(Clearwisdom.net) I am a Dafa disciple who was fortunate enough to start practicing Falun Gong in 2002. Before I started the practice, I had a very overbearing personality. Due to my strong desire to outdo others, I often had arguments with my father and even changed my last name. I met someone, and we got married. My husband's family was poor. His mother and younger brother were handicapped. I worked hard day and night and had a job and a house. Due to long periods of hard labor, my health deteriorated and I suffered from all kinds of illnesses.
In 2002, recommended by an acquaintance, I finished watching Master's video lectures in one sitting. I thought to myself, "How did Master manage to explain so clearly the origins of human life? If everyone acted according to the requirements of the Fa, that would be great!" I was deeply touched.
When I first started my cultivation, tears flowed down my cheeks as I read Zhuan Falun. I understood the fundamental reason for my poor health and strongly regretted hurting my family members due to my overbearing character. I vowed to follow Master in cultivation right to the end. As I did not have a Dafa book initially, I borrowed one and started to copy it by hand. I drew the illustrations of the exercise movements and read the Fa a lot every day. I could also endure many hardships while doing the exercises. No matter how much my legs hurt while practicing the sitting meditation, I did not take my legs down.
After I started my cultivation, I had many tribulations that tested my forbearance. Other than that, I basically managed to thoroughly let go of my human notions in other areas and was not attached to personal gains. Within two months, all my illnesses vanished, and I truly experienced the bliss of good health, free of all diseases! All these blessings come from Dafa and Master's compassion!
On my path of cultivation, the hardest test I faced was to let go of my attachment to competitiveness. It was a heart-wrenching experience. The first test came from my husband. Before, I used to think that I was quite remarkable. I was very overbearing at home. Because my husband and his family were poor and I was the main breadwinner for the family, for a long time, I looked down on my husband. After I started cultivating, he changed. Previously he was weak willed. Now he even dared to throw a fit at me. Through studying the Fa, I realized that I should get rid of my mentality to competitiveness. In the midst of the tribulation, I found it very difficult to completely let go of this attachment. Often, tears welled up in my eyes. Master gave me hints constantly, and I also studied the Fa constantly. Fellow practitioners kindly encouraged me, too. Gradually, I saw my attachment and understood my mission. I changed my attitude towards my husband, respected his opinion, and was considerate of him. My husband saw the change in me, and, although he has yet to start practicing Dafa, he is very respectful towards the Fa. He is also extremely supportive of my truth clarification activities. Once he even took out a significant sum of money for me to print Dafa brochures. He also reads Dafa books and brochures. He is very friendly towards Dafa practitioners. When friends and relatives visit us, he takes the initiative to persuade them to renounce their Party membership.
Not long after I started practicing Dafa, I learned how to produce informational brochures and took part in truth clarification activities. Once practitioners in the region got together and decided to distribute the flyers during a festive period. I am an impatient person and wanted to quickly produce the materials so that we could go out to distribute them. Consequently, there was a problem with the materials due to my attachment to doing things. Another practitioner said, "Your state of mind is not pure. Stop producing the materials!" I flared up and got into an argument with him. The printer stopped functioning. I calmed down and reflected on what had happened. Suddenly I understood. Hadn't I stepped into the trap arranged by the old forces? The old forces wanted gaps to appear among practitioners. I peacefully shared my understandings of the Fa principles with that practitioner. We realized that we should let go of our human notions and harmonize the whole body so that we could save sentient beings. We made huge progress in forming one body.
The above is just my personal understanding. Please kindly point out anything inappropriate.