not been able to let go of certain attachments to this day, and every now and then they still interfere with me.
Once after reading articles on Minghui/Clearwisdom, my daughter asked me, "Mom, can you be counted as a cultivator?" I said, "I should be. Although I am not able to do well, I am trying." She shook her head and said, "I cannot tell that." Because I have not been able to do well, I have affected my daughter's understanding of Dafa. She has not completed reading Zhuan Falun even once. Once after we had a family conflict, my mother-in-law said, "You claim that you believe in this or that kind of thing. You should find your own problems!"
My behavior does not conform to the Fa. The reason is that I do not study the Fa well and do not completely believe in the Fa. Only the attachments that I cannot let go of in this delusion can block my path to divinity.
Category: Improving Oneself
